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Fitting song

I've been having an extremely rough time. I'm in a severely depressive low that's beginning to rival the very dark period of time I had all the way back in high school, and that isn't even considering all the things that are going on in the world outside as well (I really don't want to get into that rn); those just make everything a thousand times worse ahaaaa

I've also been having a very hard time with art. I will sit and draw, and once I finish, I very genuinely say "I hate drawing." I feel very horrible when I do it, it does not feel good at all and in the end after finishing a piece I feel like I just spent all that time hurting myself. I'm trying very hard to find a way to get back to the feeling of the time when I really enjoyed drawing, and the process of it felt good and I was so happy to do it. I'm so extremely far away from that place, and I don't know if it's because of overworking and burnout, stunting of my improvement and learning by the sheer amount of commission and other owed work I do that takes all of my time away from personal art or studies, my stupidly picky perfectionism, or just my general rapidly deteriorating metal health. I genuinely hate the majority of the art that I do, and no I'm not saying that for compliments. I genuinely do not want to hear them.

Commissions will remain closed for a while still (I'm sorry) and I will be making changes to my Patreon again to reduce the amount of monthly rewards very greatly (I'm so sorry). I'm trying to work to make drawing something that I enjoy again, because obviously I don't want something that was so good in my life to become something that only makes me feel horrendous. I guess expect a lot of redraws (no surprise there) and hopefully more involved studies from me, and lots more personal art for myself and my characters that no one here even really knows exist because I don't have a lot of time to dedicate to giving them the love they deserve. Obviously I will be completing all owed art before shutting that down completely for now. I can't remember a time in my 11 year online art career where I didn't owe art to somebody in some way.

Thank you so much for supporting me and sticking by, especially when I end up disappearing for months on end. Hopefully any changes I'm making won't deter most of you, but if it does it's 100% okay and I understand. I'm sorry that I'm always having a tough time, I don't want that to impact anyone else. Unfortunately right now, in terms of getting art from me in forms of commission or Patreon rewards, it is going to have to begin affecting some people, and I'm really sorry. I'm just dumb.

If you like my work, please consider supporting me on Patreon!

Gallery - Commissions - Patreon - ArtStation - Discord Server

Character/Art©DoeKitty
Drawn in Paint Tool SAI with Huion Kamvas 6 Pro tablet

Description

Fitting song

I've been having an extremely rough time. I'm in a severely depressive low that's beginning to rival the very dark period of time I had all the way back in high school, and that isn't even considering all the things that are going on in the world outside as well (I really don't want to get into that rn); those just make everything a thousand times worse ahaaaa

I've also been having a very hard time with art. I will sit and draw, and once I finish, I very genuinely say "I hate drawing." I feel very horrible when I do it, it does not feel good at all and in the end after finishing a piece I feel like I just spent all that time hurting myself. I'm trying very hard to find a way to get back to the feeling of the time when I really enjoyed drawing, and the process of it felt good and I was so happy to do it. I'm so extremely far away from that place, and I don't know if it's because of overworking and burnout, stunting of my improvement and learning by the sheer amount of commission and other owed work I do that takes all of my time away from personal art or studies, my stupidly picky perfectionism, or just my general rapidly deteriorating metal health. I genuinely hate the majority of the art that I do, and no I'm not saying that for compliments. I genuinely do not want to hear them.

Commissions will remain closed for a while still (I'm sorry) and I will be making changes to my Patreon again to reduce the amount of monthly rewards very greatly (I'm so sorry). I'm trying to work to make drawing something that I enjoy again, because obviously I don't want something that was so good in my life to become something that only makes me feel horrendous. I guess expect a lot of redraws (no surprise there) and hopefully more involved studies from me, and lots more personal art for myself and my characters that no one here even really knows exist because I don't have a lot of time to dedicate to giving them the love they deserve. Obviously I will be completing all owed art before shutting that down completely for now. I can't remember a time in my 11 year online art career where I didn't owe art to somebody in some way.

Thank you so much for supporting me and sticking by, especially when I end up disappearing for months on end. Hopefully any changes I'm making won't deter most of you, but if it does it's 100% okay and I understand. I'm sorry that I'm always having a tough time, I don't want that to impact anyone else. Unfortunately right now, in terms of getting art from me in forms of commission or Patreon rewards, it is going to have to begin affecting some people, and I'm really sorry. I'm just dumb.

If you like my work, please consider supporting me on Patreon!

Gallery - Commissions - Patreon - ArtStation - Discord Server

Character/Art©DoeKitty
Drawn in Paint Tool SAI with Huion Kamvas 6 Pro tablet