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Published: 2004-08-27 04:36:14 +0000 UTC; Views: 143; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 1
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In the act of hypocrisyLike I'm something that I'm not
Lost in my own emotions
Unable to express myself
Because of things even I don't understand
So much to comprehend
Stricken with so many thoughts
My mind is deprived of good
My soul is an endless void
Nearly impossible to stay sane
To stay alive
I don't feel like myself
Like something has taken over me
I have no control
How long will this last?
Will I be forever lost and dazed?
I'm surrounded
By my own misunderstanding
This isn't fair
I feel vulnerable
Helpless
Weak
The pain has engulfed me
Into and endless pit of darkness
I cannot stop myself
Or help myself
I'm worthless
I have no purpose
Let me hear the voice of reason
So maybe I can live on
Even though I detest every breath
Is this my destiny?
My fate?
All I ask
Is that someone please save me from myself
Before I do something regrettable
I whisper what I think are my final words
Holding back tears
"Once the decision is made,
There is no turning back."
But first I must make the decision
There is a fork in the road
Which path do I take?
The road towards life
Or the one to death?
The decision is tough
Please give me the strength
To make the right choice
My life is on the line
Yet, I still have an opportunity
Do I take it?
I have the desire to enter into the realm of death
But, I still live on
I must live on
But why?
Just give me a simple reason
I need to know why I am trapped here
To better understand life?
I think I have discovered my purpose
Yet, how will I ever know if I chose the right path?
Will there be a sign?
Maybe even a warning
Flashing before my eyes
I was wrong
The chosen path led me astray
I don't belong here
I've lost control
My mind is racing
Spinning
How could I have been so blind?
I should've known
I should've listened
Should've been wiser
But no
I neglected what was right
And now all is lost
Lost
And this is the end
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Comments: 3
hmm Good emotion. The thing is.. there is a choice to die or live, but living and wishing you were dead is to me the worst desision. And you, missy, are going to be alive, because I love you and I said so and you and Kelsey are my friends. Kara is my friend, but it's so AWESOME to be like yeah I have and made my own friends with no one's help.. they are mine and mine alone lol. I would love for you to be alive. ( : I know you're always just like "I'm not serious" and I so know that there's a slim chance you would ever.. but I hate the thought that you sometimes just want to be gone. It's a bitch giving words to people who are all suicideyeyeyye becuase I know what it's like to be in that state of mind and no one gets to me when I feel like shit.. so .. my stupid non working Advice.. stop worrying about it. from contemplating religion and exsistance that's what i got. I can't figure it out so I'm just going to breath and love the people that love me and exsist.
woot.
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lol, I lof you Danyell. I wrote this like a million bajillion years ago, so, no worries
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Scratch the two different endings thing. I must've deleted the happier one.
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