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Even I can't be "on" all the time.

"Dysphoria" is the word for it. The feeling that your body on the outside doesn't match the you on the inside. It's why I stay in my big, strong, busty form ninety percent of the time: that's the real me, and it gives me the raddest positive feedback loop to be seen that way. But sometimes the doubts creep back up on me, and I stop believing in myself, and all I want to do is shrink back to my puny little regular human form and slink away under a rock until I get myself sorted out again.

I used to have it a lot worse. Back before I got my powers, when I thought I was a guy, I would look in the mirror every day and not recognize the face I saw there. I already came out before I was empowered, renamed myself, started taking hormones, and my first transformation took care of the situation below the belt in both my forms, no surgery required. I really am the luckiest girl in the world. But the dysphoria never completely goes away, and there's still the nagging feeling at the back of my mind that I'm just a little girl playing at being an amazon, or worse, just a boy in a dress. I know it's not true, but I still have to deal with those emotions when they come over me. Depression is a bitch.

So... I deal with it. I revert back to "Little" Ginnie, take a few minutes or hours to let it pass, allow myself to wallow a bit, cuddle with Samantha if she's in the mood, then put my tits back on and go about my day. I've slain dragons, literal, multiple dragons, I can handle impostor syndrome.

But, man... it's not fun.

~~~

Companion piece to The Luckiest Girl in the World .

I was writing a story from Ginnie's perspective when I realized she was me. Not just my ideal woman, but my ideal self. This isn't the first time I've drawn Ginnie reverted back to her normal form, but it is the first after realizing I'm trans (or something like it) and that this is how I feel more or less all the time.

So, yeah, Ginnie is transgender. I didn't realize that at first, and I didn't have it in mind when I wrote her profile. In fact I just decided it today. But I realized that it's always been a fundamental part of her, even if I couldn't see it. For the sake of continuity with my older ideas, I've decided that the magic that empowers her changed her, um, equipment to female even when she's in her non-powered form, but it's still part of her history and her psyche.

Besides that, there's not a lot of reversion art on DA. Which makes sense, the appeal of TF is seeing plain, normal people transform into more desirable forms, not the other way around. But I think it's fertile ground for stories, and writing this helped exorcize some of my own negative feelings.

Sorry I haven't posted any sexy art in a while. It will return.

Description
Even I can't be "on" all the time.

"Dysphoria" is the word for it. The feeling that your body on the outside doesn't match the you on the inside. It's why I stay in my big, strong, busty form ninety percent of the time: that's the real me, and it gives me the raddest positive feedback loop to be seen that way. But sometimes the doubts creep back up on me, and I stop believing in myself, and all I want to do is shrink back to my puny little regular human form and slink away under a rock until I get myself sorted out again.

I used to have it a lot worse. Back before I got my powers, when I thought I was a guy, I would look in the mirror every day and not recognize the face I saw there. I already came out before I was empowered, renamed myself, started taking hormones, and my first transformation took care of the situation below the belt in both my forms, no surgery required. I really am the luckiest girl in the world. But the dysphoria never completely goes away, and there's still the nagging feeling at the back of my mind that I'm just a little girl playing at being an amazon, or worse, just a boy in a dress. I know it's not true, but I still have to deal with those emotions when they come over me. Depression is a bitch.

So... I deal with it. I revert back to "Little" Ginnie, take a few minutes or hours to let it pass, allow myself to wallow a bit, cuddle with Samantha if she's in the mood, then put my tits back on and go about my day. I've slain dragons, literal, multiple dragons, I can handle impostor syndrome.

But, man... it's not fun.

~~~

Companion piece to The Luckiest Girl in the World .

I was writing a story from Ginnie's perspective when I realized she was me. Not just my ideal woman, but my ideal self. This isn't the first time I've drawn Ginnie reverted back to her normal form, but it is the first after realizing I'm trans (or something like it) and that this is how I feel more or less all the time.

So, yeah, Ginnie is transgender. I didn't realize that at first, and I didn't have it in mind when I wrote her profile. In fact I just decided it today. But I realized that it's always been a fundamental part of her, even if I couldn't see it. For the sake of continuity with my older ideas, I've decided that the magic that empowers her changed her, um, equipment to female even when she's in her non-powered form, but it's still part of her history and her psyche.

Besides that, there's not a lot of reversion art on DA. Which makes sense, the appeal of TF is seeing plain, normal people transform into more desirable forms, not the other way around. But I think it's fertile ground for stories, and writing this helped exorcize some of my own negative feelings.

Sorry I haven't posted any sexy art in a while. It will return.