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Hello everyone
this is kind of a serious topic I'm tackling right now and it's about my behaviour on venting
especially in my last post where I made people really worried about me and I wasn't thinking straight when I posted that, I still know despite all the warnings people will still read it and be worried and I am really really sorry.

I've noticed a lil pattern about me, venting and then later post something okay and stuff and I feel like I'm not concerned to the people who saw my vent and telling me if I'm okay, I wanna respond to all of them and tell them how I'm feeling but to my state at those moments, or right now, or literally anytime, I don't know if I'm okay, I'm in a really messed up state rn of existencial crisis or smth and I just feel like I shouted people with vents and sometimes didn't noticed that I went too overboard and left people really worried and I'm sorry if I made you feel that way, I'm sorry I didn't respond and I'm sorry about my messed up behavior, I couldn't vent irl because I'm scared, no one can be trusted, no one whatsover because whats the point I'm gonna still affect them and bother them, nothing is safe, well I guess that is hypocritical that I'm venting right now despite what I said, I just hit myself with a ball against a wall, but yeah i'm so sorry for that as well and about my messed up mind I'm really really sorry , I wanna change my behaviour starting now and I'm trying to be more careful about what I said and post and be more responsive for my concern viewers and be more responsible to the people watching me, especially I get more recognition nowadays and I need to becareful, and yeah thank you for your time reading this, I may not elaborate my thoughts very well in order to make my apology come off proper, organized and on point, I have a hard time expressing myself and this is the best I can for me to apologize to you and I hope it makes sense, literally.

And thank you so so much for the endless support you gave to me despite everything with my behaviour, I've always feel like I've done something wrong and please please don't be scared to correct me, I'm doing my best to correct myself as well and to grow and learn, thank you very much ^^ cyall my lil cryslings!

Description
okay

Hello everyone
this is kind of a serious topic I'm tackling right now and it's about my behaviour on venting
especially in my last post where I made people really worried about me and I wasn't thinking straight when I posted that, I still know despite all the warnings people will still read it and be worried and I am really really sorry.

I've noticed a lil pattern about me, venting and then later post something okay and stuff and I feel like I'm not concerned to the people who saw my vent and telling me if I'm okay, I wanna respond to all of them and tell them how I'm feeling but to my state at those moments, or right now, or literally anytime, I don't know if I'm okay, I'm in a really messed up state rn of existencial crisis or smth and I just feel like I shouted people with vents and sometimes didn't noticed that I went too overboard and left people really worried and I'm sorry if I made you feel that way, I'm sorry I didn't respond and I'm sorry about my messed up behavior, I couldn't vent irl because I'm scared, no one can be trusted, no one whatsover because whats the point I'm gonna still affect them and bother them, nothing is safe, well I guess that is hypocritical that I'm venting right now despite what I said, I just hit myself with a ball against a wall, but yeah i'm so sorry for that as well and about my messed up mind I'm really really sorry , I wanna change my behaviour starting now and I'm trying to be more careful about what I said and post and be more responsive for my concern viewers and be more responsible to the people watching me, especially I get more recognition nowadays and I need to becareful, and yeah thank you for your time reading this, I may not elaborate my thoughts very well in order to make my apology come off proper, organized and on point, I have a hard time expressing myself and this is the best I can for me to apologize to you and I hope it makes sense, literally.

And thank you so so much for the endless support you gave to me despite everything with my behaviour, I've always feel like I've done something wrong and please please don't be scared to correct me, I'm doing my best to correct myself as well and to grow and learn, thank you very much ^^ cyall my lil cryslings!