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enmi — by trying so hard not to
Published: 2013-02-20 22:36:38 +0000 UTC; Views: 7292; Favourites: 541; Downloads: 0
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what happens to us if we accept that i’m unfixable?it’s okay it’s okay it’s okay i didn’t mean what i said
i’m so afraid to tell you
this isn’t what i’m used to
Elite Gymnastics - Here in Heaven
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This is both sad and very very hopeful at the same time. Sort of like a warm blanket to cuddle underneath after the anxiety attack that caused my latest piece. It's really ok now. :3
edit: Nah, it wasn't ok at all. It was all shit actually. Who would have guessed?! Not me anyway...
edit 2: no worries. i'm fine again :3
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dude, this piece hits home for me real hard.
I was emitted into the hospital because i was feeling suicidal and had an absolute full on mental breakdown.
That feeling where your whole body feels stiff and shaking, out of control, you feel your stomach tense up and your head feels like its expanding and contracting at the same time. you feel like you cant breathe, when you try to breathe, theyre just shallow gasps for air followed by trying not to choke on your tears and saliva. You feel like your trapped in a dark heavy plastic bag, like youre drowning and you dont know how to swim.
Its so amazing that you illustrated what i wish more people understood. I love it, thank you so much for creating this. thank you thank you thank you.
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Wow, thank you for this comment. This is exactly what I wanted to convey and it's what I felt while I painted as well. I had recently come out of the hospital at that point and I had a lot of emotions and anxiety left to deal with. I'm still happy that I managed to get some of those feelings out in my art. That's not always the case, usually I can't paint at all when I'm depressed or feel anxiety. It really moves me when others can relate to the images I've made in these states. Thank you for sharing your story and your thoughts and I wish you all the best <3
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Hey! This is really cool!
This is kind of weird to ask, but I'm writing a Scream fanfiction at the moment that has a hostage sort of plot and this is like the perfect cover art for it. Would it be alright if I used it?
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I'd like to read it first but as long as it's a non profit thing you´re free to use it with credits ^__^
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Yeah totally. I have to warn you though. There's a lot of smut--like A LOT of smut. An it's the first real M rated story I've submitted so I'm not really sure how well it is, or if people are even going to like it or not, so I'm a little self conscious about this.
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Arighy, well if interested, it's at fanfiction.net under movies with the Scream stories and it's called "Scream as Much as You Want".
With your permission I'll update the image and give you credit for your picture.
Lots and lots of hugs and thank yous, friend!
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Aaw yee dark smut! Go ahead! You can link to enmiart.com
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blir helt tårödg av den här bilden. So much emotion.
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Your ability to convey emotion is incredible, and your black and white values are amazing. The decision to orient the picture in this way is really effective in furthering the chaotic sort of feeling the one person was going through.
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powerful...very emotive, and the hands are beautiful.
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Homygaw have a big file, lol. It's really beautiful, though. Very realistic and emotional. It looks like it was fun to do.
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Haha yeah I know but I really wanted people to be able to see all the lines since this tecnique requires the viewer to see it close up to really see all the little details. :3
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Enmi du är en sån sjuk inspiration, finns mest en massa post it skisser på min blogg numer (försöker varje dag igen), snart börjar jag på nysta tre
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<3 Ingen stress med konst! Njut av den och go with the flow bby! ^__^
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Wow - beautiful! Bleak, yet hopeful - but if you can feel hope someplace like that, you can overcome anything!
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I do have a place like that! It's really a picture based on very recent events :3 So I do have lots of hope in me right now!
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This is so, so beautiful. And the lyrics, they feel like my thoughts - this is what I've been wondering for years.
I cannot tell you how much I love this, and how happy it makes me and how heavy my heart is. All this the same time. But it's beautiful. Complex, but absolutely beautiful. ♥
Sorry if I don't make any sense.
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strangely enough that makes perfect sense to me! :3 That's kind of exactly how I felt while painting it, or rather the feels I had the days before I made it.
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So pretty, and I love your technique.
I can feel the sads :<
But that means you did an awesome job :>
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