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Rated M: Language, Adult themes and just to be safe ok?

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This is how I tend to write:

‘Thinking/Thoughts’
“Dialogue”
Narration

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Chapter 4: Confession of the soul.

Titan’s Tower: Common Room

“So let me get this straight leader. You walked in on Rae and pale wimp making out in her room?!?” asked Cyborg trying to make sense of the events Robin had just told them. He could never imagine Raven dating, but the thought of her making out with a guy sent chills down his robotic spine. His eyes went back to Beast Boy who sat next to him and hadn’t budged since Robin began. Beast Boy’s ears had drooped and his expression was blank. He had not spoken and seemed to be using all his strength to hold back his tears.

“Dude…why didn’t you tell us?”  asked Beast Boy in an emotionless voice. He spoke softly and never looked at Robin or Cyborg. He was fighting his own emotions since they had returned to the tower and now he barely had the strength to argue or to show his anger. He felt weak and with every word that Robin spoke about the past events he felt his energy leave him.

“Well to be honest I was scared. I have seen and fought a lot of things in my life. I have faced villains and monsters that would scare anyone to death. But Raven can be scarier than all of that put together when she wants to be. She gave me a choice: either I keep her secret or she removes every bone in my body through my mouth. I chose the first one.” answered Robin rubbing his throat and turning slightly pale as that night’s events flashed through his mind. Raven could be scary when she needed to be. ‘Since that day I’ve never laughed at Dr. Light every time he nearly wets himself at the sight of Raven. She can be very frightening when she wants to be’ he thought before his attention went elsewhere.

“Friends, she has awakened and requests to speak to us” eagerly shouted Starfire the moment the Common Room doors opened and she flew in. “Friend Raven wishes to speak to us about the event of the past”

“Ok Star. We’ll meet you there.” replied Cyborg as the Tamaranian princess entered the Common Room. Robin had headed towards the door the moment she spoke and was now standing beside her with a slight blush on his cheeks.

“I’ll go on ahead with Starfire.” said Robin as he stood next to Starfire and held her hand with his. “You two don’t take too long. I’m sure whatever Raven is about to tell us is causing her more stress than she needs right now.” added Robin as his blush grew wider on his face the moment Starfire’s fingers interlaced with his. Cyborg gave him a small grin just before the couple left the room.

“Ok BB let’s go. We have to catch up with the love birds before Star drags Robin into another make out session” chuckled Cyborg as he made his way to the door. He was about to open it when he noticed that a certain green changeling hadn’t budged from the couch. “BB let’s go man. They won’t wait for ever you know.”

“Sure…” Beast Boy could barely answer. He knew what was coming and he just wanted to leave. Hearing how the girl he loved made out with some pale loser wasn’t his idea of a group conversation. ‘Just leave the tower. I doubt the metal man can stop us if you morph into me’ came a voice inside his mind. Though it spoke in English it wasn’t his voice. It was primal and savage, full of rage and anger. ‘I’m not in the mood to argue with you right now…just leave me alone for once’ was all Beast Boy could respond as his body made its way towards Cyborg. He was moving on instinct now. No matter how much he didn’t want to go, he knew he had to. Raven was about to bare her soul and regardless of what she was going to tell them he still loved her and would give her all the support she needed.

Titan’s Tower: Sick Bay

‘Ok BB you can’t let them see you like this. They can’t see the anger, the pain and the suffering’ Beast Boy told himself as he put on his trademark goofy grin and shoved all his emotions back. ‘Time to put on a show.’ he thought as he opened the sick bay door and walked in.

“Sorry I took so long guys, I had to make a pit stop” said Beast Boy with his usual cheery tone. He saw the effect he had on his friends as soon as they heard him return to his old self. Starfire’s cheerful demeanor returned as soon as she heard him, she was always worried when her friends weren’t acting normal and she looked like a weight had been lifted from her. Robin’s normally serious face softened not only from Beast Boy’s tone but also from the look of happiness on his girlfriend’s face, he allowed himself a smile as Beast Boy took a seat next to Raven’s bed.

“About time you got here BB. I thought you had gotten lost in the tower again.” jokingly commented Cyborg with a smile. He was probably the closest thing Beast Boy had to a brother and even though he was hard on the changeling he did it out of brotherly concern. Now with Beast Boy flashing his normal toothy grin he felt as if things might get back to normal.

“Hey that only happened once…ok five times but hey I still didn’t know the layout of the tower.” replied Beast Boy scratching the back of his neck while the others laughed. ‘Ok everything is going good so far. Star seems to be about to burst with relief and happiness, Robin seems more relaxed and Cy is cracking jokes again. Only Raven is left to…” his thoughts were interrupted as his gaze met Raven’s. Her beautiful violet eyes looked at him with a mixture of worry and concern. She could always see right through his act. Even now when the others had been fooled she knew. ‘Damn it I forgot she can sense emotions. Think fast BB.’ “So Rae what did you wanna talk to us about?” immediately blurted out Beast Boy as the attention of the others focused on Raven. She knew his weaknesses but he knew hers. She hated being the center of attention and right now that was the only way to keep her from revealing his act. Raven shot him a glare before she turned to the others. She took a deep breath and prepared herself for the worst.

“First of all…I’m sorry. I know I should have told you all about this sooner. You are my friends and you have proven time after time that you trust me. It was selfish and wrong of me not to trust you.” she began. Her eyes met with those of her friends. She was about to bare her soul to them and she wanted to make sure they believed her. As she saw the looks of compassion and understanding she relaxed herself a bit more and continued. “It all started about a week after we returned from Tokyo. I had heard of a new café that had opened up and I decided to go see it. The first few visits were uneventful, it was peaceful and truth be told I felt almost normal there. The people around me admired me for being a Titan but treated me like a normal person and that felt great for a change.” she allowed herself a brief smile as the memories came pouring out, the smile faded quickly as she continued. “Then I met him. His name is Joseph Adrian. He is roughly two years older than me and he was quite charming when he wanted to be. At first we would just talk and discuss poetry and books. Everything from Poe to Shakespeare. At first I thought I had found an intellectual equal…as time passed I realized I was falling for him. I had never felt this way before…” she stopped herself as she heard a barrage of shouting coming from her mind.

‘Liar, liar, pants on fire!!’ screamed Happy with a scowl on her face.

‘Oh yeah. Such a truthful titan’ added Rude, her voice full of sarcasm.

‘Just tell him the truth. Tell him why you REALLY dated that loser. Grow a pair for once in your life damn it!’ screamed Brave, trying her best not to punch the nearest object.

‘Please just tell him the truth’ added Timid, her voice slightly louder than usual and her eyes covered in tears.

‘You talk about honesty, yet you are blatantly lying to your team mates right now’ added Knowledge, gazing up from her book with a look of concern.

‘SHUT UP! For once let me do this alone!’ screamed Raven into her mind as she felt herself being nudged.

“Earth to Rae. Come in Rae. You ok?” asked Beast Boy as he nudged Raven’s shoulder. He could see her tense up and he took a wild guess that her emotions were going nuts. She had confided in him a few things over the years. And after the incident in Nevermore she had told him that her emotions would sometimes argue with her if they felt she was ignoring them.

“Yes Beast Boy, I’m fine. I just felt out of it for a second. Where was I?” she said as her conscious snapped back to the real world.

“You said you had never felt that way about anyone before.” replied Beast Boy, his ears dropping slightly as he fidgeted in his seat. He was having his own internal battle and wasn’t being as successful as Raven.

“Right. Well as time passed we began to meet more often. Usually just at the café but other times we did things normal couples do.” continued Raven not noticing the wince of pain that passed through Beast Boy as she mentioned the word “couples”.

“So when did you two begin with the making out?” innocently asked Starfire before realizing her mistake. Raven looked at Robin and her gaze turned into a glare. Robin’s blood grew cold and his face turned pale at the sight of Raven’s anger. He had told Starfire a week after the incident and was sure she would keep it a secret.

“Someone’s gonna have to sleep with a night light from now on.” commented Cyborg with a grin.

Raven calmed herself down and her glare vanished. ‘Starfire is Robin’s girlfriend. Of course he would tell her. I’m surprised she took this long to blurt it out’ thought Raven as she collected her thoughts. “It took us longer than it took you and Robin.” she replied with a small smile. “Even then…it felt odd. I had never felt this emotion before and truthfully I don’t know what it was until it was too late. I listened to it more than I did with my other emotions and things between me and Joseph were going better than I had ever expected. My powers were even stable as we kissed and I thought things would not get worse…” her voice seemed to trail off as a rather painful event came back to her.

“About two weeks ago we went to a poetry reading at the café and it was going along like every other night. He convinced me to read a poem I had showed him a few months before. He knew just how to convince me and I found myself in front of everyone reading my poem. It was all going perfect until I finished my last cup of tea and began to feel odd.” Raven’s voice became weak as she fought back her emotions. “I felt dizzy and light headed. I felt my emotions going wild and I just wanted to lay down for a bit. Joseph took me to his apartment and we just sat on the couch for a while. After a few minutes my mind went blank and I could feel the previous emotion taking over.” tears began to flow down her cheeks as she tightened her grip on the blanket beneath her. “Everything after that is a blur, I remember us kissing, then we went into his bedroom, I didn’t feel like myself and I could feel my control on my body slipping. After that we had already taken off our clothes…” she pulled her knees up to her chest before she found the strength to continue. “I felt everything but I couldn’t control it. Something inside of me took over and I couldn’t stop it. I woke up the next morning in his arms. We had spent the entire night together but I could barely remember it. After that we became more distant…and after a while we ended it. He barely visited the café after that and I tried my best to forget him. Before we broke up he wrote me the poem you heard today. He said I was his muse and that it was the greatest thing he had ever written. I convinced him to never read that poem to anyone…or so I thought” she was about to continue when a loud crash surprised her. She looked over and saw the chair Beast Boy was sitting on smashed on the other side of the room.

“He raped you Rae!! That bastard RAPED YOU!!” Beast Boy screamed at her. It wasn’t a scream of anger but one of pain. Tears poured from his eyes as he fell to his knees.

“Beast Boy he didn’t rape me” replied Raven trying her best to convince herself as much as her friends.

“It sounds like he did Rae. He could have put something into your tea while you were on stage.” added Cyborg, he had walked over to Beast Boy and was now doing his best to calm the changeling down.

“But that does not explain this new emotion you felt. With us, our emotions are nothing more than feelings within us. But with Raven her emotions are another being as Cyborg and Beast Boy have already told us.” commented Robin as he felt Starfire’s grip on his hand get tighter. She was now sobbing as much as Beast Boy was and had her face buried in Robin’s chest.

“I’m going to kill him.” said Beast Boy as he regained his composure. “He’s gonna wish he had never been born!” he shouted as he made his way to the door. He felt his right arm jerk back as Cyborg grabbed it.

“Sorry BB. As much as we all want to do it, we don’t have any proof. Don’t go out there, if you’re going to regret it later.” Cyborg replied, his voice was stern and his grip on Beast Boy would normally stop anyone.

“Let go of me Cyborg!” screamed Beast Boy trying his best to escape the metal man’s grip.

“Sorry BB. Can’t let you go.” Cyborg replied tightening his grip a bit more to make sure Beast Boy couldn’t morph out of it.

“I SAID LET ME GO!!” screamed Beast Boy as his swung his left arm at Cyborg’s chest. His movement was quicker than Cyborg’s bionic eye could register and before he knew it there was a surge of pain running through his metal body. His grip on Beast Boy loosened and the green changeling made his way towards the door. Before the door had finished opening Beast Boy felt his energy drained, he felt a sharp pain on the back of his neck just before he fell to his knees and blacked out.

“BEAST BOY!” screamed Raven as all this happened before her. She saw the green changeling fall unconscious and saw a red dart piercing the back of the changeling’s neck.

“That will hold him for now.” calmy said Robin as he walked over to his injured friend. “What the hell happened Cyborg?” he looked at Cyborg’s chest and found the answer. There were four pierce marks across the metal man’s chest. Each had cut deep enough to slice through several cables and wires.

“BB needs to get his nails trimmed I guess.” jokingly replied Cyborg as he looked over at Robin. “What the hell did you hit him with?” asked Cyborg as he saw Starfire pick up Beast Boy’s limp body and place it on a bed next to Raven.

“Elephant tranquilizer. I keep it around in case we need to put Mammoth to sleep while the authorities pick him up.” replied Robin as he returned a small projectile launcher back to its proper compartment on his belt.

“Will our friend be all right?” asked a teary eyed Starfire as she looked at green friend.

“Yea Star. His DNA makes him more tolerable to that stuff than any of us. He will wake up in about an hour or two. In the mean time we should set up a containment field around him. He will most likely be very pissed off when he wakes up.” replied Robin with a comforting smile. He looked over at his injured friend and patted him on the shoulder. “Get yourself fixed up. Me and Star can handle it from here”

“Yeah right. If you two are gonna make out at least wait till Raven is asleep.” Cyborg replied with a small smile. He tried to crack a joke but as he gazed at Raven he snapped out of it. She had fallen asleep again and was now curled up in a fetal position. ‘I wonder which one is in more pain.’ he thought as he pulled Raven’s covers over her to keep her warm. He looked over at Robin and Starfire who had begun to set up the containment field around Beast Boy’s bed and he looked down at his own injuries. ‘Heck. I got off easy’ he thought and made his way to his room. This was going to be a hell of a night he thought taking one last look around the room.

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End of Chapter 4. Ok so what did you guys think? A pretty tense chapter indeed. Pretty long too. I hope I didn’t make it too long or too wordy. (is that even a word?....oh well). Anyways please review ^_^