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i am not the girl who stars in the show and smiles at everyone in the audience. i am not the extra who only got in because her mother is the principal. i am not even the girl who does the lighting backstage. i am not even in the drama club. i am the girl who waits in the hallway with a book while you do your auditions and rubs your back when you don’t get in and shrieks and jumps and buys you ice cream when you finally do. i am the girl who worries about you too much and writes about it using insanely mixed-up metaphors. you're not in the drama club either.being left behind makes me want to laugh at that stupid L’Oréal slogan because if i was worth anything at all i wouldn’t be alone right now.
i tell myself that i’m glad for you(the truth) and that i'm not dying of jealousy of the effortless way you fit (a lie) and that i don’t want anything for myself, just for you to be happy (another lie) and i tell myself that i'm a good friend (probably also a lie).
i cry a lot more than i’ll ever admit.
but i’ll smile happily for you and clean up other people’s messes and deal with other people’s problems and keep other people’s secrets. and all the while i'll quietly wish i was worth enough to have messes and problems and secrets of my own.
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Yes, George. Loong story.
And no, it definitely wasn't in the Write Stuff, so I musta shown you it before. Praise? From you? This must be some kind of record... What have you done with Demon?
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Could've said the same thing about our little Facebook chat.
Ah, Demon is still there unfortunately, he's very hard to get rid off, but I'm getting closer every day.
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You could? Explain.
I hereby offer to kill him off permanantly for you. You know, just a helpful murder between friends. And I actually didn't know you were trying to get rid of him. Any particular reason?
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Well, you weren't giving me praise on Facebook (actually, I think you did once, saying I was finally becoming a normal human being 
Particular reason? Many particular reasons, and I don't know if the methods you use to kill Demons are sanitary or safe, so you'll have to give me an outline and sign a contract k? xDD
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Yeah, I remember that. Actually, life was much more entertaining when we were fighting. Being nice is boring. However, since you seem to appreciate the novelty, I'll continue for as long as my attention span permits.
Sanitary, yes. Safe ... wouldn't that kind of be beside the point of a murder? You make up the contract, and we can discuss options once I've looked it over. ^^
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Haha, and I was just about to say "Wait, I just realized that if you're being nice to me now, you weren't being nice to me before, and so the question then is: why weren't you being nice before? Is there any particular reason why you wanted to fight with me? xD"
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Well, like I said, it was entertaining. You are incredibly fun to piss off, actually. Also, in case you haven't noticed, being nice doesn't exactly come easily to me.
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"You are incredibly fun to piss off, actually" - did you ever think the same phrase could be applied from me to you? Why do you think I like to annoy people? For the same reasons you piss me off!
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Darn, that actually makes sense. OK, round one to you.
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Btw, I have no idea how to comment on your profile like you did on mine, but scratch the comment that I made about "What watch?". It' snot my fault the notification "~gimpbeginner has added you to her DEVwatch" showed up at the very end of the page! xDD
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This makes me so sad
and girly i love you soo much
you really are a good friend <3
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-laughs-
Don't feel too bad, this was written at a really emo stage in my life. Just... missing you guys, when you disappeared for awhile there, and wanting a 'buddy' (as me and Helena called it) too even though I knew it was bad for me.
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I'm burning up with jealousy. I wish I could write like you. You know, with the Talent Show coming up, this time you're going to be the one who stars in the show, except that you'll be scowling, not smiling, at everybody because that's the nature of the song...but still! <3
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Don't burn. You are more amazing every day and I wish I was like you.
Ohoh, if you want to be amazed visit 's gallery. Some swearing, but that's a part of everyone's life except yours and it emphasizes the situation and message.
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At least it reaches people. I've been getting cmments from people I don't even know lately... As Upthendown said, it's like a random stranger asking where you bought your shirt.
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awww. it's okay.
-hoogs-
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-pokes-
didja see it?
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Is this why you are always depressed?? YOU COULDN'T HAVE TOLD ME??? (this is meant as a joke to cheer you up so you'll stop looking depressed as you think)
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Oh. No. When I'm actually sad when I look depressed, it's 'cause of other, much more random, stuff.
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-hooglegloomps-
'Cause I find this depressing DDx
But it's also very amazingly written. Which isn't surprising because your talent is growing a million miles a day <33
WE NEED A MOVIE DAY.
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WE DO. And then after that we need a Disney movie day.
Thank joo for the hug and the undeserved praise.
-glows with happiness-
-stares at self-
-pokes arm-
I'm on FIAH.
-snickers-
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Fwaah, yes! A Disney day!
And nuu problem. You deserved every bit of it.
-nodnodnod-
-giggles-
YOU ARE. BURNIN' UP TEH HOUSE.
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OHNO.
-hoogs house-
I didn't mean itt!!!
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xDDDD
-hoogs Dr. House-
HAWT.
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-also hoogs Dr. House-
He's my hero.
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Fwaaah, same <33
HOMG. Did you see the episode last week?
He started makin' out with that boss lady.
o_o
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WHOO. I didn't, actually, I kept forgetting to watch them so my dad stopped taping them becuase they were taking away space from Dr. Phil.
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-HOOG-
Because you need it. x3
And omigawd I'm nearly crying. DDDx
You just write so well. And it's always so emotional. And I just adore the last line. Because. It. Is. Pwnsome. For lack of a gazillion-billion-times better word.
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I MADE ZIGGU CRY?!?
OHNO.
-runs over-
-hoogs-
And thank you! Have I told you guys yet I don't deserve your praise?
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Ah, what the hell, I'm a sponge xDD
-hoogs-
Yuss, BUT YOO DOES. 83 Because you're just too awesome.
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Like Spongebob! Whaddayaknow, Ziggeh, you have a famous relative!
And I refuse to listen to that kind of talk.
-plugs ears-
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OMNOMNOM 8DD
I live in a big flat over the sea
THIS IZ SPIDEH
An' other stuff :]
-pulls on arm-
NUUUUUU! Awesomeawesomeawesomeawesome equals JOO.
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-eats sponge-
OHMAIGAWSH I'm a cannibal.
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FWAAH. You must join my Cannibalists Anonymous group. It is for people who eat people.
Hello, my name is ... George? ... and I am a cannibal. I make up long, involved stories about Randy the Edible (he's the first one we'll eat on a desert island because Paul's too scrawny).
-points upward-
Actually true... something me and my friend came up with.
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Hah, yes. 8D
-proffers hand-
Hi George. And I'd like to read those. x]
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... I don't think we've ever written them down. I could try, though...
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Bah well xDD Don't worry about it. I'm just curious over everything.
Hmmm, George the cannibal... I bet they're horribly funny, though 83
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They're not. They're those things that sound really funny in person (usually because you're being told them by people with amazingly rubber faces or hysterical delivery) but flatten totally when they are retold.
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Ah, that happens often x33 But they're still funny at first, which is better than not at all, right? 8D My liddle bro's got hysterical delivery. Occasionally. Sometimes he goes too fast and trips on his words, though.
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Ohh, that's amazing. I know a couple people who have really good delivery, but sadly I don't. I can write (sometimes) and I can sing (sometimes) but I am frightenly lacking in oratorical fields.
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Hah, same here xP I suck at participating in group discussions or giving speeches. I think my highest grade ever was summat like fifteen out of twenty on that. Which, in my opinion, sucks. Because I'm only happy if I'm on a sixteen level. |:[
WUTEVAH, 'nough 'bout me because I'm hogging space here. At least you've got those singing and writing skills to make up for it <33 And 'occasionally'? Fah, as if. You're a god of writing if ever I saw one.
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Aaah, the dreaded Asian-fail phenomenon. That's what we call it here, anyways. Are Asian immigrants in France reputed to be very smart also? We say that getting below 80 is Asian-failing here because of their stereotypical high standards. I have Asian standards too, don't worry.
And you are a goddess of writing and drawing and also punctuality and ... you know what? I think you deserve a poem.
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