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Dear Father,I want you to experience each heart breaking moment before I die,
And every single burning tear that I manage to cry,
It’s hard for me to say, but it’s got to be true,
Dad, I wouldn’t be lying here if I wasn’t hated by you,
I’d like to start off by telling you the therapy didn’t work,
‘Cause homosexuality isn’t a disease you can cure or revert,
It’s who I am, it’s what I feel inside,
And I wish you didn’t believe it was something to hide,
I had always thought that I was your little girl,
But suddenly I told you, and it was me against the world,
I wish you would look at me now, I’m so scared,
I’ve had the pains, the shakes, and Dad, I’m not prepared,
Remember the baby girl you held close to your heart,
And when mom died, the same little girl you’d promised never to be apart,
Do you know why I’m dying this way?
Do you want to know what happened when you sent me away?
There were some men who found out that I wasn’t straight,
And they jumped me walking home when I was out late,
They dragged me by the hair, pulled me into a car,
Thought to turn me back if I saw just how much better men are,
They raped me Dad, beat me bloody,
And I’m wondering, do you find this funny?
How does this make you feel,
When suddenly the unreal is now the real,
Oh, and sorry that my letters are messy and just don’t make sense,
It’s getting cold in here and I can hardly hold the pen,
In the end, the ones you wanted me to be with caused the pain,
With AIDS as my prize, life’s a game I’ll never play again,
I wish you could be here right now, to look me in the eye,
Answer me truthfully as I plead with you; Why?
And Dad, most of all, there’s something I need to say,
Something I wish I could tell you every day,
After all those things that you strived to do,
I’d just like to tell you: Goodbye, and that I love you.
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Comments: 47
EpicPersonCool [2017-11-12 06:58:55 +0000 UTC]
I know this is old, but you did a good job writing this!
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Glittergaaaaasm [2014-10-18 07:50:32 +0000 UTC]
Hi, I'm Stephanie and I am 26 years old and when I was 6 my dad died of AIDS. and a little over four months ago my mother died of AIDS. and when I was conceived both of my parents were already sick, I have no idea how it happened and miracle I guess... but I was born completely healthy. the subject matter it's very very close to my heart, and you have touched my heart. and from the bottom of my heart I thank you for this wonderful piece of art.
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NaomiGut In reply to Glittergaaaaasm [2016-05-14 01:55:53 +0000 UTC]
Thank you for sharing something so personal.
You are lucky
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FlatlineOnSteroids In reply to Glittergaaaaasm [2014-10-21 13:14:12 +0000 UTC]
Stephanie,Thank you for sharing your story.. I am very sorry to hear of your losses but in the light that you ave been untouched yourself with this disease means you will have a lot to live for and continue on your parents memory. You must ve a vey strong person. <3
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Glittergaaaaasm In reply to FlatlineOnSteroids [2014-10-23 06:12:03 +0000 UTC]
Thank you very much my mother taught me that strength.
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LostKudzu [2013-04-01 02:35:02 +0000 UTC]
Straight artists against homophobia. My uncle died of AIDS.
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Sldfpc2010 [2011-11-16 02:39:46 +0000 UTC]
aww i cried when i read this that person needs alot of T.L.C
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FlatlineOnSteroids In reply to Sldfpc2010 [2012-06-05 22:48:21 +0000 UTC]
Well I am glad to have touched you, thank-you <3
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hermaphroditos [2009-12-03 10:05:17 +0000 UTC]
I have seen my life upon your words !!!!
I cannot say words, it is too triggering to me!!!
I am overwhelmed by your poetry!!
Genie.
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FlatlineOnSteroids In reply to hermaphroditos [2010-03-09 15:01:47 +0000 UTC]
Wow, I am glad to have touched you
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teazer22123 [2008-12-18 03:28:56 +0000 UTC]
i love it so much! every time i read it i have to think about it more and more. it makes me sad to read it but none the less i love it beyond anything!
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FlatlineOnSteroids In reply to teazer22123 [2008-12-18 13:36:39 +0000 UTC]
I'm glad it has touched you.. Thank you for those kind words
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teazer22123 In reply to FlatlineOnSteroids [2008-12-19 02:00:03 +0000 UTC]
you're welcome. stories like this are rare and when i get to read them i love them more and more.
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FlatlineOnSteroids In reply to YourInnerDemons [2008-04-26 21:19:30 +0000 UTC]
Many thanks =]
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Riverstar33 [2008-01-22 04:39:34 +0000 UTC]
Powerful! Its sad that this sort of thing does happen to people
I'm sorry for your friend.
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FlatlineOnSteroids In reply to Riverstar33 [2008-01-22 21:12:10 +0000 UTC]
Thank you, I'm glad you enjoyed it. & Yes, it's certainly tragic =[
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FlatlineOnSteroids In reply to Dreamscape-13 [2008-01-20 01:35:55 +0000 UTC]
^.^
'Whoa' is right xD
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Amyxdaughter [2007-12-30 23:50:43 +0000 UTC]
sorry if this kindof gets you mad or something, but.............. YOU HAVE AIDS?
me never knew someone with aIDs before.... sawy bout the "ohmygosh"ness.
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Glittergaaaaasm In reply to Amyxdaughter [2014-10-18 07:53:59 +0000 UTC]
I only think it's offensive if you are unwilling to learn the truth behind AIDS and how it really works. everyday I am amazed at the lack of knowledge that people have regarding AIDS.if you ever have any questions feel free to ask me, both of my parents died of AIDS
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FlatlineOnSteroids In reply to Amyxdaughter [2007-12-31 00:00:24 +0000 UTC]
No, I do not have AIDs lol, & if I did, I would not take offence from it.
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Amyxdaughter In reply to FlatlineOnSteroids [2007-12-31 00:01:33 +0000 UTC]
okay. it's good. Sorry. My bad.
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rawien [2007-11-25 04:49:35 +0000 UTC]
I really like this. And yes, you say it isn't real, though if you had written more I almost would have been in tears. Yeah, I know, I'm probably a loser for feeling this way... But I find this very well written and it's definitely a
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FlatlineOnSteroids In reply to rawien [2007-11-25 04:56:41 +0000 UTC]
Thank you.. I tried to make it seem as real as I could, I really appreciate that.
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naragov [2007-11-18 15:31:08 +0000 UTC]
Get's the idea across quite well, actually. I liked it. Power to speaking how you feel.
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FlatlineOnSteroids In reply to XxXprincessadairXxX [2007-11-18 04:32:14 +0000 UTC]
Glad you like it.
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Chibi-d00d [2007-11-17 05:23:13 +0000 UTC]
...... woow. Are ALL your submissions like this??? I'm gettting depressed just reading about things that happened to people i don't KNOW!!!
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Chibi-d00d In reply to Chibi-d00d [2007-11-17 06:26:25 +0000 UTC]
.... r u freinds with drewzers??
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Chibi-d00d In reply to Chibi-d00d [2007-11-17 20:07:37 +0000 UTC]
nope, u just sound like one of her friends who writes a lot of stories like yours.
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FlatlineOnSteroids In reply to Chibi-d00d [2007-11-17 20:02:12 +0000 UTC]
No, should I be? Lol.
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FlatlineOnSteroids In reply to Chibi-d00d [2007-11-17 05:26:47 +0000 UTC]
Haha, pretty much, at least, when I write about the important stuff.
I hope that's a good thing though
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TiffanyBrookeBrunken [2007-11-16 04:59:22 +0000 UTC]
awww im so sorry
=[[[
i wish i could give you a hug.
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FlatlineOnSteroids In reply to TiffanyBrookeBrunken [2007-11-16 15:41:05 +0000 UTC]
I don't have AIDS =]
I'm ok, but to be honest, this is a true story. Happened to a friend of mine.
But hugs are nice anyway Thanks for the concern.
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