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If there was one truly "terrible" thing that AI art has done to me as an artist, it's that's opened up a portal to a personal hell of endless conceptualization. Much like some eldritch abominations and locations, it's a realm of infinite possibilities, a million prophets in a room, and a multiverse of many... But only one thing is seemingly the truth, whatever that truth may be. Having Stable Diffusion is like having my own personal army of concept artists who can bring any idea I want into a clear picture; it's not stuck in sketches or doodles, there's no unfinished works, and there is no chance of forgetting things.

And of course, it comes back to that damn fursona business. Because it's been like this ever since the Pandemic started back in 2020...

With the right furry AI model and perhaps a few good LORAs, one can easily create their ideal fursona/self insert character for just about anything. But where as drawing the thing out requires sitting down and actually thinking about why you do what you do, with an AI, you can let yourself go on whims and chasing down concept bunnies, and ending up in a place you didn't think much about. It's wonderful and disastrous all at the same time; you may like what you come up with, and you may wonder why you wasted your time with it.

In my case, there's a concept there, but it's fuzzy and hard to place. I know that this "Artie" (or Althazar, depending on where he's at) is a big man with a distinct hairstyle, love for the color purple and silver jewelry, looks big and scary but generally is pretty friendly, and tends to get into predicaments... But where does he live? Is he human or a monster/furry thing? Does he actually know the likes of my other characters like Helena and Clera, or are they all unaware of each other? Does he live a life similiar to my own, working two jobs and trying to make sense of the world, or is he some outsider in some Wuxia setting that just happened to be able to fit in because of his cosmopolitan nature? Is he an orc in Azeroth? An anamatronic trying to escape a pizzaplex ran by a cruel corporation? A misplaced magical being in the modern age? Who is he really and what is he really?

And all Stable Diffusion can do is just give me more possibilities, raise even more questions, and ultimately just more concepts... A never ending loop.

But perhaps this personal problem stems from a deeper issue. I've notice that since the Pandemic and even more so since I started working at the movies, I don't really seem to have anything that I actually "like". Like sure you could say I like World or Warcraft or Cities: Skylines because I play those a lot, but outside of collecting/making some fan art or in the case of the latter creating custom assets, I don't really seem that passionate about those things. Sure I have all the Jurassic Park movies in my DVD collection, but I don't really say it's my favorite movie franchise by far. Where as most of my generation hates sports, I seem to not mind it as I'll happy play the sports themselves, watch sports and their movies, and even hang out at the sports bars, but at the same time, I just don't get into the team rivalries or get fixated on stats. Even as a musician I just seem to be indifferent to everything, to the point I'll piss of the likes of metalheads and more avant garde musicians and fans for being fine with the like of pop music exist. And let's not forget my overall views on cartoons being rather harsh, although if I wanted to show someone some accessible entertainment and/or "art in motion", I'd probably point them to animated movies.

I guess the point is that I see all matter of pop and geek culture as just one big gray blob; there's just nothing to get attached to or passionate about because at the end of the day it's just well, a big gray blob. It's just there...

And that's why you just see all these generated images bunched together; it too is just another blob of stuff that you can't really have a passion for but can't exactly dismiss or hate either. It's just... There.

I'm not sure what it is I need to really bring back my creative drive for making stuff again, then again, I don't expect people to read this because all everyone comes here for is just "economy sized wank-tank fodder".

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If there was one truly "terrible" thing that AI art has done to me as an artist, it's that's opened up a portal to a personal hell of endless conceptualization. Much like some eldritch abominations and locations, it's a realm of infinite possibilities, a million prophets in a room, and a multiverse of many... But only one thing is seemingly the truth, whatever that truth may be. Having Stable Diffusion is like having my own personal army of concept artists who can bring any idea I want into a clear picture; it's not stuck in sketches or doodles, there's no unfinished works, and there is no chance of forgetting things.

And of course, it comes back to that damn fursona business. Because it's been like this ever since the Pandemic started back in 2020...

With the right furry AI model and perhaps a few good LORAs, one can easily create their ideal fursona/self insert character for just about anything. But where as drawing the thing out requires sitting down and actually thinking about why you do what you do, with an AI, you can let yourself go on whims and chasing down concept bunnies, and ending up in a place you didn't think much about. It's wonderful and disastrous all at the same time; you may like what you come up with, and you may wonder why you wasted your time with it.

In my case, there's a concept there, but it's fuzzy and hard to place. I know that this "Artie" (or Althazar, depending on where he's at) is a big man with a distinct hairstyle, love for the color purple and silver jewelry, looks big and scary but generally is pretty friendly, and tends to get into predicaments... But where does he live? Is he human or a monster/furry thing? Does he actually know the likes of my other characters like Helena and Clera, or are they all unaware of each other? Does he live a life similiar to my own, working two jobs and trying to make sense of the world, or is he some outsider in some Wuxia setting that just happened to be able to fit in because of his cosmopolitan nature? Is he an orc in Azeroth? An anamatronic trying to escape a pizzaplex ran by a cruel corporation? A misplaced magical being in the modern age? Who is he really and what is he really?

And all Stable Diffusion can do is just give me more possibilities, raise even more questions, and ultimately just more concepts... A never ending loop.

But perhaps this personal problem stems from a deeper issue. I've notice that since the Pandemic and even more so since I started working at the movies, I don't really seem to have anything that I actually "like". Like sure you could say I like World or Warcraft or Cities: Skylines because I play those a lot, but outside of collecting/making some fan art or in the case of the latter creating custom assets, I don't really seem that passionate about those things. Sure I have all the Jurassic Park movies in my DVD collection, but I don't really say it's my favorite movie franchise by far. Where as most of my generation hates sports, I seem to not mind it as I'll happy play the sports themselves, watch sports and their movies, and even hang out at the sports bars, but at the same time, I just don't get into the team rivalries or get fixated on stats. Even as a musician I just seem to be indifferent to everything, to the point I'll piss of the likes of metalheads and more avant garde musicians and fans for being fine with the like of pop music exist. And let's not forget my overall views on cartoons being rather harsh, although if I wanted to show someone some accessible entertainment and/or "art in motion", I'd probably point them to animated movies.

I guess the point is that I see all matter of pop and geek culture as just one big gray blob; there's just nothing to get attached to or passionate about because at the end of the day it's just well, a big gray blob. It's just there...

And that's why you just see all these generated images bunched together; it too is just another blob of stuff that you can't really have a passion for but can't exactly dismiss or hate either. It's just... There.

I'm not sure what it is I need to really bring back my creative drive for making stuff again, then again, I don't expect people to read this because all everyone comes here for is just "economy sized wank-tank fodder".