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I feel like the world will crush me down
My shoulders struggle to bear this weight
I feel selfish that my thoughts continue to drown
Me in my sorrows and leave me in this state
I feel like the emotions that I experience now
Is a lesson taught for my future decisions?
But does this class have to kick me so hard I cower
And try so badly dodge all of these collisions?
I feel like the stress of the path I walk
Is consuming my mind and sending me insane
It's so unclear as to where my path will fork
And this cloudy road is becoming my bane
I feel like the tide is pulling me out to sea
I can't summon enough strength to swim back to shore
As I struggle against this invisible enemy
I suppose time is on my side but all the more
I feel like the mountain I climb has no peak
No beautiful view for me to indulge myself
There's no climatic finish for me to reach
Just this feeling I'm getting lost in the folds

A little change of pace is necessary I think
But I can't commit myself to entering the brink
I'm just on this ship that's about to sink
If people aren't careful I'll disappear in a blink
When your heart has been ripped right out of your chest
When you really think that you know it the best
When someone is feeling this way don't rest!
Until their heart is right back in its nest

I mean, I thought I had real friends that were around me
Until I had more that came and surrounded me
I'm heartbroken and need more people to care
But they can't see it even though it's right there

I mean, why is it so difficult to show some love?
To someone who is obviously upset by something?
You don't even offer to talk to me?
Really? Where is our friendship going?
I mean, I sat there for fifteen minutes

I mean, I even had tear marks down my face
My eyes were slightly red and puffy
And to you it's business as usual? Just another day?
Why do I try? Why do I bother? Why do I make an effort anyway?

I mean, where does someone draw the line and say,
"You're more of an acquaintance than a friend."
If they can't even pick up on the simple things?
Where can you say, well this is definitely the end?

I have tried to live a life that made me happy
And also kept the people I love happy too
I put in I put in I put in
But for me, what the fuck do others do?

I swear to fucking god and him as my fucking witness
I couldn't fucking think of a fucking thing
I do so many fucking favours for you 'mate'
SO WHEN THE FUCK DO YOU FUCKING RECIPROCATE?

Why bother? I have better friends anyway.
Except one is ginger and playing it safe towards me
And the other one doesn't want to talk to me
Can I look them in the eye now anyway?

You know what, screw this. I'm out.
I'm leaving this little plateau and moving abroad
I'll go somewhere that I can hide away
And see who really cares when I'm not there to put in.

I don't even know what to think anymore...
How should I be feeling in my situation?
A person I loved with my best mate
And how am I supposed to react? I can't love you anymore...
But the feelings won't go away. I can't switch it off...
I can't say to myself, "No, not anymore".
You still want to hang out as a group? How could I bear that?
I know there was no intention to hurt me
It's not your fault I feel this way
But goddamnit I need you to understand
That things are different than they were yesterday
And this comes from the bottom of my heart
As I sit here in teary sorrow
That I may not be here for you tomorrow

So love me while I'm still around
Before I'm cut, hung and drowned
In my own sea of regret
That I just haven't met someone
Who truly loves me yet

You can be as confused as you want when I say
That Young Love is something little, but hey
You can be as cynical as you want to my emotion
But it's as real as yours will ever be.
I may not have had a medical expert tell me so
But it's as real as I can feel as far as depression goes
I'm not here looking for attention or sympathy
I just need a damn shoulder to cry on and I thought you could be
The one who could lend me that one of yours..
But I suppose it might have been too much to ask
I'm not angry, you know, I understand
In fact I know it's hard to deal with yours
And someone else's emotional issues at hand

But look maybe all I need is time. And I need it soon.
I just hate not being able to talk to someone and be relieved
That the burden has been lifted and delegated to a friend
This frustration is the first of its kind for me...

I'm sorry I can't cope so well. I'm sorry you seem to think
That my emotions aren't real, or important, or that maybe
You just think that I'm absolutely fucking crazy to be so upset
When I haven't even known you for that long. But I believe...
It was you who said that it feels like we've known each other
For so much longer when we have. I'm sorry little sister,
I'll get better soon.
Please handle me until my mind is free,
Please don't judge me until my mind is free
Please don't hate me until my mind is free
Please don't be afraid of me until my mind is free

Please keep loving me like you do, just until my mind is free..

Time will heal these pathetic wounds, and when I lick myself clean
I'll be the baddest big brother you have ever known living the motherfucking dream.

Description
I feel like the world will crush me down
My shoulders struggle to bear this weight
I feel selfish that my thoughts continue to drown
Me in my sorrows and leave me in this state
I feel like the emotions that I experience now
Is a lesson taught for my future decisions?
But does this class have to kick me so hard I cower
And try so badly dodge all of these collisions?
I feel like the stress of the path I walk
Is consuming my mind and sending me insane
It's so unclear as to where my path will fork
And this cloudy road is becoming my bane
I feel like the tide is pulling me out to sea
I can't summon enough strength to swim back to shore
As I struggle against this invisible enemy
I suppose time is on my side but all the more
I feel like the mountain I climb has no peak
No beautiful view for me to indulge myself
There's no climatic finish for me to reach
Just this feeling I'm getting lost in the folds

A little change of pace is necessary I think
But I can't commit myself to entering the brink
I'm just on this ship that's about to sink
If people aren't careful I'll disappear in a blink
When your heart has been ripped right out of your chest
When you really think that you know it the best
When someone is feeling this way don't rest!
Until their heart is right back in its nest

I mean, I thought I had real friends that were around me
Until I had more that came and surrounded me
I'm heartbroken and need more people to care
But they can't see it even though it's right there

I mean, why is it so difficult to show some love?
To someone who is obviously upset by something?
You don't even offer to talk to me?
Really? Where is our friendship going?
I mean, I sat there for fifteen minutes

I mean, I even had tear marks down my face
My eyes were slightly red and puffy
And to you it's business as usual? Just another day?
Why do I try? Why do I bother? Why do I make an effort anyway?

I mean, where does someone draw the line and say,
"You're more of an acquaintance than a friend."
If they can't even pick up on the simple things?
Where can you say, well this is definitely the end?

I have tried to live a life that made me happy
And also kept the people I love happy too
I put in I put in I put in
But for me, what the fuck do others do?

I swear to fucking god and him as my fucking witness
I couldn't fucking think of a fucking thing
I do so many fucking favours for you 'mate'
SO WHEN THE FUCK DO YOU FUCKING RECIPROCATE?

Why bother? I have better friends anyway.
Except one is ginger and playing it safe towards me
And the other one doesn't want to talk to me
Can I look them in the eye now anyway?

You know what, screw this. I'm out.
I'm leaving this little plateau and moving abroad
I'll go somewhere that I can hide away
And see who really cares when I'm not there to put in.

I don't even know what to think anymore...
How should I be feeling in my situation?
A person I loved with my best mate
And how am I supposed to react? I can't love you anymore...
But the feelings won't go away. I can't switch it off...
I can't say to myself, "No, not anymore".
You still want to hang out as a group? How could I bear that?
I know there was no intention to hurt me
It's not your fault I feel this way
But goddamnit I need you to understand
That things are different than they were yesterday
And this comes from the bottom of my heart
As I sit here in teary sorrow
That I may not be here for you tomorrow

So love me while I'm still around
Before I'm cut, hung and drowned
In my own sea of regret
That I just haven't met someone
Who truly loves me yet

You can be as confused as you want when I say
That Young Love is something little, but hey
You can be as cynical as you want to my emotion
But it's as real as yours will ever be.
I may not have had a medical expert tell me so
But it's as real as I can feel as far as depression goes
I'm not here looking for attention or sympathy
I just need a damn shoulder to cry on and I thought you could be
The one who could lend me that one of yours..
But I suppose it might have been too much to ask
I'm not angry, you know, I understand
In fact I know it's hard to deal with yours
And someone else's emotional issues at hand

But look maybe all I need is time. And I need it soon.
I just hate not being able to talk to someone and be relieved
That the burden has been lifted and delegated to a friend
This frustration is the first of its kind for me...

I'm sorry I can't cope so well. I'm sorry you seem to think
That my emotions aren't real, or important, or that maybe
You just think that I'm absolutely fucking crazy to be so upset
When I haven't even known you for that long. But I believe...
It was you who said that it feels like we've known each other
For so much longer when we have. I'm sorry little sister,
I'll get better soon.
Please handle me until my mind is free,
Please don't judge me until my mind is free
Please don't hate me until my mind is free
Please don't be afraid of me until my mind is free

Please keep loving me like you do, just until my mind is free..

Time will heal these pathetic wounds, and when I lick myself clean
I'll be the baddest big brother you have ever known living the motherfucking dream.