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i wake up to find myself in someone's car, the windows fogged, sweat pooled between us and his hot breath on my neck. how was this fair? i love him more than i can comprehend. i only hope he knows that its not just sex to me. it's him. the smell of him and the feel of him and the taste of him. i wonder how he could toss me aside all those months ago, to come back now, when i was trying my hardest to move on. if only it didn't feel so right. if only i didn't feel so safe in his arms. if only i didn't love him so much. if only he loved me too. i try to catch my breath and think of the other i had loved, and who loved me back. why couldn't i love him like this? why couldnt he just understand that i have no control over my heart? i feel his lips on my forehead and realize that its over. he whispers words in my ear as i tremble, and i have to remind myself to breathe again.