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Comments: 95

halperin98 [2013-05-08 09:22:50 +0000 UTC]

Well, than maybe that's your dream? Keep others happy? I know the chances that it is are slim, but think about how you can expand on it...?

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luckymewpony [2013-04-27 03:47:54 +0000 UTC]

Same here. But then there's the fact I'm dumb and ugly.

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haruhistka [2013-04-17 11:21:13 +0000 UTC]

same here. No ambitions, no dreams. No fears of my own future.

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lloya012 [2013-04-07 14:40:51 +0000 UTC]

I completely relate to this

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CinderHeartFan [2013-04-05 02:18:59 +0000 UTC]

This is one of the few secrets i can totally relate to

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CognoviUmbras [2013-04-03 07:00:57 +0000 UTC]

Sorry anyone has to feel this way. I feel where you're coming from though. Want to be an artist; going to law school

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AutumnalFox [2013-04-02 13:01:53 +0000 UTC]

Wow, so I'm not the only one then.

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AspiExistentialist [2013-04-01 18:16:59 +0000 UTC]

The Sad Truth.
This sounds like EVERYONE that cant feel their insides enough to Build themselves,
and they are Just Numb,
By the world,
and wanting to PLEASE others,
and yet they are Unhappy.
DO WHAT YOU FEEL IS RIGHT,
NOT WHAT OTHERS TELL YOU TO DO.
THEY WILL MAKE YOU ASPIRE TO DO NOTHING AND BE NOTHING,
SO YOUR NOT A THREAT TO THEIR GAIN! ???? NO??

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AzukariRowley [2013-03-31 02:26:28 +0000 UTC]

This is my life in one shot right here.

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chokoneko [2013-03-31 00:24:49 +0000 UTC]

I know this feeling . . .

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Apidae12 [2013-03-30 13:15:13 +0000 UTC]

I get that feeling, ST. Even though I don't think I'm as smart as you, I don't have any ambition or goal. It sucks :/

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katryder [2013-03-30 04:09:36 +0000 UTC]

I feel the same way, ST.

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NickyMinny [2013-03-29 21:15:56 +0000 UTC]

Exactly the same situation T.T

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MPgirl911 [2013-03-29 20:07:52 +0000 UTC]

I let other people dream for me because my own dreams are 'unrealistic' and always changing. I can't seem to go through with one thing so I'll just follow whatever path my mother decides for me, because all she wants is for one of her children to be very rich and my brother wants to be a teacher so that's out of the question, so that's her ambition for me. My father has always told me to become rich through marriage, my mother says through work that will also interest me. They tell me what I will do, they plan out my future and I just drift along and fulfill their wishes.

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shadedrainbow [2013-03-29 18:51:50 +0000 UTC]

i.have.the.same.problem. its awful...whoever's secret this is...i can relate.

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arcanehalo [2013-03-29 18:22:26 +0000 UTC]

All the feels in this.

*lies down and curls up in a corner*

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axolotlhugs [2013-03-29 15:55:55 +0000 UTC]

Please marry me

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Hazelnut-Eyes [2013-03-29 14:02:52 +0000 UTC]

I'm told all that apart from "I am beautiful"
I've never been called beautiful. Not even by my own parents. That's because I'm not.
Yes, I'm clever. But I CAN'T do anything with my life because I'm not beautiful enough.
It's either beauty or brains. I'm stuck with the least useful of the two.
I wish it wasn't.
I wish I could be accepted.

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fey-fae-whatever In reply to Hazelnut-Eyes [2013-03-30 04:31:39 +0000 UTC]

Everyone's beautiful in their own way. Just because people say a rose is elegant, exquisite, and exotic, and say nothing about bluebells or daisies, does that mean bluebells and daisies aren't beautiful? No. It just means they're different. As for brains, you should consider yourself lucky. It literally depresses me to see how dumb the kids at my school are, and it almost makes me wonder if civilization will fall apart. But no, it won't. There are still people like you who will survive, and make sure the rest of the world does. Sometimes accomplishments make you beautiful. Katherine Wright, sister of the Wright brothers, was very intelligent and accomplished and was considered her own unique form of pretty.

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Hazelnut-Eyes In reply to fey-fae-whatever [2013-04-19 15:46:21 +0000 UTC]

Wow, that was sweet :3

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MissingSkeleton [2013-03-29 05:55:53 +0000 UTC]

I hear exactly the same things

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Erix19 [2013-03-29 05:03:50 +0000 UTC]

I'm 25, unemployed, and clueless. I've lacked ambition all my life and it doesn't help that the one field I'd be willing to attend college to get into has little to no demand. I'm also horrible at planning for the future because my style is to take each day as it comes and not worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow may not come at all and if I make big plans for the future, they're ultimately wasted.

I want to work with books or something library-oriented but school was never my thing. I always did enough to get by and graduate. I'd rather not have to do the whole college thing because I'm of the mind that it's just not for everybody and yet, a crapload of careers require some form of higher education (including careers I feel are best learned on the job and shouldn't require additional schooling).

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Witty-Allowishus [2013-03-29 04:01:19 +0000 UTC]

I have trouble with ambition too, and I can't seem to motivate myself.
*sends hugs* You're not alone.

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lmoonga [2013-03-29 03:06:21 +0000 UTC]

I hear you. I have the joy of being 14, in college, of abnormal intellect, "pretty," "talented," and totally clueless about what I want to do. My dad has big dreams for me, and at this point, I just don't care. I'm waiting to find a dream.

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some1eleven [2013-03-28 23:26:42 +0000 UTC]

And that's exactly what'll let you change the world one day

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Freakconformist [2013-03-28 21:41:19 +0000 UTC]

I'm right there with you, I was 28 years old before I realized I didn't actually want to be an "Artist".
When I was a socially awkward geek in middle school everybody told me how I was going to be so much more successful than my bullies. 20 years later, they're married with careers and a mortgage, while I'm living in my parent's basement trying to figure out who I _really_ am.

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MockingJay1256 [2013-03-28 20:40:55 +0000 UTC]

I feel the same.. I always get good grades without trying hard and yet the achievements feel like nothing. Not one drop of satisfaction goes towards all that hard work.. *sigh* you aren't alone, Secret Teller..

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LadyMothwing [2013-03-28 19:28:16 +0000 UTC]

Not to be rude, but is it possible that your very lack of ambition and drive is the reason those people tell you these things?

I know that if I met someone with zero ambition I was close to I'd want to motivate them to make more of their lives and like themselves more, and most people don't really think that can be achieved by telling someone, "Yeah, you're kinda average-looking and you are really good at doing what you're told, so you ought to look into a profession that calls for that and zero initiative!"

They're probably just trying to be helpful. Maybe you ought to talk to someone about your lack of focus and interest.

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Erix19 In reply to LadyMothwing [2013-03-29 04:55:20 +0000 UTC]

I'm 25 years old and the kind of person who also suffers from lack of ambition. Let me be the first to say that telling me that sort of thing as motivation is pretty much guaranteed to backfire completely.

My lack of ambition comes from the fact that I never been good at planning the future. I've always taken one day at a time.

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Moreta573 [2013-03-28 19:05:31 +0000 UTC]

youre so much like me.
the worst thing i's that I feel comfortable with it. I can just keep running inside myself into fake worlds

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TailoredAngelsHorror [2013-03-28 18:44:51 +0000 UTC]

I can relate. When I was younger, people told those same sorts of things to me, and so I started feeling like that was the life I was supposed to live. I had no drive or ambition or goals, however.

I CAN tell you that I have found my way. It took a long time, but my goals have formed, my drive is starting up, and I have ambition. It would have seemed impossible to me back then that this could happen.

I think you need to live your life for yourself until what you want becomes clear. Something that is VERY important is to keep throwing yourself into challenging situations. If something freaks you out--like traveling alone (I don't know how old you are), for example, find a way to do exactly that, but be safe. I found that it was in situations where I had absolutely no idea what to do or even how to act that I started figuring out who I am and what I want. If you stay in the same place, doing the same things, it will take longer for you to find yourself and your way--and you may never find it at all. Stagnation is a terrible thing for our minds and souls. Shake yourself up.

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NoxSatuKeir [2013-03-28 18:31:21 +0000 UTC]

I'm in the same situation.
I have people tell me the exact same things. That I'm a genius, beautiful, and have such a bright future. But I also lack ambition. I lack motivation. I'm discontent with who I am and what my life is. My achievements don't mean anything to me, even if they're great achievements, it's just been life for me.
I've never really pushed my limits. I can get good grades without trying that hard. Everything's been laid out for me, but it's not the path I want to walk. I'm just afraid to tell the ones I love that I don't care. I just don't care. I haven't found anything that I want to care for.

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xXxAcidRainxX [2013-03-28 18:29:02 +0000 UTC]

Exact same here. It's hard, I feel like I let everyone down all the time because they expect so much.

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lvxferre [2013-03-28 18:28:50 +0000 UTC]

Not exactly.
I just hear "Oh, i'm a loser; I'm ugly; I can't do nothing; I don't know what to do; I don't know where to go; I'm depressed; No one loves me because I'm fat; The world would be better off without me; I love cut myself; Poor me"
^This is what everyone says, this is what you're saying.

Fucking hell, i'm tired of people who only complains about themselves!

It's absolutly rare, at least to me, to hear someone saying "I'm a genius" or "I'm beautiful", maybe "I love myself".

Yeah, I can be piece of shit for some, but I truly love myself and I'm happy with me <3
People, go find your way. At least go SEARCH your way. The true instinct says all and can be a nice guider.

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Warai-Kentshu [2013-03-28 18:18:44 +0000 UTC]

-hugs-

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Luted [2013-03-28 18:11:46 +0000 UTC]

Aside from 'beautiful', i can relate well.

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Criniti [2013-03-28 18:11:46 +0000 UTC]

Woah that's deep!

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UsurperBobO In reply to Criniti [2013-03-28 18:14:44 +0000 UTC]

Not really.

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Criniti In reply to UsurperBobO [2013-03-28 18:25:30 +0000 UTC]

Your opinion

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UsurperBobO In reply to Criniti [2013-03-28 19:10:17 +0000 UTC]

It's not an opinion as much as it is a fact. Though you may have an opinion on what's deep or not, the universal actuality remains.

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Criniti In reply to UsurperBobO [2013-03-28 19:54:55 +0000 UTC]

Conflicting opinions conflict. I think it's best if we move on from this futile argument.

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ArsenicBlue [2013-03-28 18:09:48 +0000 UTC]

Been there done that.Still doing it. Sometimes I just wish people would see me for . The failure I really am.Instead of this charade.Then there are the to.especially I wish I lived up to their expectation of me.sigh.

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DireDandelion [2013-03-28 18:06:14 +0000 UTC]

This is the first one I can sort of relate too.

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owlblock [2013-03-28 17:48:50 +0000 UTC]

I can definitely relate to this!

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wolves--rock [2013-03-28 17:43:59 +0000 UTC]

Yup...

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RunawaySpirit [2013-03-28 17:24:42 +0000 UTC]

This has to be one of the worst things be stuck with in life, and I'm sorry for you. I have a question for you, though...how old are you? High school? Middle school? If you're within those two age groups let me remind you that you have a lot of growing up to do still.

For some reason, everyone insists that we should have our lives figured out by high school (and yet spout double negative like 'Follow your dreams!' and 'Don't worry; you have time.')
This is untrue. It takes a bitchin' long time to figure yourself out, to grow up. I didn't figure out what I was meant to do until sophomore year of college...after telling everyone that I was going to be a nurse one day.
Well, you know what? That made me unhappy. I was just doing as I was told.

But I didn't get it until I had actually been out in the real world. Went on 'adventures'. Found real, true, honest friends and inspirational people to be beside. Take your time, my secret friend. You have it. You have years, months, days! You have so many days ahead of you! Take each one as itself. Don't rush.
You'll be happy- I promise! You'll have your own dreams!

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LovesToGiggle In reply to RunawaySpirit [2013-04-02 02:47:41 +0000 UTC]

I agree with this comment. I went through all of middle school, all of high school, and the first year and a half of college thinking that I desperately wanted to be a physicist and that I would never change my major. Halfway through my third semester of college, I was like, "Nope, no way in hell am I gonna continue with this." And now I found something that can be just as difficult and stressful at times, but I love it so much more! It just takes time and a lot of trial-and-error before anyone really figures out what they want to do in life.

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NurseTenderheart In reply to RunawaySpirit [2013-03-28 18:11:58 +0000 UTC]

I agree with ~RunawaySpirit , I'm 36 and just coming to terms with who I am. Just ended an emotionally abusive and repressive marriage in October. It's hard to be yourself when you are constantly told to stop.

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RunawaySpirit In reply to NurseTenderheart [2013-03-31 05:41:41 +0000 UTC]

I'm glad you found yourself, and got yourself out of that situation! Don't stop choosing happiness! That's how I get over people who try to bring me down.

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Severe-Lacerations In reply to RunawaySpirit [2013-03-28 18:05:21 +0000 UTC]

This is so right. All we ever seem to hear is 'follow your dreams!', 'do what you love!', 'be yourself!'. And then they tear you to bits for trying to do any of those things. I dropped out of a university course that my parents had pushed me into last year, I hated it, but while I was there I was able to figure out what I really loved and want to do. I'm trying to pursue that now, to get into a new university, but my dad's already decided that I've ruined my life and I'm going to be stacking shelves forever. I'm nineteen. Nineteen. Jesus. I know how wrong he is but it's disheartening as Hell to hear that from someone so close. I have to tell him sometime soon that I didn't make it into any universities this year. That's going to be a goddamn apocalyptic disaster too. As if there isn't next year.

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