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Yeah, I know I said I'd be posting these right after I was finished with my journal, but right when I was about to post this, the internet shitted out. Fuckin' Charter.

Anyway, this first piece is rightfully the first of my first posting in almost TWO YEARS(!), as it was my first mid-term project for my first graphics class in my first semester of college. For said project, we had to take five objects from our pesonal lives, arange them in composition, and professionally draw them out in pencil. Sounds simple enough, right?

Actuallly no, even now it doesn't. And back then, the daunting scale of the task was so immense that it in part contributed to early procrastination and sluggish starts. That might seem unconscionable to those who preform tasks similar to these often or those who've known the kinds of things I've done in the past, the feelings of trepidation were thanks to the fact that the piece had to be drawn on a 24"x19" (61x48 cm) sheet of paper. This thing is MASSIVE compared to everything else I've done. In fact, it's literally my biggest project since 'Where's Yo' Head At?' But what the latter had over this is that I could complete it in my own time at my own leisure. This had a deadline, and my ungodly slow work pace doesn't mean I do well with deadlines. (I have an unofficial tradition of never being able to turn in a school art project completed on time.) This was no exception. And considering my life was still dictated by perfectionism and self loathing, the perpetual sense of failed idealism didn't bode well for me. Furthermore, despite investing approximately 50 hours into this; time that included many nights of staying at the college until ten at night and the two over-nighters I invested into getting it done, Vanity reared his ominous husk once more, and I again failed to meet the deadline. (Keeping the tradition alive!) Albeit the only thing I hadn't finished was the dragon statue, but the failure still weighs upon me to this day.

Yet in spite of of the constant misery I felt working on this, I can still look upon it now with mostly a sense of satisfaction. I really liked the objects I picked (the Big Daddy figure Joseph gave me for Christmas in '09, my Xbox 360 and wireless controller, the sketchbook that houses every deviation form Vanity to Dead, and the dragon statue that Brian gave me before he moved to Salt Lake City, whom I've lovingly named Jade), and I think there correlative composition was very well set up, too. I also had access to great materials and the first set of blending sticks I actually liked. The cell phone I was using at the time also proved an invaluable tool, as I took a picture of the original set-up and turned it to gray-scale, giving me access on-demand to accurate, precise reference whenever I needed it (which was all the time.)

So I did finally finish this in my own personal time, when I had enough time to finish Jade. And please do take the time to bask in the effort I put into finishing her, as that entailed INDIVIDUALLY SHADING EACH SCALE. However, I still do find it dissatisfaction that I didn't finish it until September of that year; a good six months after it was originally due. But what's really sad is that I haven't gotten around to posting it until now, a full year after I finished it.

Anyway, whatever. Countrymen, lend me your concern; comment, commend, critique or criticize as you feel compelled, for after compensating for such continued containment, I crave your credible celebrations.

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Yeah, I know I said I'd be posting these right after I was finished with my journal, but right when I was about to post this, the internet shitted out. Fuckin' Charter.

Anyway, this first piece is rightfully the first of my first posting in almost TWO YEARS(!), as it was my first mid-term project for my first graphics class in my first semester of college. For said project, we had to take five objects from our pesonal lives, arange them in composition, and professionally draw them out in pencil. Sounds simple enough, right?

Actuallly no, even now it doesn't. And back then, the daunting scale of the task was so immense that it in part contributed to early procrastination and sluggish starts. That might seem unconscionable to those who preform tasks similar to these often or those who've known the kinds of things I've done in the past, the feelings of trepidation were thanks to the fact that the piece had to be drawn on a 24"x19" (61x48 cm) sheet of paper. This thing is MASSIVE compared to everything else I've done. In fact, it's literally my biggest project since 'Where's Yo' Head At?' But what the latter had over this is that I could complete it in my own time at my own leisure. This had a deadline, and my ungodly slow work pace doesn't mean I do well with deadlines. (I have an unofficial tradition of never being able to turn in a school art project completed on time.) This was no exception. And considering my life was still dictated by perfectionism and self loathing, the perpetual sense of failed idealism didn't bode well for me. Furthermore, despite investing approximately 50 hours into this; time that included many nights of staying at the college until ten at night and the two over-nighters I invested into getting it done, Vanity reared his ominous husk once more, and I again failed to meet the deadline. (Keeping the tradition alive!) Albeit the only thing I hadn't finished was the dragon statue, but the failure still weighs upon me to this day.

Yet in spite of of the constant misery I felt working on this, I can still look upon it now with mostly a sense of satisfaction. I really liked the objects I picked (the Big Daddy figure Joseph gave me for Christmas in '09, my Xbox 360 and wireless controller, the sketchbook that houses every deviation form Vanity to Dead, and the dragon statue that Brian gave me before he moved to Salt Lake City, whom I've lovingly named Jade), and I think there correlative composition was very well set up, too. I also had access to great materials and the first set of blending sticks I actually liked. The cell phone I was using at the time also proved an invaluable tool, as I took a picture of the original set-up and turned it to gray-scale, giving me access on-demand to accurate, precise reference whenever I needed it (which was all the time.)

So I did finally finish this in my own personal time, when I had enough time to finish Jade. And please do take the time to bask in the effort I put into finishing her, as that entailed INDIVIDUALLY SHADING EACH SCALE. However, I still do find it dissatisfaction that I didn't finish it until September of that year; a good six months after it was originally due. But what's really sad is that I haven't gotten around to posting it until now, a full year after I finished it.

Anyway, whatever. Countrymen, lend me your concern; comment, commend, critique or criticize as you feel compelled, for after compensating for such continued containment, I crave your credible celebrations.