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Published: 2010-09-19 05:00:26 +0000 UTC; Views: 396; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 1
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i have a sharp tongue, nice legs and a gift for languages.it isn't enough.
i blend my edges to fit around everyone else, but you, you never compromised. you were brave and it made me ache for you, because pride always weighs more than you'd think.
(if i could ask you anything it all, it wouldn't be a question, it would be: tell me everything.)
hey. you have me hoarding words like flowers in october, like letters from home, like something that matters.
hey. you have everything anyone ever said i could be, and how the hell is that supposed to make me feel.
hey. i miss you. but that doesn't fall on your radar, does it?
(i don't mind being wrong because you're the only one who can ever prove it happened.)
what i want to know is where was my choice in all this. it was supposed to be gorgeous, purple and golden, but all i ever see is endless shades of gray. is this growing up, because if it is then fuck it, i'll take being seven and bullied.
(the word "if" does nothing but take things away.)
i write you too much poetry that i really should throw away.
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I don't think I can understand what you're feeling right now, but I'll say this - you're just as amazing and gut-gripping in your writing (and everything else) as ever, and I hope what's raw heals well, whatever the time it takes.
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...I think it just did. Thanks for the warm wishes. I think this was a kind of last gasp for me with this particular problem. I'd like to hope so, at least.
And once again, thanks for the compliment!
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I'm glad you're doing better then <333 And hey, I can't help myself, everytime you write something it makes me want to gush and wax poetic 80
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I love you <3 It hurts to see you this confused and conflicted... I wish I could help, but I know full well internal conflicts don't resolve quite as easily as one would wish. *hug*
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Thanks. That means a lot to me. And I think maybe I'm on the mend. Although that in itself is kind of a problem, in a lot of different ways...
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i. love. it.
as per usual of course I am insanely jealous and wish I could write like this.
I understand the feelings though. Although I have no idea how to deal with them.
Remember youre always whole with God, and me.
and if you ever throw away a poem like this I will fly across the land and water separating us and fetch it from the garbage and throw the banana peel that it was lying upon in your face.
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thank you!
haha... i think it was a goodbye poem. i think you know that.
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well, I am sorta proud of you really. Although it was amusing, it really shouldnt've and wouldnt've worked out.
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well of course not. it wasn't supposed to.
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oh great, i had a wonderful long reply and my browser deleted it.
i hate it when that happens
knowing nothing after that will be as witty nor intelligent i will just say this:
look for a relationship that will work out in the long run, something that is doomed to fail or just for fun isn't right.
i swear the first message was much better
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i don't want any, thanks. i'm pretty much blindingly happy on my own right now.
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i thought you were in a state of turmoil right now?
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i am. being happy the way i am is the reason why.
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it made me a little sad too. but i get the feeling that this was maybe a goodbye poem. because i don't feel sad anymore.
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thats good that you dont.
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WELL GUESS WHAT?
I like raw and unedited and harsh. so there.
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But there's one line that makes me want to shoot myself, and I can't figure out how to make it not suck.
But thanks!
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don't make promises if they hurt to keep. i've learned this the hard way;they're the ones you break first even if they're the ones you really want to keep
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this one hurts not to keep. but there's nothing i can do about it.
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