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Hey, I’m back with a summary of last years art.

Some credits first

Link to the template - www.deviantart.com/electricmor…

January – Elsa from „Frozen II“ belongs to Disney.

July – Dominick belongs to telekinesiskid. tkscribbles.tumblr.com

November, December – Quinn from „Potionomics“ belongs to Voracious Games. Check out this game! The characters, animation and soundtrack are so beautiful!

This year helped me to calm down a bit, although I wasn’t feeling very well, and slowly discover who I am as a person and what creating means to me. I think you can see that I felt (at least a little bit) more confident, less negative and more experimental about my drawings after March. In December I also discovered that drawing helps me to keep my mind busy, makes me feel like I’ve done something useful and fullfills me which silences my inner critic who usually keeps me from creating something „just for fun“. My style developed and I have more of a plan what I want to do with that.

My creative plans for next year:

1. Keep creating. Appreciate and critize what’s been created in a healthy, empowering way.
2. Create more finished pieces since that helped me a lot in my creative journey.
3. Study reality and anatomy where a lack of knowledge keeps me from creating.
4. Paint more (digital and traditional) and play around with portraits.

If you want to know more about the artwork and some personal stuff keep reading, I’ll walk you through the year and the pieces I chose

January – Elsa

This drawing of Elsa came to life during the manga group I visit every Friday. I wasn’t feeling so well in January and didn’t draw much (if I recall that correctly). By copying a reference I gave myself some help and this drawing turned out better than I expected considering I used my cheaper pencils. Elsa is an important character for me since I identify a lot with her. I guess the „when all is lost then all is found“ theme really stuck with me during this time since I lost my hope.

February – some random sketches of my apartement

My hope was found in Febuary when I got into a day-care hospital. This time was difficult for me but I met some very kind people and also got diagnosed with depression. There is some other stuff that still needs some more digging but knowing about the power of negative thinking changed the view on the last years and my current situation. It had quite an impact on my art since I discovered that I was talking my drawing abilities down so much. I felt inspired and started drawing some random stuff in my apartment.

March – Lille and Nema

Seeing my drawings differently I discovered that they are quite powerful when it comes to express what’s going on in my subconcious mind. Especially emotional closeness and vulnerability are topics that show in this drawing (both things I have a hard time experiencing in real life). Seeing this drawing isn’t as expressive as I saw it during that time but it was a huge change for me and opened my eyes.

April – Iris

Speaking of eyes, this character always has some shiny ones. I love this portrait (although there are some mistakes that could have been fixed with more time and effort). I changed an old character design since I learned more about shape language and colours. Also, this character is placed dead center staring directly at the viewer but to me it seems very natural and not staged at all because of the slight tilt of the body, the facial expression and the lighting. I was back at school again knowing that I was going to break up my apprenticeship as an educator (so I drew this in one of the lessons where our teacher was absent, oops).

May – Nema

I ended my apprenticeship and had a lot of time although I worried about my finances until the financial help for unemployed people arrived. This drawing is very tiny because it is a trading card for an event we had with the manga course in June. It took a few hours and there are some big mistakes (do you see that big black vertical line on the bottom? Lazy me cut out parts instead completely redoing the lineart) but I am happy with the result, it was quite fun trading these cards although I was very afraid of what people might think of my character and drawing abilities.

June – Nema again

This is a drawing of one of my redesigned characters in preparation for 2022‘s Art Fight. I tried changing some settings of my pen pressure, another lineart brush and genrally thicker lineart. I love the shading and the brush I used for that, it is one of the defaults in Clip Studio Paint. The lineart style stucked to me and the shading too although I prefer using it in a lineless style now.

July - Dominick

ART FIGHT! GO TEAM WITHER! It was the first time ever I managed to stick to a full month of creating a finished piece a day (or at least catching up if I skipped some days). I am so proud I pulled that off although my mental health wasn’t too happy about the immense pressure I put on myself. It left me exhausted at the end of the month. I choose this piece which reminds me of a magazin cover compositionwise. I worked in alcohol markers and csp, not blending my shading and leaving hard edges surprised me and lead to to the shading style of November.

August – Nema

I guess I enjoyed just sketching after creating a piece a day in July. I gifted myself some more expensive bushes on my birthday. I used a thin one to do the lineart in inks and it was way easier to get the line thickness I wanted than using a dip pen. I used the same brush in the two Inktober drawings I did. And also for the painting in December, it makes the process so much more joyful if the brush is doing what you want it to do!

September – Karel and Nema

I still loved sketching and didn’t finish a piece since I got in in a six week work rehabilitation program for people with psychological disorders to see their ability to take stress. The result was that I need to stabilize my (mental) health before getting into work again. I really love the sketch since it (again) features some emotional closeness I was craving (and the facial expressions turned out so well!). It’s interesting to see how I drasticly reduce my drawing time as soon as I get to some kind of work.

October – Catharsis

The work rehabilitation program ended and I was alone at home again which terrified me so much since I tend to isolate myself and still struggle a lot with my mental health. I wasn’t drawing much because I didn’t feel well. So I decided to paint a canvas solid black and see where it goes. It was an attempt at embracing and appreciating my emotional side instead of suppressing everything. Check out the description of the deviation if you want to know more about this piece. www.deviantart.com/flagofvenus…

November – Study of Quinn

Gosh, I saw Quinn the first time in a let’s play and fell in love! This character is my new obsession and inspiration, I couldn’t resist drawing them. Quinn challenges me so much when it comes to sketching them in my style, they drive me nuts and my perfectionism is killing me! That’s why I decided to do a digital study (I also needed an excuse to draw them since my inner critic didn’t accept me doing it just for fun). I copied a reference at the begin and painted it in a lineless style with the same brush I used for the shading in June. I felt a little experimental and decided to lay my lineart and a new shading style on top and I love it so much! Although it looks a bit strange to me since I copied the stylization of proportions of the 3D animated character (and also messed up the proportions but I already fixed it a bit in my first study, it was way worse before...).

December – Another Quinn

Here we go again, this time in acrylics using my new brushes and more of my style (I copied the pose of some of the dialogue scenes they have within the game). I wanted to paint a portrait of them in acrylics for a few weeks so I could hang it up in a frame but I was too intimidated to do so. I was afraid that it wouldn’t turn out the way I wanted since Quinn means so much to me (and the painting is going to be on display for people visiting me). Then we had an online meeting with our manga group and I felt the urge to paint this painting during chatting with my friends. I’m very proud that I did it and learned a lot. Everytime I see this painting it empowers me to overcome my insecurities. By the way, I bought a cheap frame and repainted it so it matches what I had in mind, tell me if you want to see that. Also, I committed an art crime by cutting the finished painting out of my sketchbook...

If you read until the end, thank you so much for being interested in what I’ve done this year! I hope last year was a joyful year of creating for you and if not, you don’t let that drag you down

I started my new year by going to psychatry to work on my problems, I hope you have a great start in 2023 and enjoy creating. I’d love to hear about your creative plans if you have some and feel comfortable sharing

Description

Hey, I’m back with a summary of last years art.

Some credits first

Link to the template - www.deviantart.com/electricmor…

January – Elsa from „Frozen II“ belongs to Disney.

July – Dominick belongs to telekinesiskid. tkscribbles.tumblr.com

November, December – Quinn from „Potionomics“ belongs to Voracious Games. Check out this game! The characters, animation and soundtrack are so beautiful!

This year helped me to calm down a bit, although I wasn’t feeling very well, and slowly discover who I am as a person and what creating means to me. I think you can see that I felt (at least a little bit) more confident, less negative and more experimental about my drawings after March. In December I also discovered that drawing helps me to keep my mind busy, makes me feel like I’ve done something useful and fullfills me which silences my inner critic who usually keeps me from creating something „just for fun“. My style developed and I have more of a plan what I want to do with that.

My creative plans for next year:

1. Keep creating. Appreciate and critize what’s been created in a healthy, empowering way.
2. Create more finished pieces since that helped me a lot in my creative journey.
3. Study reality and anatomy where a lack of knowledge keeps me from creating.
4. Paint more (digital and traditional) and play around with portraits.

If you want to know more about the artwork and some personal stuff keep reading, I’ll walk you through the year and the pieces I chose

January – Elsa

This drawing of Elsa came to life during the manga group I visit every Friday. I wasn’t feeling so well in January and didn’t draw much (if I recall that correctly). By copying a reference I gave myself some help and this drawing turned out better than I expected considering I used my cheaper pencils. Elsa is an important character for me since I identify a lot with her. I guess the „when all is lost then all is found“ theme really stuck with me during this time since I lost my hope.

February – some random sketches of my apartement

My hope was found in Febuary when I got into a day-care hospital. This time was difficult for me but I met some very kind people and also got diagnosed with depression. There is some other stuff that still needs some more digging but knowing about the power of negative thinking changed the view on the last years and my current situation. It had quite an impact on my art since I discovered that I was talking my drawing abilities down so much. I felt inspired and started drawing some random stuff in my apartment.

March – Lille and Nema

Seeing my drawings differently I discovered that they are quite powerful when it comes to express what’s going on in my subconcious mind. Especially emotional closeness and vulnerability are topics that show in this drawing (both things I have a hard time experiencing in real life). Seeing this drawing isn’t as expressive as I saw it during that time but it was a huge change for me and opened my eyes.

April – Iris

Speaking of eyes, this character always has some shiny ones. I love this portrait (although there are some mistakes that could have been fixed with more time and effort). I changed an old character design since I learned more about shape language and colours. Also, this character is placed dead center staring directly at the viewer but to me it seems very natural and not staged at all because of the slight tilt of the body, the facial expression and the lighting. I was back at school again knowing that I was going to break up my apprenticeship as an educator (so I drew this in one of the lessons where our teacher was absent, oops).

May – Nema

I ended my apprenticeship and had a lot of time although I worried about my finances until the financial help for unemployed people arrived. This drawing is very tiny because it is a trading card for an event we had with the manga course in June. It took a few hours and there are some big mistakes (do you see that big black vertical line on the bottom? Lazy me cut out parts instead completely redoing the lineart) but I am happy with the result, it was quite fun trading these cards although I was very afraid of what people might think of my character and drawing abilities.

June – Nema again

This is a drawing of one of my redesigned characters in preparation for 2022‘s Art Fight. I tried changing some settings of my pen pressure, another lineart brush and genrally thicker lineart. I love the shading and the brush I used for that, it is one of the defaults in Clip Studio Paint. The lineart style stucked to me and the shading too although I prefer using it in a lineless style now.

July - Dominick

ART FIGHT! GO TEAM WITHER! It was the first time ever I managed to stick to a full month of creating a finished piece a day (or at least catching up if I skipped some days). I am so proud I pulled that off although my mental health wasn’t too happy about the immense pressure I put on myself. It left me exhausted at the end of the month. I choose this piece which reminds me of a magazin cover compositionwise. I worked in alcohol markers and csp, not blending my shading and leaving hard edges surprised me and lead to to the shading style of November.

August – Nema

I guess I enjoyed just sketching after creating a piece a day in July. I gifted myself some more expensive bushes on my birthday. I used a thin one to do the lineart in inks and it was way easier to get the line thickness I wanted than using a dip pen. I used the same brush in the two Inktober drawings I did. And also for the painting in December, it makes the process so much more joyful if the brush is doing what you want it to do!

September – Karel and Nema

I still loved sketching and didn’t finish a piece since I got in in a six week work rehabilitation program for people with psychological disorders to see their ability to take stress. The result was that I need to stabilize my (mental) health before getting into work again. I really love the sketch since it (again) features some emotional closeness I was craving (and the facial expressions turned out so well!). It’s interesting to see how I drasticly reduce my drawing time as soon as I get to some kind of work.

October – Catharsis

The work rehabilitation program ended and I was alone at home again which terrified me so much since I tend to isolate myself and still struggle a lot with my mental health. I wasn’t drawing much because I didn’t feel well. So I decided to paint a canvas solid black and see where it goes. It was an attempt at embracing and appreciating my emotional side instead of suppressing everything. Check out the description of the deviation if you want to know more about this piece. www.deviantart.com/flagofvenus…

November – Study of Quinn

Gosh, I saw Quinn the first time in a let’s play and fell in love! This character is my new obsession and inspiration, I couldn’t resist drawing them. Quinn challenges me so much when it comes to sketching them in my style, they drive me nuts and my perfectionism is killing me! That’s why I decided to do a digital study (I also needed an excuse to draw them since my inner critic didn’t accept me doing it just for fun). I copied a reference at the begin and painted it in a lineless style with the same brush I used for the shading in June. I felt a little experimental and decided to lay my lineart and a new shading style on top and I love it so much! Although it looks a bit strange to me since I copied the stylization of proportions of the 3D animated character (and also messed up the proportions but I already fixed it a bit in my first study, it was way worse before...).

December – Another Quinn

Here we go again, this time in acrylics using my new brushes and more of my style (I copied the pose of some of the dialogue scenes they have within the game). I wanted to paint a portrait of them in acrylics for a few weeks so I could hang it up in a frame but I was too intimidated to do so. I was afraid that it wouldn’t turn out the way I wanted since Quinn means so much to me (and the painting is going to be on display for people visiting me). Then we had an online meeting with our manga group and I felt the urge to paint this painting during chatting with my friends. I’m very proud that I did it and learned a lot. Everytime I see this painting it empowers me to overcome my insecurities. By the way, I bought a cheap frame and repainted it so it matches what I had in mind, tell me if you want to see that. Also, I committed an art crime by cutting the finished painting out of my sketchbook...

If you read until the end, thank you so much for being interested in what I’ve done this year! I hope last year was a joyful year of creating for you and if not, you don’t let that drag you down

I started my new year by going to psychatry to work on my problems, I hope you have a great start in 2023 and enjoy creating. I’d love to hear about your creative plans if you have some and feel comfortable sharing