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The hospital smelled of waiting
Of anxiety, of being unsure
Of depression
The stench was overpowering
As I sat down with the rest of my family

My eyes darted
To the ICU sign, to the hallway that led to that room
And every time my eyes would well with tears
Sorrow, grief, fear
That I couldn't hold back, even if I had wanted to

I tried to laugh with my "sister"
I tried to stay calm
We hugged, we cried, we busied ourselves
We babysat our baby cousins
But it was only putting off what would inevitably come

The news hit me like a pound of bricks thrown off a tower
It hit my chest, ripped my heart wide open
It couldn't be happening, no,
It just wasn't possible
Oh, but it was

I kept asking God why he had to do this
To me, to my daddy, to my family
I never got an answer
I guess He never answers those questions
Even if there's a reason

My life will forever have a missing piece
A place in my heart for him, my Grandpa
His friends and family will never forget
His memory will always live on, brightly
Just as he lived in life