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I can hear deaths sweet call, wrapping its sharp claws around my broken heart. The temptation to cross the line and walk in the shadow of death once more is unbearably strong. So I close my eyes and take a step but something stops me. I'm unable to move, though I keep trying to take the final steps towards death.
For the first time I notice the warmth of something wrapped around me, holding me in place. I turn to a face that's filled with love. My eyes find yours and fill with tears as I realize that love is meant for me. I try to pull away, to hide my love in fear of causing you pain, or of me being hurt once more…but you won't let go. You hold me tightly, willing me to stay. Hoping for my trust, but I wont give in. I keep trying to leave, desperate now. I turn around " Please let go," I cry hysterically trying to pull away. "PLEASE!"
I'm begging now, trying as hard as I can not to look into your eyes. I know if I do, I'll give in. I wont let myself…No, not this time. I can't stand to feel the pain that could come from it, so I continue to fight. Then I hear you say the 3 words I've longed to hear my whole life said the exact way you spoke them. " I Love You."
It's then that I know it's no use fighting and I stop. All is quiet. I fall to my knees letting the tears get the best of me. You wrap me in your arms protecting me from the world outside
The feel of your arms around me is enough to stop my trembling, but deep inside I wonder if it's enough to stop the hidden pain I always carry with me. It may be enough to make it subside for the time being, but to make it vanish forever would be practically impossible.
The pain I carry with me will be a constant barrier betweeen us, so to let this go on would be improbable, impossible even. It would be best for me to let you go, for your own protection then to keep you mixed up in this irrational relationship, but I don't have the strength to let you go. To let you go would take everything I have, all the strength I use to keep the pain at bay. So I stay in the protection of your arms and pray with all my heart that this will be enough to keep me safe, to protect me from the pain that constantly threatens my sanity.