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Published: 2012-02-21 05:34:08 +0000 UTC; Views: 776; Favourites: 9; Downloads: 6
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Broken hearts don't heal so quickmessed up minds are like the same
what's it mean when you have them both
Tear shot eyes are a step away
I want to break free, but I guess I stay
what happens when you lose control
Pieces of life come crashing down
sometimes they're too big to get around
it's times like these I just don't know
Memories that are locked inside
are discomforting
I just want to hideaway from everything that reminds me of you
Oh, and these memories I don't need now
they're just killin' me
so very slowly, I don't exactly know just what to do
with these memories of you
Sometimes it feels like I'm standing still
and everything around me isn't real
except the images of your face
Clouded judgement was my guide
so many mistakes made, so now I hide
walls are closing in this place
Memories that are locked inside
are discomforting
I just want to hideaway from everything that reminds me of you
Oh, and these memories I don't need now
they're just killin' me
so very slowly, I don't exactly know just what to do
with these memories of you
with these memories of you
Here comes the night
where's the sunshine
close my eyes
remain in dark
Can't you see
you have forgotten
don't you know that you broke my heart
Memories are all I have now
hopefully I won't fall apart
times have changed, I'm changing with them
then suddenly I feel that these...
Memories that are locked inside
are discomforting
I just want to hideaway from everything that reminds me of you
Oh, and these memories I don't need now
they're just killin' me
so very slowly, I don't exactly know just what to do
Memories that are locked inside
are discomforting
I just want to hideaway from everything that reminds me of you
Oh, and these memories I don't need now
they're just killin' me
so very slowly, I don't exactly know just what to do
with these memories of you
with these memories of you
with these memories of you
with these memories of you
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again, thanks! you're too kind!
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i have tried writing lyrics but nngh havent done too well. my best would be "Lullaby Angel" and you are welcome, keep writing^^
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I can see what you mean by sad and slow, it definitely reads as if it is meant to be set to a slower song.
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Pity I am unable to access YouTube in China. Though, great job on this. 
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ah...this one made me tear up...been having an awful two days and some of these lyrics fit right into what i was feeling.
wonderful work and great singing.
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thanks again. so what happened the last couple of days? if you don't mind me asking.
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my dads family cover up the awful and cruel things they say by laughing and saying it's a joke that way..if you say something they can turn it around as you're the one being a problem.some of the most hurtful things I've ever heard in my life were from these "jokes"
Well It came out when my dad and step mom made a joke of my brother relationship. he won't defend himself so as his older sister i defended him. it made my stepmom cry so my dad got defensive and wanted me to apologize....i apologized because i didn't mean to make her cry but you can't degrade people for fun..it's disgusting. ...my dad said i was over reacting and it was all just a joke...i lost it on him.....i have so much anger towards him for the things he put us through when i was a child that is unresolved,,so many memories that i can never forget and never forgive...so it leaked out yesterday in the form of "i'm over reacting?let me tell you what kind of parent YOU actually are"...so i made him cry too...i doubt it was because of what he did to me...i think it was more because i exposed to his new wife a tiny piece of the bullshit i have lived with behind the scenes for 22 years....i cried...so much. my headache was so intense aleve wasn't helping so i slept.....today was just an emotional hangover that sparked back up when my mom confronted me and decided to go dr.phil on me about my entire personality and issues...personally it's not something i was ready to hear nor accept....
ah that was alot...and i didn't type most of what i could have said...mmmm
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yeah, I hear you. well then don't feel bad, you just reveal how you feel. don't feel bad about that. kinda same thing goes on here. they like to talk crap, but when you defend yourself, they say you overreact. I'm an older brother too, so I know. just be strong and try to stand your ground. I'm proud of you. it's good they know how you feel and you should keep at it everytime too, otherwise they'll just brush it off and continue later. I'm proud, good job!
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AH Thank you very much! #.# I'm glad to have more people proud of me...it helps counter the angry ones.
soooo anyway now that my emotional hail storm has passed...how are you?
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I'm fine, thanks. how are you?
yeah, I've learned from experience that the more you make the right decision, the more people are angry with you. the right decision is hardly the easiest.
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i'm going job hunting tomorrow..gonna suck.
i was reluctant to say it in fear if it ending all contact with them..because thats what happened when i was 16. the only reason i'm in their life now is because his last wife passed away and he need someone to raise my half sister...i was just graduating..perfect timing. so thats been a control factor for the last 3 years.i love my sister and i missed the first year of her life i don't want to miss more but....not sure this will last...she starts school in august and then...i won't be tied to them anymore...no control...but no reason to not basically block me out. ahhhhh.....blah.
true very true.
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good luck with job hunting. so you mean being kicked out? yeah, hopefully things turn out ok for you.
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i don't live with them thankfully.so no. i live with my mother and step father.
and thank you i'll need all the luck i can get since there are not many jobs here right now
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oh, well that's good that you don't live with your dad if he's a jerk.
no jobs where you're at? where you from?
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i haven't lived with him since i was 12.
Louisiana
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haha, it's always humid? didn't know that.
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yepppppppppppp pretty much. makes it feel so much hotter then it really is.
i can't see straight o.o
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really? you can't see straight?
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my eyes get puffy when i sleep so i bought a gell sleep mask to see if it would help..i tested it by putting it in the ice box for about 20 mins then putting on and taking alittle nap....when i took it off my eyes were blurry for 30 mins =.=
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oh, I see. well why did they get puffy to begin with? you should see a doctor.
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my skin is just very sensitive and i have allergies. my mom gets it too but hers are less noticeable because of her eye shape. mine are more almond shaped
i have a job interview for tomorrow. hoping i get it
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yeah, I think I have sensitive skin too! which sucks because I kinda like to rough house with everyone!
hey, good luck with your interview! fingers crossed! what kind of job is it anyway?
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I don't bruise easy so I'm okay with the rough house. have to be because my little brother's idea or love is to tackle the hell out of you.
the interview went very well.
it's at a store called kirklands. i don't know if you have one near you or not....basically a home decor store...lots and lots of pretty things from me the ohh and ahhh over XD. i feel like a lunatic....i never buy anything but i walk through going "oh..i want that....thats fucking weird....i want it D:....ohhh shiny..."
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haha, that's adorable about your brother! actually, I think I'm kinda like that. My parents are always telling me to leave everyone alone, but if I don't rough house with them, I don't know how to play with them. that's just how I do.
hey, that's great to hear! glad it went well!
haha, you like shiny!
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he's taller then me and alot stronger =.= it's made me sneakier with my attacks..yeeeea my mom fusses him all the time because he's always accidentally hurting people....mostly me.
i have a call back interview friday :3
my phone actually died when he called me XD
he said " can you come back in-*died*
me: O____O....FUUUCKKKKDAMMITCRAAAPPP*trying to jam the charger into my phone*FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
mom: calm down god...here use mine
me: THANK YOU!!!!....wait...i don't have his number AHHHH *presses power button a hundred time* )*#&(@*&$(*#&$(*@##*##(@!!!!!!
had a super spaz attack XDD
yes i do have a fondness for shiny things
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your attacks? you actually attack him too, haha? yup, see, the accidently hurting people! I can relate, hehe!
haha, that's funny! but good job! you got a call back! you can do it!
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yeea i attack back. it's sibling love.
thanks
so how was your day??
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haha, aw, adorable!
eh, uneventful. yours? besides the call, I guess.
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lol
how old are you btw
mmm not much. coloring on gimp. taking forever but it's coming along
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turned 24 in march, you?
haha, what is gimp?
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turned 22 in january
gimp it a ....mmmm...it's like the love child of Microsoft paint and photoshop. it's better then microsoft paint because you can do so many more things but it's not as good as photoshop...more user friendly if you ask me...but thats because using photoshop is like trying to learn Arabic to me.
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ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i dunno...head hurting
so yea tell me about YOU 6.6
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haha! me? there's honestly not much to say about me. what do you think you want to know?
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mm just regular things. like what do you do. what do you like etc.
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hm, ok. I like movies, video games, hanging out, writing lyrics, learning guitar, stuff like that.
you?
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mm i love movies. i play some games though not many.i like artsy stuff. i hang out some not so much anymore. everyone works different schedules so it's harder to get together.
learning guitar? i hope you do well then
My stepdad and older step brother both play
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which movies and games do you like?
yeah, I don't think so, I suck at guitar!
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