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hellishfluff — In Loving Memory

Published: 2005-01-24 22:58:03 +0000 UTC; Views: 135; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 22
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Description Hi Josh.
I dreamed about you last night.... you held me as I cried and I was crying because I knew that what was happening was impossible. But then I started to believe in the moment until I convinced myself it was true. I was with you once more... I think it was so believable because you're that generous and loving that I dreamed you wuold give up Heaven, for now, for my sake. I knew all was fine now and I was safe again.... I don't want you to be so far away watching from an infinite distance.
I wish you weren't now owned; you should be free as you always were, only bound to this Earth. I am so completely changed.... even my reason for tasting and being consumed by the rain is different. Now I see the moments I spend in the rain as my time closest to you, like somehow you have touched the same moisture which falls onto me and a small part of your essence returns.

FOUR MONTHS WITHOUT YOU. WHY DOES IT SEEM LIKE FOREVER?
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Comments: 19

VML [2005-02-02 23:39:40 +0000 UTC]

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hellishfluff In reply to VML [2005-02-03 01:07:12 +0000 UTC]

Thank you.. I enjoy hugs.

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VML In reply to hellishfluff [2005-02-03 18:32:12 +0000 UTC]

hehe, I guess you can't get enough of them! GROUP HUG!!!!!! *VML and a bunch of people we don't know hugs Stefany*

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Sard2 [2005-01-25 08:04:23 +0000 UTC]

You are right, it feels like it was more than 4 months ago you told me about Josh...
Regardless... bearhug!

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hellishfluff In reply to Sard2 [2005-01-26 00:32:16 +0000 UTC]

Thank you Phillip! Heh.

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Dragontmr511 [2005-01-25 04:04:46 +0000 UTC]

ahh steff, *hug* miss ya, i feel bad, all this bad stuff is happening in our litttle group of freinds, i leave for one year and you guys all fall apart..jeez..hehe......well..*hug* say hi to everyone for me, and who is oyur new boy firend, i have seen his page, looks like a nice guy ^^ good for you!

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hellishfluff In reply to Dragontmr511 [2005-01-25 22:19:32 +0000 UTC]

Yeah... *hugs* Thanks.... I suppose..
And yes, my boyfriend is brilliant beyond all reason. For me, at least. Ah...yes.

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AuraSilverfox [2005-01-25 02:59:02 +0000 UTC]

Not sure what to say to this. I can't pretend to understand... but this is beautiful.

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hellishfluff In reply to AuraSilverfox [2005-01-25 22:17:36 +0000 UTC]

Wow.... thanks.

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earthape1987 [2005-01-25 00:58:13 +0000 UTC]

wow this hit me hard....... im crying right now. wow.... i give you big big hug

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hellishfluff In reply to earthape1987 [2005-01-25 01:01:14 +0000 UTC]

Aww Jason.... thank you.
Why are you never ever on AIM anymores? I misses you..

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earthape1987 In reply to hellishfluff [2005-01-25 01:11:58 +0000 UTC]

i dont know i dont like aim that much anymore, and i dont have much time either, phones are quicker and more efficient. and your very welcome. lol

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Supy [2005-01-24 23:35:46 +0000 UTC]

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hellishfluff In reply to Supy [2005-01-24 23:36:31 +0000 UTC]

Thank you, sweetie.

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Sirosis [2005-01-24 23:25:20 +0000 UTC]

awwww my sugarfairy....I promise I'll make your life happy again...I swear. You poor thing I LOVE you.....I'll do my damndest to make sure you have a happy life. God I love you dear.

As for you piccy....I like the dirt patches....and you really lookl ike your seeping right there hehe my cute baby. ...wow...i really wish I had my pens to finish your drawing now ... oh well you'll see it finished soon enuf honey.

I love you and I always did and i always will.

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hellishfluff In reply to Sirosis [2005-01-24 23:34:26 +0000 UTC]

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I love you too.... please stay alive..

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Sirosis In reply to hellishfluff [2005-01-24 23:37:01 +0000 UTC]

Awww I will honey...I'm not going anywhere

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TormentednLost [2005-01-24 23:24:01 +0000 UTC]

omg thats sad.. im sorry

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hellishfluff In reply to TormentednLost [2005-01-24 23:30:49 +0000 UTC]

Thanks... I'm really grateful to have support like I do.. you included.

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