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Dear Father,
I want you to experience each heart breaking moment before I die,
And every single burning tear that I manage to cry,
It’s hard for me to say, but it’s got to be true,
Dad, I wouldn’t be lying here if I wasn’t hated by you,
I’d like to start off by telling you the therapy didn’t work,
‘Cause homosexuality isn’t a disease you can cure or revert,
It’s who I am, it’s what I feel inside,
And I wish you didn’t believe it was something to hide,
I had always thought that I was your little girl,
But suddenly I told you, and it was me against the world,
I wish you would look at me now, I’m so scared,
I’ve had the pains, the shakes, and Dad, I’m not prepared,
Remember the baby girl you held close to your heart,
And when mom died, the same little girl you’d promised never to be apart,
Do you know why I’m dying this way?
Do you want to know what happened when you sent me away?
There were some men who found out that I wasn’t straight,
And they jumped me walking home when I was out late,
They dragged me by the hair, pulled me into a car,
Thought to turn me back if I saw just how much better men are,
They raped me Dad, beat me bloody,
And I’m wondering, do you find this funny?
How does this make you feel,
When suddenly the unreal is now the real,
Oh, and sorry that my letters are messy and just don’t make sense,
It’s getting cold in here and I can hardly hold the pen,
In the end, the ones you wanted me to be with caused the pain,
With AIDS as my prize, life’s a game I’ll never play again,
I wish you could be here right now, to look me in the eye,
Answer me truthfully as I plead with you; Why?
And Dad, most of all, there’s something I need to say,
Something I wish I could tell you every day,
After all those things that you strived to do,
I’d just like to tell you: Goodbye, and that I love you.

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Dear Father,
I want you to experience each heart breaking moment before I die,
And every single burning tear that I manage to cry,
It’s hard for me to say, but it’s got to be true,
Dad, I wouldn’t be lying here if I wasn’t hated by you,
I’d like to start off by telling you the therapy didn’t work,
‘Cause homosexuality isn’t a disease you can cure or revert,
It’s who I am, it’s what I feel inside,
And I wish you didn’t believe it was something to hide,
I had always thought that I was your little girl,
But suddenly I told you, and it was me against the world,
I wish you would look at me now, I’m so scared,
I’ve had the pains, the shakes, and Dad, I’m not prepared,
Remember the baby girl you held close to your heart,
And when mom died, the same little girl you’d promised never to be apart,
Do you know why I’m dying this way?
Do you want to know what happened when you sent me away?
There were some men who found out that I wasn’t straight,
And they jumped me walking home when I was out late,
They dragged me by the hair, pulled me into a car,
Thought to turn me back if I saw just how much better men are,
They raped me Dad, beat me bloody,
And I’m wondering, do you find this funny?
How does this make you feel,
When suddenly the unreal is now the real,
Oh, and sorry that my letters are messy and just don’t make sense,
It’s getting cold in here and I can hardly hold the pen,
In the end, the ones you wanted me to be with caused the pain,
With AIDS as my prize, life’s a game I’ll never play again,
I wish you could be here right now, to look me in the eye,
Answer me truthfully as I plead with you; Why?
And Dad, most of all, there’s something I need to say,
Something I wish I could tell you every day,
After all those things that you strived to do,
I’d just like to tell you: Goodbye, and that I love you.