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The people try to solve them,
I guess I'm under the weather
because no one else here belongs with me.

/Rant. Will move to scraps later.
Do not read if you don't care.

Alright. This week I've been feeling like utter shit 24/7. The medication I have to take gives me headaches and I have no inspiration at all. Art blocks. Depressing feelings. Right now, I've convinced myself that I'm a terrible artist. See this? Right here? It took me an hour. It feels so pathetic It just goes to show how much my art really sucks when I don't spend time on it. I'm jealous of some of my friends on here who can make awesome stuff within that same hour without even trying. I've tried and tried to figure out all the f*cking tools like lasso and select, yet I still can't figure out how to color quicker. I feel like a loser. I don't even know. I wish someone could just come over and teach me but... That's not really possible. I have to figure out this stuff on my own. I hate it. Because I suck. My art is just utter shit and I can't express my feelings through it anymore. I keep having breakdowns instead.
This right here. I tried. And failed. I always seem to fail and I'm just annoyed with it. Why can't I do anything right? Just once?! ;;
Rl isn't too fun either. I'm in constant pain. Either that or I'm really dizzy and emotional like now. ;;
Along with that, my depression is creeping back, if it doesn't already count that it's here right now. I don't feel like eating and I feel hopeless. I can't sleep. I don't even know what to do anymore sometimes.
But whatever. I guess I'll try to get over it somehow.
A few people are responsible for this... >.> Hate for myself. But I'm not going to point fingers at anyone right now. I just want things to be normal again. I want to talk to my old friends. I want to have time to do stuff and it's just not happening right now. But some of my friends on here even stopped watching me. Right now, I feel I'm too unstable to even talk to people. This. Ugh. I want it to end.
God. I hope I can get out of this... ;;

/will delete this shit later

Description

The people try to solve them,
I guess I'm under the weather
because no one else here belongs with me.

/Rant. Will move to scraps later.
Do not read if you don't care.

Alright. This week I've been feeling like utter shit 24/7. The medication I have to take gives me headaches and I have no inspiration at all. Art blocks. Depressing feelings. Right now, I've convinced myself that I'm a terrible artist. See this? Right here? It took me an hour. It feels so pathetic It just goes to show how much my art really sucks when I don't spend time on it. I'm jealous of some of my friends on here who can make awesome stuff within that same hour without even trying. I've tried and tried to figure out all the f*cking tools like lasso and select, yet I still can't figure out how to color quicker. I feel like a loser. I don't even know. I wish someone could just come over and teach me but... That's not really possible. I have to figure out this stuff on my own. I hate it. Because I suck. My art is just utter shit and I can't express my feelings through it anymore. I keep having breakdowns instead.
This right here. I tried. And failed. I always seem to fail and I'm just annoyed with it. Why can't I do anything right? Just once?! ;;
Rl isn't too fun either. I'm in constant pain. Either that or I'm really dizzy and emotional like now. ;;
Along with that, my depression is creeping back, if it doesn't already count that it's here right now. I don't feel like eating and I feel hopeless. I can't sleep. I don't even know what to do anymore sometimes.
But whatever. I guess I'll try to get over it somehow.
A few people are responsible for this... >.> Hate for myself. But I'm not going to point fingers at anyone right now. I just want things to be normal again. I want to talk to my old friends. I want to have time to do stuff and it's just not happening right now. But some of my friends on here even stopped watching me. Right now, I feel I'm too unstable to even talk to people. This. Ugh. I want it to end.
God. I hope I can get out of this... ;;

/will delete this shit later