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Exploding-kitty — Inevitably, It Was Broken
Published: 2004-11-18 12:39:28 +0000 UTC; Views: 142; Favourites: 1; Downloads: 6
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Description the angry words
fly from his mouth
like sharp daggers in my chest
(as if I didn't know where my heart is)
there is no more love left in his voice
poison spews from his lips
i become soaked and spread it back

there was a boy born to be my addiction
he is rough with me and I am unable to steady myself
(my soul is so strong I lie)
choking hands and I know he will never be kind
i wish he would be kind
happiness is sucked from our heads
and his favorite color is black
(i guess that makes mine blue)

he runs away, heart racing
and I cannot speak
I only look away and pretend to be interested in
my hands
I stand alone, left without his force
and I knew I shouldn't have listened when
he promised to be kind
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Comments: 17

selladohr [2004-12-22 18:55:50 +0000 UTC]

and his favorite color is black
(i guess that makes mine blue)

That is my favourite part in this.
Great job.

I'm sorry you had to go through that.

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Exploding-kitty In reply to selladohr [2004-12-23 02:27:59 +0000 UTC]

thanks for commenting I really appreciate it! And I'm glad you liked it! Thanks for being supportive, it means a lot, truly.

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selladohr In reply to Exploding-kitty [2004-12-24 07:15:53 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome.

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ChildhoodTrauma [2004-11-24 11:19:29 +0000 UTC]

I absolutely love your poetry! have you published them anywhere else?

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Exploding-kitty In reply to ChildhoodTrauma [2004-11-25 21:34:00 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much!!!!! Besides school newspapers etc... I havent had my work published, I havent submitted it to anywhere else... I'm nervous of rejection. But thank you so much for your sweet words!

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ChildhoodTrauma In reply to Exploding-kitty [2004-11-25 22:09:53 +0000 UTC]

your words are so beautiful! Thank YOU for sharing them! you deserve so much more, "real" audience And I quess we're all scared of rejection ,but end of the day you need to conquest yourself, that's what gives the most satisfaction, to fight against your biggest fears and most powerful and nastiest critic- you!

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Exploding-kitty In reply to ChildhoodTrauma [2004-11-28 15:28:51 +0000 UTC]

you're so right, and I do hope to conquer myself soon.. thanks for the sweet wrods, ya sweet lady!

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ChildhoodTrauma In reply to Exploding-kitty [2004-11-28 19:35:28 +0000 UTC]

You're a special girl

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nickyflamingo [2004-11-20 19:21:00 +0000 UTC]

*sigh* I'm always interested to see how you bring things out in your poetry after so long. And sadly, this reminds so vividly of what was going on in the time. I love you hon.
the black and blue part was relly good, btw

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Exploding-kitty In reply to nickyflamingo [2004-11-20 20:23:45 +0000 UTC]

thank you angel pie. I love you sooooooooooo much, and even though I love and appreciate everyone's opinions (no matter what they are), yours always mean the most to me. I miss you soooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!! Oh yeah I have stuff to tell you... I'll call you!
ps. Rumor has it that the Half Blood Prince is coming out in June!!!! woohoo!!!

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le-kisse [2004-11-20 00:53:28 +0000 UTC]

Beautiful.

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Soldierofmisfortune [2004-11-18 21:07:28 +0000 UTC]

It's very good.
I really adore the way you use parenthesises in your poetry, it really gives an extra dimension. Keep doing that.
On the subject of loving someone abusive I'm pretty sure you can never understand what it's like without being in the situation yourself (which is one sort of understanding I guess). You hear about incidents where men (always men) has beaten their partner all the time nowdays. It's hard to imagine how they can choose to stay with people who treat them that way, it has to be extremely strong emotions involved.
I have no idea what can be done about it though. Sure you can change the attitude in society if you work hard enough but how can you change the dormant need for power and control in people or the amazingly hallucinogenic effects of love?
Ah well, hope my rambling didn't bore you to death completely. I'll shut up now.

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Exploding-kitty In reply to Soldierofmisfortune [2004-11-19 00:22:11 +0000 UTC]

Of course your rambling didn't bore me to death! It's true, it's so easy for people, to say "well stop complaining, and leave", but love is a hard thing to yank yourself out of.

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Soldierofmisfortune In reply to Exploding-kitty [2004-11-19 14:44:39 +0000 UTC]

Indeed it is.
The only advice I could think about to give anyone in this situation is to seek support from friends. One of the reaccuring things in such relationships is that the abusive partner seeks to isolate the other from her other social life.
Glad you managed to find something of substance in my ravings.

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giraffaz [2004-11-18 16:36:01 +0000 UTC]

yes, forgot to tell you, this pic of yours (or not ours, doesnt matter) is emazing, i mean it

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giraffaz [2004-11-18 16:34:57 +0000 UTC]

i felt your emations through, and i know..it is scary. i just know. if u want to share smth im here giraffaz@yahoo.com. anna

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Exploding-kitty In reply to giraffaz [2004-11-19 00:27:49 +0000 UTC]

Thank you very much for your support! (with my writing, and personally)

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