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I told you I would see you soon,
But just as I opened the door,
I never wanted to see you again.
Why did it not matter before?

Why can’t I stop thinking about you?

Tortured with my eternal dwelling.
How the flame in his eyes turned so dim.
And they continue to scold my feelings.
A piece of me left beside him.

And I don’t know how to forget.

I know I have to lie.
I know I have to hide.
But pieces keep on crumbling.
I cannot stay inside.

Caress the wounds to numb the sting.

Never knew I could feel so alone,
Lost on such a crowded street.
No matter how I reached for him.
Our hands would never meet.

He was too busy running away.

Sometimes I swear I can see him in the clouds.
And I try to shake the sight.
I would shoot into the sky.
I would scream with all my might.

He continues to haunt my vision.

And we drowned in each others tears.
Each others promises and lies.
Don’t know why we lasted that long.
But I regret all of the goodbyes.

I would take each one back if I could.

I recall the times I felt it all.
And I recall being dead to all feeling.
Spun around so fast that I bled.
I kept on hitting. Kept on screaming.

I would spin forever just to get you back.

And I see you in the back of my eyes.
A paused reflection of what remains good in you.
I don’t understand why you have to pretend.
If you could only see you like I do.

If everyone could see you like I do.

But I am no longer a person.
I am something for you to possess.
I am something for you to thrust into.
I am something for you to caress.

I don’t exactly mind …

I told you I would see you soon,
And I released the pain from its core.
I left the broken pieces behind,
And quickly slammed back the door.

I don’t know how to stop loving you.

(c) Sylwia Wielgosz.