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Heavynova In reply to Cojjinsecrets [2016-03-29 03:15:04 +0000 UTC]

Haha its just the animals style that I drew in, in reference to the mouth/lips. Shading, I had no control over, the smudge killed me on this one. New pencils, crappy eraser quality.

What's funny, is I haven't been able to draw in SO fucking long, and I was randomly doodling a head/face, and decided to run with what came of it. But similarly, and funny enough, I WAS sleep deprived and blown outta my gourd when I drew this one. I lost my art mojo somewhere around the time I moved to Misery. When I came back home, the talent didn't come back with me.

I'll try harder next time lol, I've got the second/final round due by the 10th, so hopefully I can find my mojo again -___-

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Cojjinsecrets In reply to Heavynova [2016-04-02 19:44:34 +0000 UTC]

Art is about patience. The smudge did not kill you, you allowed it. Draft, crumple, draft, crumple, draft, crumple, draft, stencil, Line, Shade, Ink, Submit. You want your "Mojo" back, try turning the world off, channel all that's left into your fucking pencil, and put the effort in. you have NEVER been satisfied before dude. EVER. so why now? why is this good enough? Why is sub par something you would justify. I KNOW you can do better, I used to envy your talent and strive to compete. it's what made me into the artist I am. Wanna know a fact brother? The other day it was pouring out, I had barley made it under cover of the awning at the local gas station on my way to my tent. Because of the rain I missed all opportunity to work and make any money, I missed the feeding at the church because I was applying for a job so I could get the money I needed to come home with. It was already 11pm and I hadn't eaten, or smoked a fucking cig nearly all day. I was stressed out over life, Bitches, Letting a friend down, and this relentless urge to go get high which sprung up when this "Astute black gentleman" outside of the local hookers deluxe bar I have to walk past to get home offered me a dime rock to let him have my lighter so he could get high. I sat my ass down outside of the Wawa (Yes that's a thing here, no I don't know or care what it means, there is alot of back and forth banter over it, it got old a long time ago, It's essentially a Circle K) And gathered up all the snipes I could scoop before the rain ruined them. I sat there for nearly two hours and decided "fuck it" and made myself a pretty little sign on some cardboard that read "Hungry... Homeless... God Bless". Not five minutes later a lady walks up and beckons me inside, buys me food and drink, a lighter since I gave mine to the "Astute black gentleman" for free, And three Newport hundos, said God bless and left. I did not make a single dollar for six hours, but right after that my hand started to itch this familiar itch that often led me to Dennys. I began to draw. Six hours and 9 or ten sheets of crumpled up paper later, I had drawn a sick ass fucking design that began to draw folks in. I got compliments left and right, curious passerby(ers) who would look over my shoulder, and conversations with pretty girls and random folk that normally would have ignored or shunned my presence. I finished said piece and put it up in front  of my sign, covering the words. A guy came up to me and started talking with me, great conversation about life love bitches and riches, the lot. when he left, he said, "Id buy that drawing off of you, but It would get ruined in my truck or lost at my house, I think you will take better care of it, but here, take this for it anyway." He gave me 30 dollars, let me keep my drawing, and the rain stopped. 

Fuck your excuses, I have not drawn but three drawings since I started Heroin, nor since I quit. My "Mojo" is lack of creativity. You have a concept, an idea, now stop accepting it as is and paint that picture that's in your mother fucking head before I photoshop pictures of tegan into Nudes and spam you with them you fucking twatwaffle! You can do better, You WILL do better, SO FOR FUCKS SAKE, DO BETTER. 

-Your Fucking Cousin/little(Bigger) Brother/ Rival. Nik, the mother fucking Fox.

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Heavynova In reply to Cojjinsecrets [2016-04-02 21:57:26 +0000 UTC]

Ugh. Please, no Tegan ANYTHING... I'd like to sleep tonight.

Eh, I know man. Just haven't had the , er, confidence, I guess, to draw something worthwhile and not give up on it in the process. I think the problem is that I'm in an environment that's not conducive to artistry, or anything sane, for that matter.

The images are in my head; far beyond what I could have done before, the depictions are something to be seen. I'm just having trouble finding the right circumstances in which to create, elegantly and completely.

I've NEVER been able to draw anywhere else, other than Denny's, or my glass desk amidst the chaos that was my choked out, clam-baked dungeon. I miss that bedroom...

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Cojjinsecrets In reply to Heavynova [2016-04-07 15:49:23 +0000 UTC]

I have a solution for you AND me. 

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Heavynova In reply to Cojjinsecrets [2016-04-07 22:21:10 +0000 UTC]

Haha and what would that be?

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Cojjinsecrets In reply to Heavynova [2016-04-08 14:41:03 +0000 UTC]

If I have the bread, You'll come out to an environment of my choosing that's better than Dennys and help me with some Art I am working on? That will help you break this drought. By the way, I woke up covered in snow and all my shit is wet. Thanks for not walking next door with me, Dick. I'm here for a reason, trying hard, doing what I'm supposed to. I know dropping in on you wasn't fair, but don't be a lazy selfish dick again, I did not get along with that Rick. I liked the Rick who was trying to Adult, and held onto his artist's lust for freedom.

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Heavynova In reply to Cojjinsecrets [2016-04-08 20:41:50 +0000 UTC]

Sounds good to me. It's probably what I need, actually. No one answered when you went next door? Where'd you stay?

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Heavynova In reply to FrozenFeather [2016-03-26 03:58:15 +0000 UTC]

Thanks bud. And to think, it started out as something COMPLETELY different.

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FrozenFeather In reply to Heavynova [2016-03-26 06:13:19 +0000 UTC]

haha

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