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No matter how long ago it might have been, I'd still remember it as it it were yesterday...

March 11th 2007, my whole life I had been awaiting this moment, expecting it, yet dreading it. It was the start of a new chapter in my life.
I had been told of this date nearly a month before, warned to prepare myself for what's coming. I did not heed these warnings, for I was too proud; too sure of myself. But I had never faced something of this magnitude and I knew it. Like countless times before I believed that when the time came I would be ready; all my businesses would have been taken care of, done all that I wanted to do, no regrets... How wrong I was.

Midnight; It is now March 11th, less than an hour since spending time with my closest friends. The good-byes were numbing; I had ceased to feel since the first of the long good-byes. Back at home I start sending farewell messages to friends and got to work. It was going to be a very long night, yet it wasn't enough to finish off everything.
5 a.m. I've had less than 5 hours of sleep in the last 2 days. I couldn't work anymore, I needed sleep badly. I went off to bed, fully clothed.
One hour later, I was awaken by the sound of my brother getting up. I got up too, I still had things to do. I knew I couldn't get everything done but I did as much as I could.
7:49 a.m. Less than an hour before having to leave. My mind was a brick wall, blocking out any emotions, no signs of any weakness, only strength. Numb was how I felt. Then I receive a text message. Unexpected, but hoped for.
It was a long text, which I read with care. Of all the things I have ever read in my life, the following three sentences within the message have had the strongest, deepest and most powerful immediate effect upon me: "You'll always have me. I'll miss you lots. You're a great friend." From these three short, simple sentences my defenses crumbles and all the suppressed emotions overwhelmed me. I started weeping on the spot, nobody was around to see my moment of weakness, the moment I broke down completely.
One minute was all the time that I allowed myself to be weak. After that, I wiped my tears away and prepared myself to leave.

Only one person in this world would have been able to affect me in such a way as to make me into an emotional wreck and this was the person who wrote me the above message. For the seven years that I have known her, she has caused me to feel hatred, anger, misery, sadness, embarrassment, shame, jealousy, depression, pain, loneliness, happiness, worried, a sense of fulfillment; in other words she made me feel almost and possibly every emotion a human being is capable of feeling. The most important thing she made me feel was love. She has given me inspiration, strength and meaning to my life.
It has been more than 5 months since March 11th; I phone her and write her, but nothing can match talking with her face to face, being near to her. I miss her terribly and my heart aches to see and talk to her again. Even though she doesn't return my feeling, I hope she knows that I love her most dearly.

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No matter how long ago it might have been, I'd still remember it as it it were yesterday...

March 11th 2007, my whole life I had been awaiting this moment, expecting it, yet dreading it. It was the start of a new chapter in my life.
I had been told of this date nearly a month before, warned to prepare myself for what's coming. I did not heed these warnings, for I was too proud; too sure of myself. But I had never faced something of this magnitude and I knew it. Like countless times before I believed that when the time came I would be ready; all my businesses would have been taken care of, done all that I wanted to do, no regrets... How wrong I was.

Midnight; It is now March 11th, less than an hour since spending time with my closest friends. The good-byes were numbing; I had ceased to feel since the first of the long good-byes. Back at home I start sending farewell messages to friends and got to work. It was going to be a very long night, yet it wasn't enough to finish off everything.
5 a.m. I've had less than 5 hours of sleep in the last 2 days. I couldn't work anymore, I needed sleep badly. I went off to bed, fully clothed.
One hour later, I was awaken by the sound of my brother getting up. I got up too, I still had things to do. I knew I couldn't get everything done but I did as much as I could.
7:49 a.m. Less than an hour before having to leave. My mind was a brick wall, blocking out any emotions, no signs of any weakness, only strength. Numb was how I felt. Then I receive a text message. Unexpected, but hoped for.
It was a long text, which I read with care. Of all the things I have ever read in my life, the following three sentences within the message have had the strongest, deepest and most powerful immediate effect upon me: "You'll always have me. I'll miss you lots. You're a great friend." From these three short, simple sentences my defenses crumbles and all the suppressed emotions overwhelmed me. I started weeping on the spot, nobody was around to see my moment of weakness, the moment I broke down completely.
One minute was all the time that I allowed myself to be weak. After that, I wiped my tears away and prepared myself to leave.

Only one person in this world would have been able to affect me in such a way as to make me into an emotional wreck and this was the person who wrote me the above message. For the seven years that I have known her, she has caused me to feel hatred, anger, misery, sadness, embarrassment, shame, jealousy, depression, pain, loneliness, happiness, worried, a sense of fulfillment; in other words she made me feel almost and possibly every emotion a human being is capable of feeling. The most important thing she made me feel was love. She has given me inspiration, strength and meaning to my life.
It has been more than 5 months since March 11th; I phone her and write her, but nothing can match talking with her face to face, being near to her. I miss her terribly and my heart aches to see and talk to her again. Even though she doesn't return my feeling, I hope she knows that I love her most dearly.