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Cosmic-Corruption — I Know I'm Not That Strong
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Am I dreaming? Will I ever find you now?I walk in circles but I'll never figure out
What I mean to you, do I belong?
I try to fight this but I know I'm not that strong
And I feel so helpless here
Watch my eyes are filled with fear
Tell me do you feel the same
Hold me in your arms again
I need your love
I need your time
When everything's wrong
You make it right
I feel so high
I come alive
I need to be free with you tonight
I need your love...
Yaaay, finally finished it WOO.
Now I really need to work on my ATs... ;^; sob.
N'aaw Spooks. She'd have such a hard time when it comes to admitting her feelings. Poor awkward thing.
Ezekiel is shirtless because and reasons.
Actually, I just wanted him to be shirtless.
She probably likes his scars. lmao
Hum hum hum, okay then.
I love and hate this. One day I'll draw Zeke's eyes right in Sonic Style.
And I think her hands are too big. Even for the StH fandom. Poop.
She belongs to me.
You people should know who he belongs to by now
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spooks is so cute, I just can't take my eyes off her, she looks so pretty!, scars and all. I also love the size difference here too.
Zeke looks fittingly zeke-ish with that expression you have given him 
Ps. I don't think Spooks hands look too big for a sonic style 
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Oh man, don't let her hear you say that! She has appearances to keep up! She doesn't like being thought of as "cute" or "adorable" in any given circumstance 8'D
AH~ And I'm glad you think Zeke turned out so well! Sometimes I have some real issues with drawing him xD But it makes me feel better when people who know the characters think they've turned out okay. <:
Thanks for the comment, darl'n <3 I saw your recent picture and I plan on commenting on it soon once I can think of a comment that won't sound so generic. D8
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Spooks your adorable! 
I looove zeke, I did an rp with Tobi a while back where Zeke met my super grumpy necromancer, the two clashed, mostly because Zeke didn't trust him. But I simply loooove Zeke and his brash grumpyness!. (maybe we should make a Zeke fan stamp or something X3).
And Arin loved him too!, I'm hoping to continue the rp with Tobi and get him to meet my main character Moreta 8D.
Also love Eclipses design too!, her shade of blue mixed with Arins, they go so well together :3. and her hair! soooo pretty!!.
hehe thanks X3. I seem to have uploaded two zombie related pictures XD. My next one won't be though 8D.
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Unf, I can just feel her raging in that special place I store my brain babies when not using them D8
OH MAN, WE SHOULD BECAUSE I DO TOO. Before him, I've never used Spooks with a character who didn't tip toe around her and her moody personality. Most of the time everyone is too intimidated of her (Despite the fact she's scrawny) to cross her when I rp with her! But the first thing out of his mouth the first time they officially spoke to one another was an insult as how freaking skinny she is. It was a rough start 8'D And they're still like that at times. Even though I draw them all couply, they don't yet have that kind of relationship in rp. Zeke's only just started to crush on her- And Spooks is anti-love so it's gonna take awhile before she accepts that she might be falling for someone. Especially a guy. And especially a guy like Ezekiel.
And Arin's just as great (Though Zeke's slightly more my favorite 8'D) Him and Eclipse act so cute together when they're not focused on a mission. I describe E as easy, because she's really naive and easily impressed, and it didn't take much charming on Arin's behave to have her fawning over him lmao
Eclipse's hair is my favorite part of drawing her <3 I just love it. Of course, hair is my favorite thing to color anyways!
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hahahah that's funny! and really cool that people find her intimidating despite her size! I have a character that folks are intimidated by because he's so tall!
Insults are always a good starting point! XD, I mean they say to kids guy sact like assholes to you because they like you
hey those pics can acts as inspiration to reach that goal in the rp :3, because they would be fun to write as a couple I'd imagine.
hm? Anti love huh? poor gal, what made her that way?
Hair is your favorite thing to colour? I never would have guessed!, looking at all your art. Your technique for doing hair looks terrific!.I'm rather jealous! As hair constantly gives me a hard time DX.
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Technically, Spooks is average in height but she has a very delicate body structure. She does have a bit of muscle mass though, as she's not afraid to do hard labor. She likes to think she has the ability to do any job a man can, but better.
Zeke didn't realize she was his commanding officer at the time! 8'D But even after he realized it, he didn't start showing her much respect until he saw her in action, using her blades and even a pair of his quills to take down the enemies they were facing. She's just naturally skinny really, but in the world our rp is set in, food is sometimes hard to come by and it has to be rationed out sparingly. Spooks has a habit of going without for the sake of keeping the refugees she's leading alive.
Unf, originally it's because her first love betrayed her in the worst way by trying to murder her, but in this rp that never happened. I chalk it up to her just seeing the whole idea as pointless from watching those close to her get hurt by it, such as Eclipse, who I've mentioned is kind of easy. She doesn't like most men anyways- due to the fact that most of her scars are from being tormented by males from her home kingdom.
The way I usually do it is really easy though, so I don't really think much of it. xD But it's fun nontheless.
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hahah! I bet that was something then when Zeke found out she was his commanding officer. Yeah I am under the impressions Zeke doesn't trust/respect anyone he has seen proof of their worth to him. Maybe he judges first by looks? Looking at spooks and her small frame he is skeptic about her abilities and in mine and tobis rp he judges my character by looks and mannerisms and doesn't trust him.....mind you I probably would feel a bit wary around him too if I first met him D:. But then that works for me as my character does use intimidation with a lot of people and he is abnormally tall.
yeah that's a good idea, maybe she could have seen a friend or two get betrayed by some really nasty partners but maybe they still loved them (as that can really happen in rl). and it leaves spooks questioning why they would even stay with a person that abusive D:.
You said she lives in a place where food isn't plentiful, maybe some of those mistreatment by the men could be fueled by low food levels.
where is her home kingdom? is it anywhere mentioned in the comics or a place you made up??
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Is the character you're talking about the one with the zombie dragon in that Line Art you put up? And that's probably how that works 8'D Spooks is absolutely the same way. It took her a while to be able to fully trust Zeke, Arin, and Knuckles once he came into the rp. I don't think she truly started trusting them until they saved her life back when they had to travel to her kingdom.
Nah, the mistreatment happened to her when she was a little girl, growing up in her home. Sort of a sadistic backstory 8'D And seeing Eclipse fall head over heels for a guy, sleep with him, and then have him leave her behind right after is what probably adds to it now. Eclipse doesn't usually get upset over anything unless it's something that she truly cared about. And the one who's shoulder is stained by those tears, is Spooks.
Her kingdom is a place I made up called Felidonia- a Kingdom where the majority of it's population are feline. They're a Kingdom squished in by deadly Mountains on three sides and a vicious ocean to the last. They're religious beliefs lie heavily in Superstitions and folklore- and Because Spooks is a black cat, she was seen as bad luck. What made this worse was the fact that her parents are the small kingdoms royal family, making her the eldest princess. She was abused by her mother routinely whenever her father wasn't present. When something bad happened, such as an unexpected death, an unsuccessful fishing trip, ect, the villagers would blame the Unfortunate Princess. To keep them from rioting, her mother would allow them to deal out lashing. Sometimes they'd go overboard and the royal guard (Where only men were allowed to be members of) would leave her with bloody whiplashes all over her torso.
So Yeah 8'D Spooks dislikes people. Especially if they are of the male gender.
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yup it is that character 
awww poor spooks D:. that's an awful thing to have to go through and I take it she manages to escape from all that?
I like how their religion is based on superstition and folklore, it would certainly prove to my vampire/demon hunters that not all religion is based on the higher power and being holy and blah blah blah XDD.
how old was she before she left all that crap?
haha my character I rp with tobi with hates people in general, though he especially hates humans. He just wants to be left alone (a bit of a hermit).
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Spooksie feels that same way v.v In a normal universe (Not Post Apocalypse!) she lives way outside of the city in an old farmhouse type place. She hates visitors for the most part xD Only her makeshift family is allowed on her land 8'D and even then, she gets tired of company quickly.
She barely managed to escape it, actually. She was taken prisoner and sentenced to death but a demon named Fear Seeker took control of her and used all her strength to break her out of the bonds that held her. Spooks ran away into the surrounding mountain forest but the villagers eventually caught up with her and forced her over the edge of a waterfall in hopes she'd drown. Fear didn't have any more strength left to over power her. Turns out their water guardian that dwells in Kingdom's port was ordered by an elder to save Spooks, as he's above the beliefs of the kingdom and only serves to protect the royal family. And Spooks was never stripped of her title as princess, which meant he was sworn to protect her.
She was about 15 I think I decided. After this she was found by a girl named Twilight who found her attacking herself. Twi didn't know what was going on, but in an attempt to stop it she used this item she carries to erase Spooks' memories and seal Fear Seeker away until the day came that Spooks remembered who she was. 8'D She didn't get the name "Spooks" until this point though. Before that she was actually called Desdemona, a character from one of Shakespears stories who's name means something like... Misery/Unlucky.
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FFFFfffff I frucking LOVE that name! Desdemona!!. my best friend growing up had a beautiful white echidna character by that name X3.
sounds like she went through so much, so is the demon a part of her? or like an entity that watches over her?
My main character was also a princess but she lives in another dimension, her parents were murdered when she was 4 and inheriting the throne she had to go into hiding. She first went into hiding within the dimension, grew and trained in magic but around when she was 15 she fled the dimension entirely as her guardians were worried for her safety. She ended up on Mobius, she hid away from people at first but then got a bit more social. By now the murderer has been sorted and she has returned to her home dimension and is Queen of her kingdom.
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It is a pretty name <3 I often get sad that I've made Spooks hate that name with every fiber of her being. The only one who gets away with referring to her by it is Fear Seeker herself, because Spooks can't make her stop.
Though Fear usually shortens it to "Mona" or has even called her, her little Mona Lisa.
Fear and Spooks struck a deal with one another during one of the times when Spooks was hiding after being beaten by the royal guards. Fear promised her protection and told her she'd never let anyone touch her like that again. In return, Spooks had to also protect Fear- but the demoness was very fuzzy on what that meant. She didn't realize it would mean letting Fear use her as a vessel for her to hide from the stronger demons that were hunting her down (because Fear Seeker's species is more of a prey type and is exceptionally weak in comparison to most other demons. So stronger demons hunt them for sport.)
After that Fear kept her promise two weeks later and used Spooks' body to go on a rampage throughout the kingdom, taking many innocent lives... women, children, the elderly... and even Spooks' father's. And what makes that sad is Spooks was very close to her dad, who didn't believe in all of the superstitious bullshit.
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awww maybe you will succeed in getting her to like the name again..or at least somewhat tolerate it.
that is a cute little shortened version of the name too! X3.
Oooooh sounded like a good plan to begin with but after all those innocent deaths, would Spooks think it was worth it?, losing her dad like that must fill her with some form of regret 
I like the idea of there being evil and innocent demons out there. You have the evil ones who want to enslave the world and possibly take over it, kill innocents etc. Then you have the non evil ones, one's that are good, or neutral. Perhaps they may not have any abilities or they have abilities but use them for good things.
One of my villains is a group of corrupted vampire/demon hunters, they hunt both vampiric and demonic beings, they want to rid mobius of this "unholy filth". I like to build it up so they seem good and are on a honest, noble crusade to rid mobius of other, dangerous and evil beings but then it would be found out later that they aren't as pure as they let on as they also kill innocent demons and vampires. D8.
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With it's meaning and the ties is has to a time in her life when she was in misery all the time, I don't think she'll ever like it. xD
Though Mona might stick, as it's something her father use to call her.
Spooks has moments where she regrets it dearly, but one thing Eclipse has taught her is that you shouldn't hold on to that kind of thing. If what she'd done, had never happened, she wouldn't be living the life she has now. Which is a life that, for the most part, makes her happy.
Fear isn't an evil demon but she's certaintly a selfish one. Everything she does, no matter how generous it might seem out the outside, will always be for her benefit in some way. Spooks hates her for this, but at the same time, Fear Seeker has saved her life multiple times so even after all the horrible things that the demoness did, she respects her. Even after they split from the same body, their souls will be bonded until Fear can figure out a spell to unbind them, which means if one of them dies, the other will too. So Fear is still going to be constantly following Spooks around when danger is present, so she can keep an eye on her and keep her from harm.
I don't have very many villains personally xD But I love other peoples. I have a thing for evil, bad guy characters 8'D Or even just asshole neutral ones.
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Ooooh well where one story ends another begins 8D. So Fear sounds like she has cleaned spooks plate from the past so she can get on with her present life, lot's of new stories for Spooks and her demoness spirit in tow!.
Yeah you can be selfish but not evil, another thing my hunters don't understand.
I love seeing and finding out about other peoples characters and If they wanted to I love to rp with them to see how certain characters would interact
asshole neutral ones? hahah I like that! XD I don't know about asshole but my necromancer (guy in the zombie dragon pic) is a grumpy neutral character >X3.
It's why I like Zeke so much, also Malthak, have you seen Tobis spider character? he is awesome!! X3. I tormented him once by having a little skeletal dragon familiar fly into one of his webs and get stuck, so big ole grumpy spider was all the more grumpy to find his prey was already technically dead
I think the other villain I have is an evil scientist that experiments on his test subject, (white haired, shy as hell echidna character of mine).
and I do also have Moreta's arch enemy, a Orc king sorceror but he lives in another dimension and I need to develop him a bit more.
Some would consider/question if my necromancer was evil as most necromancers usually are but I can easily picture there being neutral ones.
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I do too. And I could literally talk about mine all day. I do try to refrain though, because I feel when I go on about my brain babies, I can become obnoxious >:
And If you ever wanna rp, just send me a note 8'D I do suck at plots, but y'know. Maybe we can figure something out together! xD
ANDYES. Malthak got used. Oh man, Spooks got caught up in one of his webs and she'd dropped her glasses so she couldn't even really see him and it was just an amusing mess. He didn't like Eclipse! He thought her arm was shooting fire, and that's something he's really scared off. He got beat up on before Arin realized he wasn't trying to hurt them, only scare them.
I have antagonists, but no one of diabolical proportions. I do have a girl that I like to use with evil characters though. I like to have her serve in a minion type position, only of little more importance. She's an ice wielder who shows little to no emotion due to the fact she can't fully control her power and it's tied to her feelings. Even a smile can make it start snowing around her. I used to use her with a friend of mine back in the day, but she doesn't rp anymore. xD
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yeah I'm a little paranoid, I enjoy talking about my characters if I'm pleased with how they have developed and improved over time but I can get a little paranoid I might be talking about them too much D:.
Will do 
Poor Malthak, people always keep meddling with his spider webs and giving him false alarms when he thinks it's food D:.
Ooooh that Ice user sounds awesomely interesting!, showing little to no emotions, though she is more of a minion type is she considered evil? or just like a follower, whether she is with an evil person or good person? >:3.
hey! A smile that can start snow is better than a smile that blows up the planet XD.
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I was dating a guy that was writing a story and he kept talking about the characters he was working on for it. He'd go on and on! I'd listen to him, give him my opinions on their abilities and the designs he imagined them having- but the moment I started talking about mine, he'd sorta tune out. xD It used to make me really sad.
I live in the same time zone as Tobisaur, so if you know the time between the two of you, it'll be the same for us. <:
Hee hee, in this rp he had threads of silk rigged up all over the place in order for him to keep track of people coming into his hide out! <: Tobi is really clever about how she uses her characters and their abilities.
She's just a follower- mercenary type. She doesn't make much of a leader herself, but she takes orders well. And especially if she's getting something out of it. Y'know, like money.
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that's dissapointing : (, if you are going to listen to someone talk about their characters and share your thoughts on them, it would be nice to recieve that back. When hearing someone talk about their characters I do sometimes reference my own and talk about them too but I try not to do it too much as I'm paranoid it sounds like I'm trying to change the subject from their character to my own.. even if that might not even be the case.
ah brill then you have the same time difference, I am 4 hours ahead of yah
heheheh he had that set up too in mine and tobis rp 8D. Yus!! I loved rping with Tobi, she even taught me a thing or two and helped me improve on my posts
monies!! the shiny stuff! we all like that!
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That's pretty much what I do 8'D I like to throw in information about my babies in return for getting information about someone elses. Especially if it's pointing out similarities <:
WOO. I live just a state away from her. She and Nikki might be coming here in May and we might be able to meet when they do. I'm excited about it <3
I don't usually use canon characters myself. Only if I'm asked to, will I use a canon. It's just hard for me to think for a character that I didn't create myself. But I used Knuckles, and it wasn't so bad. I need to shine up my Shadow a bit though. Psh. And she's made me more confident in taking control of the plot if I can think something to go along with it. xD
YES. Agreed. Unf.
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I just love hearing about different peoples characters and enjoy it if they like to hear about mine too
OH! that is SO awesome!!! I'd love to come over and meet up with them too but I lack monies DX.
SAME HERE!!! I am paranoid about acting as a canon character because I doubt I do them enough justice, the two I played with in mine and tobis rp was Knuckles and Archie and I loved it, especially archie X3. I prefer to act as my characters as I know if I don't portray them quite right then I don't feel so bad XD.
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I think it is too! It was only within the last year that I started to be able to meet the people I know online. I moved in with one of them. <:
I get that exact same way. It's not just canon characters either, but also other peoples FCs and OCs. S'why I could never bring myself to write a story that incorporates another persons character. I'd feel like I'd use them wrong- I'd forget one of their mannerisms, I'd make them say something they wouldn't... just a lot of things could make me feel. xD
But Knuckles wasn't too hard. I made him a bit of a dick in the beginning, but as the rp progressed and their journey extended into so many weeks, he loosened up a bit. 8'D Tobi even commended me for mentioning his fear of ghosts while they were in Mally's lair.
But Shadow... eh, I didn't do him too much justice. I feel like I might wanna start writing little short stories to help myself improve.
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I met one friend I used to know back in 2006, I flew over to the states, all on my own and stayed there a week. While we aren't friends any more It was one of the greatest weeks I ever had 8D. And it was so freaking awesome to meet an onlien friend stateside. I hope to one day do that again and meet Tobi.
Yeah, I wouldn't mind someone writing one of my characters if say we had been rping for a long time and they had got to know them, liek say during an rp or something and maybe if they weren't sure about something, then ask me before writing it.
Someone did say they wanted to write a story pairing up my character Damion(the necromancer) with their character but I was a little dubious as this person barely knew the character. Though I admit it would have been interesting to see what she would have created.
I had knuckles as friendly and strong around his friends, sonic teased and wound him up a bit but sometimes it got to him and sometimes it didn't. He fought obvious enemies and kinda enjoyed himself as he beat some of them up. He was suspicious of my character at first ( A lot like Zeke). But Damion helped him when he had been poisoned so that act earned the guardians trust.
I wouldn't know where to start with shadow to be honest. XD it's kinda why I'd stick with knuckles.
That sounds like a great idea! it will help get some practise in.
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Ah, man. I think I'd kill to be able to fly outta the country to meet someone. It was awesome just leaving my state the first time! xD
I wouldn't either. But alas! I've never had someone really wanna write anything with my brain babies. And I especially hardly ever have anyone wanting to pair someone up with mine 8'D I'm all about couples. I love them. I love drawing them. The ones that happen without any planning are my favorites <3
Zeke and Knuckles were fun to watch 8'D Both of them were pretty temperamental in the beginning. And oh man, Spooks hated him! He did a number on Arin when they first met, since he thought they'd stolen one of his Chaos Emeralds and they didn't want to give it back because they thought Knuckles might be working for the enemy. Arin almost got knocked out of the sky by Knux throw rock missals at him. T'was fun.
And everyone hated Shadow. I made him such a self-absorbed jerk. He wouldn't hand over his Chaos Emerald and kept running off when they'd try to take it by force!
You think so? I'd like to make myself proficient with using Knuckles, Shadow, and Silver. Since those three are my favorites from the series- at least Game wise. I don't know much about the comics/Tv series aside from what Tobi has told me.
...DO YOU HAVE AIM?
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yeah I was nervous as heck as it was my first time flying alone as I had previously flown with a friend to Switzerland.
Plus there had been an attempted attack on a plane leaving Heathrow in London. luckily I was flying from Cardiff but the airport was still effected by delays.
I love action and adventure with couples too. Though I can be a bit reluctant with my couples mostly because if the person I'm rping with has a character of theirs with another of their characters I feel like I'm intruding by asking if we could rp that character with one of mine.
and yes I have Aim
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Oh man, that would have freaked me out a little too D8 But it's not like that stuff happens all the time. xD
Unf, yes. My kind of rp, right there. Actually, I'm normally like that too. But for a different reason, probably. I can sometimes get attached to characters, and I'm naturally a jealous person. But pairing up Spooks and E with characters who belong to someone who told me they don't do the exclusive couple thing, has helped me coup with that. xD And I've started doing it with certain characters as well.
Heck, Spooksie and Eclipse are originally paired up with a friend of mines characters, but since Tobi and I are doing an alternate universe type thing, I figured it wouldn't be too bad if I shipped them D8
Could I add you to mine? 8'D It's so lonely with only Nikki and Tobi. Lmao
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yeah I freaked out but thankfully my dad drove me to the airport and he stayed with me as far as he could go so that helped
That's the fun with AU's, I mean it's going to be an AU anyway whether the characters are coupled up or not.
I think I only ever had 1 official couple with a friend and that was back in college. I had a girl panda and she was with a humanoid character
sure go ahead it is MoretaEkidna
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Less colorful (appropriately for the mood) but more detailed than the last one. I think this is the most 'Sonic styled' piece I've seen from you, too. Not a bad thing, the rounded chunkiness of the hands, for instance, fits in well. Spooks's faic makes me wanna turn around and hug her AND DO IT IT ZEKE, DAMMIT. D<
This has the most beautiful atmosphere. ;_; And I'm really thrilled you're so inspired!
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And as always I'm glad you like it. ;^;
Istill feel like the hands should be a tad smaller, more delicate looking. I wish I could make her appear more like she really is just a princess trying to hide it. xD
Lmao, makes me wonder his reaction, actually.
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