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CosmiCatArt โ Why I Cry num1
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Published: 2011-03-28 04:12:40 +0000 UTC; Views: 1181; Favourites: 28; Downloads: 11
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I couldn't upload this right away because I started crying right afterwards....Well, here's the first of a series I'm going to try to keep up with. I can never find a way to express how depression feels. So, this is my best attempt here. I'll be covering many different subjects, but I thought Anti-Depressants were a good place to start.
Yes, everything I say in this piece is true. I am on medication, I have gone through 4 different ones and I do skip them sometimes. Like today and yesterday.
I will take requests on what for subject matter. If you have questions or are depressed yourself and would like me to help express how you feel about a certain aspect of life, feel free to comment or even message me privately. No one has to know that it was you, but someone needs to know how you feel.
The character is based off of me and is mine.
The idea and series "Why I Cry" is mine and is not for anyone to tamper with or steal.
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my family does the same thing. I cry or try to have a conversation about something that's bothering me and they're like "did you take you meds today?" I actually feel no different with or without them so I tend to to take them. am I the only?
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That's the worst... Personally, I feel like it's almost de-humanizing to say that. Like my family believes I don't feel sad or upset on my own terms. It was a really rough time for me...
I've stopped taking them, recently, because I also don't feel too much different. At this point, I don't live with my family anymore, so the situation has changed for me and I have that freedom now. But, I'm sure you're not the only one. Depression has evolved into such a common beast these days, and I'm willing to bet there's a lot of kids/teens/adults who deal with almost the same things we do and have.
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I've been depressed for a while now and my parents are taking me to a psychologist on tuesday. I'll probably be getting anti-depressants... I'm actually scared to get them. I am afraid of anything that'll cuase me to do something out of my own will.
Should I take them if I am prescribed them? Or should I just not? It's too frightening to think of me not being me...
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Wow, you sound just like me. The thought of pills worried me too for the same reasons. (Like, I'm terrified of the thought of drugs/hallucinogenics and anything I have a possibility of becoming addicted to.)
Now, a psychologist cannot prescribe pills, but only recommend you see a psychiatrist who can. On the 1st visit, I can't guarantee how much 1-on-1 time you'll get with your psychologist if your parents have questions, ect. But, I would highly suggest you discuss your apprehensions with the psych. They'll be able to tell you more than me, of course, and may be willing to postpone adding medication into the equation. Not every person who gets outside help takes medication.
As far as my personal opinion, I wish I had waited longer to start on medication and see if maybe just therapy would have helped more. In my own case, I believe I should have waited before getting meds involved. I think you should stick to your guns, at least at first, to see how things go. But, if things don't seem to be getting better after some time, then it might be best to open your mind to the idea of medication.
Deary, I want to commend you for being brave. It's so hard to tell anyone about feelings of depression and even harder to accept help with it. Remember that you're not alone in this now. You have your family and your psychologist. And, feel free to Note me if you have any other concerns or simply need someone to talk to.
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*sigh* Thank you for the advice. I'll do my best to follow it.
And yes, I'll do my best to stay off anti-depressants as long as I can <: ( I just hope things turn out alright for me
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this...is just so true. I will admit to feeling the exact same way. In fact, i wrote some stuff about it too. This is so deep, i love it.
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I found it this night and you know what?
I started to cry after reading it.
Because it feals so familiar. So damned familiar.
For special the part... "DID U TAKE YOUR PILLS?"
That are things that happen at home every time.
But its so hard to stay straight with the pills, when the depression let u forget 70% of that, what is said or done or i have to do on day.
I don't feal like that the pills would work. And only thing doctors say is i should take more of them. (It fits so closely to the playing around with them) :/
I hope u can fight ur depression better then me.
And i have a little request, what has to do with one problem i have with people, i have in live. Maybe u could help me saying it to others with ur drawings?
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Awww! Its tough living with depression. Expressing it is one of that hardest parts! I'd be glad to try to help you out. You can either comment here or Note me with a topic you'd like me to draw out.
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And i'm glad that u help. I'll comment it here, because i don't hide that (even if it dosn't help some people do understand what's going on O.รด')
If i think right, there are two topics, but i will tell u the one who makes me more problems:
I think you know that(?). When you push the you love people away from u to be alone, because u think its better for them not to know, whats going on, because causing them to much trouble and bad moods with the own depression? And even if you push them away and be alone...u need then more than before and feels so damnit alone, that it's cracking the heart into pieces. I hope u know what i mean >.<
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I understand... I have friends who also suffer from depression and it's so difficult to try to hide your own sorrow from them when you know that they may be the only ones who can really understand you.
(Sorry I didn't reply earlier. Life has taken a funny little turn for me.)
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It's okay. I'm happy ur life has taken a good turn for u =3
And on my side its not only the ones who suffer from depression to, but all people. I don't know, but when i got depressed, i start to hurt people around me. I want they to leave me so that i can not bother them again and again. Its strange...
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the thing that helps me deal with my depression is my pills and lots of effing coffee. your not alone my love. "we are here." *HUG*
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Aw! This is so sad.. This reminded me so much of my boyfriend. Before I met him, he was really depressed and since he was very little, his family tried to get him to take pills, but he hid them instead. And he went to so many doctors... I'm happy to report that today, he is the happiest person I have EVER seen.
I'm sorry! I hope you feel better... I was depressed for a long time when my mom died, but I NEVER had to go to a doctor or anything, that would have been awful.
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There's a difference, sometimes, between clinical depression and grieving... I'm glad to hear that your boyfriend got so much better. I like hearing things like that. Makes me remember that I can do it too... I can get better.
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This really hit home; it's a great little comic. I can relate to what you're saying completely- about not always feeling there? I don't take meds (yet, maybe... no idea what's gunna happen), but this is still really deep.
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This is so incredibly close to how I feel....
I'm on my 2nd medication.... things have happened though, so maybe another one is around the corner.
It's so hard sometimes....
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Yeah, it is tough. I'm glad that this did hit close to home for you, though. Sometimes it's hard to describe how you feel.
I hope your doctor figures out a med that will help better.
(Honestly, I went through 4 because one of them gave me an unsightly butt rash, lol, so I don't know if that one would have actually helped or not!)
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Yeah.
Thank you <3 It'll be a crazy ride, I'm sure.
oh. o.o I've only gotten stomach pains! XD
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That doesn't sound too fun either though. Idk, itchy or achy... Not sure which is worse! Heh heh
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heh. No not really...
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I need those sometimes. *hugs back*
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That's creative, but also sad. I know how you feel in a lot of ways. This is a very good outlet. I too am on meds, and have been since I was a kid.
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Depression is my mentor, death my muse. You know that I for one know depression well. You also know I'm always here for you my dearest friend. I want to make a request or two. Since we're one and the same.
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