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Description Trying to be inside for a moment.
Another moment inside of you. Say
you'll stay. My hands feel you, so please delay
your departure tonight. You now torment
me with closed eyes that once were open. Spent
so much time with you, but now you sleep. Play
with me you did before, all night long. Lay
in me now. Make our love now in my sight.
Your sleeping eyes hide your lust well, open
them. Love lingers behind your lids. Don't you
see? Now you open them. They look right through
me. Why? Your eyes used to capture each of
my actions. Before tonight we loved, then
darkness came. Will we ever start again?

Drink in one hand, and air in the other
was how you first saw me. A large bright smile
was on my face when our eyes first met. While
our eyes made love, our mouths made talk. Further
from the light our thoughts went. No, our mother
wasn't there to reprimand us. Worthwhile
were the thoughts in our heads, drinks in hand. Style
was shown with such grace, but not in bed. Myrrh
was given to air the room for us. Love
was dead in all but us. Eternity
with each other was our one hope. A dove
in my cup, and I saw a little wry
disease in your bottle. In a small cove
I felt your stare. Hungry hand on my thigh.

Your hand growls no more. Is it satisfied?
Or do you just not care about me now?
What about what you said back then? Your vow
to me? Three years and I thought we had tried
too hard to turn back now. But I denied
what I saw in your eyes last night. Allow
you to come here again, I did. See how
I want you but you turn away. Beside
you is not where you want me. Not ever
again. You stay silent even when my
lips touch yours. You used to moan when body
of mine came to yours. With sweat embody
passion you did, but you stay silent by
the new moon's light now. No more forever.

My shirt was thin, as was your grin. Large hands
covered my small ones, and we danced in our
street while it rained. Is our sacred hour
close to its end now? I want our prized plans.
Your kind eyes hungered for me, and my lips
for you. Who cared what others missed? We star
in each other's minds. The only power
to stop us was you. Would you need my hips?
I wished the rain would never stop. I died
when we went to sleep. Libido was done
for the night, but not my mind. Should I run?
I was worried you had another one
in your secret bed. That fear was outdone
by my faith. I would be your loving bride.

Rain pours harsher than it did that night long
ago. Long ago is how it seems to
me now. Will you lift your old face up? Do
you even want to as you lie there strong?
Do you not notice? Or do you belong
here in this land of tears? Do you renew
your libido with another now? Through
me and out you go. Please say I am wrong.
I want to dance outside again in rain
that drenches my clothes. I want your laughter
ringing in my deadened ears forever.
Is she beautiful, and would you two go
dancing in the rain like you did with me?
I see you now, and you are my new woe.

Say sex and people will censor you. Shout
procreation and people will listen
to you. The fierce feral act did glisten
on my skin that night. I had no clear doubt.
Moans from previous lives erupted out
of your lips. Animals can't say amen
to their feelings. But you and I can. When
have others felt such bliss and went without?
Humans are animals and can't go long
without blood and sweat. Is it so wrong? Or
just natural? That night it was not wrong.
It was pure bliss when morality tore
itself from us and told us we belong
in pure feeling without thought. We want more.

Now, as you look at me, you're clothed. Your chest
is bare, but your bottom is covered. Gone
are the days of wild innocence. Withdrawn
is your wild side from mine. Please say you jest.
I thought we could combine ourselves and rest
in each other's arms. But resting foregone
to play instead. Now you are more mind. Drawn
is the curtain to your body, your breast.
You talk of diseases with grand science
and no feeling backing you up. Did she
teach you this philosophy? Then go free.
You want to think now, but what good is mind
in such times, in such crimes. Whose alliance
have you joined now? Not mine. I find you blind.

Nights used to be my favorite time of
day. I knew you would be waiting for me
when I came. We would dance and prepare glee
to be used later that night. You I love.
Each and every night the neighbors would shove
their face in your door and complain. Agree
they all did that we were loud. A banshee
could not sound worse. We were not from above.
Every single night we would perform our
sacred dance. All this in our dark tower
which hid us from the world. We were alone.
The police came one night in the shower
to tell us to lower the noise. Power
of ours was too great. And there she was shown.

Now the neighbors don't complain about our
noises at night, we don't make any. All
noises are silent as I see the wall
and my end told there in blood. We went far.
Neighbors now complain about our bizarre
silence. We should be loud, they think. Recall
how we said we'd never be silent? Crawl
away now, silent one. I'll take the car.
The blood on the wall now flows over me.
Does it even remember me? It knows
only I am silent now. My new pose.
I want to take the wheel and quickly find
who I used to be. I want the noise, I
want you. I turn my head to the bleak sky.

I want you inside me one more time. Say
you'll enter me one more time. Sitting up
you look at me. Your eyes push me away.
Your eyes don't know me anymore, small pup.
Once you sit up I can sense your fear. She
thinks you are hers, and you are. I will not
hold on if you let me go. I may be
free, but I will die. I will quickly rot.
Your eyes firmly grasp mine. I dare not look
away. A hint of a passion is there.
Is it for me? Don't leave me now. You took
my heart, don't take my soul. You'll leave me bare.
One more time won't come. This I know so well.
So why don't you push me into my Hell?

I lived in the warmth and heat of the sun,
and then I went into the cold for you.
Though I had your love, the people I knew
that lived by you were few, you could say none.
I unpacked and saw you knew that begun
our life together had. Before us two
were living together we were not true
lovers. I knew she was gone. She I shun.
Once I thought I saw her staring up at
you through your window. You said to me that
you ignored her. But you lied, you lame rat.
The warmth of comfort was gone, but I did
pretend I was not in the cold and hid
in my daydream where you loved only me.

I, again, move slowly over to you
and you pretend I am not here. Deny
me even a simple touch you do. Why
must I burn in your Hell? Is this my due?
I know you are now true to her. Untrue
to me and not willing to say so. Dry
my weary eyes with well known lies. You sigh
the truth while my eyes water. Unkind view.
You do not hide the truth any longer.
I thank you for that and want to now ask
you to choose for closure. I am silent.
I move slowly away and do not ask.
I close my eyes to clear my mind. Stronger
am I than you. Though my heart has been spent.

Noah did not work harder to build his
ark, than we did to build our newfound life
together. I did not mind the hard strife,
for you were my goal. I know what she says.
You asked me where I was one night. What quiz
is this? Where is your trust? Aren't I your wife?
I was only shopping for our house. Knife
me if you want to. I know what wrong is.
I got through your suspicions and we were
at peace again. Doubts left our minds. I knew
you were true again. The rest was a blur.
Later you ran out late at night with her
by your side. My fears now renewed anew.
I had to buy a new house and move out.

You look out to the world, and I stand right
beside you by the one window in my
room. Maybe we could have. We both had aimed high
and got lost in the fall, gave up the fight.
Your eyes try to escape the extreme fright
that's in here tonight. But clouds in the sky
cover up the moon's light. You are now shy
as you fall down. Let's set it right tonight.
I know you don't want to, and maybe we
can never go back. I pick you up now,
and you refuse to move. Is it my touch?
I manage to have your eyes look and see
the dark of the night with the hope of glee
in the future. You….my hand one more time?

The crisp night air creeps in through the window,
and we are in the rain dancing, singing,
and not imaging a life bringing
anything but this. But we are dry now.
You turn angrily towards me, window
showing your happy grin. We are swinging
on a burning tree. As you turn, freezing
air attacks us both. Are we both calm now?
Our eyes meet and I see a hint glimmer
deep inside your eyes. A tear comes out. You
have made your decision, but is it right?
You throw your shoe at her picture. I know
that meant so much to you. Your face turns dazed,
and do I see hate? Will you make me raised?
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Comments: 2

youneverasked [2008-12-14 06:17:19 +0000 UTC]

The subject does nothing for me, but you know what a stickler I am for form, and the fact that you kept turning out sonnets like that is incredible. I must say, in that regard I am very impressed.

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elixirphoenix In reply to youneverasked [2008-12-15 18:44:00 +0000 UTC]

Thanks n.n
And sonnets were supposed to be about love so...and Petrarch wrote about Laura (can't remember if she was married or not when he started writing about her) and Shakespeare also wrote about someone he couldn't have as well as Dante. So me choosing this subject didn't make me feel that badXD

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