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Vent, will be scrapped soon.

Vent about what? Sometimes I get really upset..because I say (or do) things (or rather that I don't) that I regret saying and kill myself over them. It get's to the point where my mom asks me if something's wrong sometimes even, or I cry myself to sleep. I know it's pretty dumb in a sense, getting upset over those little things, but those little things add up in my mind, and I don't like the sum. I say a lot of things without thinking, and I tell myself not to do say or do it, but I do it anyways, and I hate myself over it..
My mom always told me your actions and what you say become you, who you are, and I don't want those words to become who I am..so idk, I just brush it off at the time, but later when I'm alone, I just facepalm and call myself stupid and wonder why I haven't learned my lesson yet. Or like how my friends say I don't show a lot of emotion, I want them to know I really do love them, I do have emotions, strong emotions, I just don't show them that much I guess..Sometimes I just feel I don't even deserve good friends..meh.
Just sort of like, me saying I wanna be a better person, but I kinda suck at becoming that better person, despite really wanting to be a better person. Better person.
Am I spelling person wrong?No..idk why I thought I was..
For my examples, I said bitch at Brittany's, I do feel guilty for saying that, or how I opened the lockers and slammed them shut after track the other day, I cried over that because I felt that was a stupid decision, or walking ahead of my friends, I feel I should've walked with them, or saying 'mean things', or how Brittany says she's worries over Fluff more then I do, I do worry, I just don't say it..
ffff
It's probably just cause I have a lack of self confidence and totally f myself over because of it or something like that..

Fudge Life. ;-;
Don't harass me at school D:<<

Description
Vent, will be scrapped soon.

Vent about what? Sometimes I get really upset..because I say (or do) things (or rather that I don't) that I regret saying and kill myself over them. It get's to the point where my mom asks me if something's wrong sometimes even, or I cry myself to sleep. I know it's pretty dumb in a sense, getting upset over those little things, but those little things add up in my mind, and I don't like the sum. I say a lot of things without thinking, and I tell myself not to do say or do it, but I do it anyways, and I hate myself over it..
My mom always told me your actions and what you say become you, who you are, and I don't want those words to become who I am..so idk, I just brush it off at the time, but later when I'm alone, I just facepalm and call myself stupid and wonder why I haven't learned my lesson yet. Or like how my friends say I don't show a lot of emotion, I want them to know I really do love them, I do have emotions, strong emotions, I just don't show them that much I guess..Sometimes I just feel I don't even deserve good friends..meh.
Just sort of like, me saying I wanna be a better person, but I kinda suck at becoming that better person, despite really wanting to be a better person. Better person.
Am I spelling person wrong?No..idk why I thought I was..
For my examples, I said bitch at Brittany's, I do feel guilty for saying that, or how I opened the lockers and slammed them shut after track the other day, I cried over that because I felt that was a stupid decision, or walking ahead of my friends, I feel I should've walked with them, or saying 'mean things', or how Brittany says she's worries over Fluff more then I do, I do worry, I just don't say it..
ffff
It's probably just cause I have a lack of self confidence and totally f myself over because of it or something like that..

Fudge Life. ;-;
Don't harass me at school D:<<