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so semester 2 of my college is here and i'm in the worst of moods because of some friends from last friday. I wont go too much into details because the 2 involved are watching me here but theyre not even active?? so whatever lmao

aka u cant just spring plans on me without letting me know in advance?? Then immediatly spam me in like 2 differnt group chats about stupid shit i dont fucking care (that makes me really fucking uncomfortable anyway but usually id rather keep it secret and keep my discomfort levels up over being honest at the fear of making them feel bad) about to the point you fucking break messenger like that shit was suposed 2 be muted for 8 hours why am i getting more notifacations when it hasnt even been half an hour?? yall both fucking know im paranoid and will have a fucking breakdown if any public transport is more than 0.2 seconds late or early compared to the like... 3 differnt sites/apps/monitor at the train stations i have to check the timetable for every 30 seconds I NEED THINGS TO BE SCHEDULED HOLY FUCK YOU CANT JUST BE LIKE "HeY wErE aT tHiS pLaCe CoMe JoIn Us"
and like... yall know i exhausted any social interactions for that week to talk to a goddamn clerk about a dvd i ordered good god yall also fucking know how much that drains me?

plus one of them kinda refernced a thing that i like and told him in full belief that he wouldnt mention it or refernce it to anyone else?
like... dude i actually trusted you..? its SO hard for me to trust people these days? I dont know if im being overdramatic or because its that time of year where my mental and emotional state just drops signifigantly?
but g o s h... like, this friend is one of the main reasons i broke out of my shell at college and now i just wanna curl up and build my walls up again and just... erase whatever personality ive built for myself in the past year and a half here? Like... is it just that im not suposed to have friends? like, ive dealt with the suffocating lonliness and isolation before making friends here but can i go back to that? can I return to that status quo I had grown used to for most of my life prior to going to college?

anyways weird rant/vent over! one of the new classes i have is absolutley useless and worthless to me like, did i REALLY have to sacrifice my first session of music for this crap? i had to awnser a bunch of questions so this happened at the last one. Im still mad about the above paragraph but my shittily drawn sonic makes me feel a little better because for the time being its how im gonna spend my time outside of school unless things smooth over someway or somehow? being pessemistic here but i fucking doubt it at this point.
besidesmusicclassesbecauseatleastmyotherfriendsinmusicwontpullthiscraponme

Sonic the Hedgehog belongs to Sega, picture refernced from one of the Archie comics i belive?

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so semester 2 of my college is here and i'm in the worst of moods because of some friends from last friday. I wont go too much into details because the 2 involved are watching me here but theyre not even active?? so whatever lmao

aka u cant just spring plans on me without letting me know in advance?? Then immediatly spam me in like 2 differnt group chats about stupid shit i dont fucking care (that makes me really fucking uncomfortable anyway but usually id rather keep it secret and keep my discomfort levels up over being honest at the fear of making them feel bad) about to the point you fucking break messenger like that shit was suposed 2 be muted for 8 hours why am i getting more notifacations when it hasnt even been half an hour?? yall both fucking know im paranoid and will have a fucking breakdown if any public transport is more than 0.2 seconds late or early compared to the like... 3 differnt sites/apps/monitor at the train stations i have to check the timetable for every 30 seconds I NEED THINGS TO BE SCHEDULED HOLY FUCK YOU CANT JUST BE LIKE "HeY wErE aT tHiS pLaCe CoMe JoIn Us"
and like... yall know i exhausted any social interactions for that week to talk to a goddamn clerk about a dvd i ordered good god yall also fucking know how much that drains me?

plus one of them kinda refernced a thing that i like and told him in full belief that he wouldnt mention it or refernce it to anyone else?
like... dude i actually trusted you..? its SO hard for me to trust people these days? I dont know if im being overdramatic or because its that time of year where my mental and emotional state just drops signifigantly?
but g o s h... like, this friend is one of the main reasons i broke out of my shell at college and now i just wanna curl up and build my walls up again and just... erase whatever personality ive built for myself in the past year and a half here? Like... is it just that im not suposed to have friends? like, ive dealt with the suffocating lonliness and isolation before making friends here but can i go back to that? can I return to that status quo I had grown used to for most of my life prior to going to college?

anyways weird rant/vent over! one of the new classes i have is absolutley useless and worthless to me like, did i REALLY have to sacrifice my first session of music for this crap? i had to awnser a bunch of questions so this happened at the last one. Im still mad about the above paragraph but my shittily drawn sonic makes me feel a little better because for the time being its how im gonna spend my time outside of school unless things smooth over someway or somehow? being pessemistic here but i fucking doubt it at this point.
besidesmusicclassesbecauseatleastmyotherfriendsinmusicwontpullthiscraponme

Sonic the Hedgehog belongs to Sega, picture refernced from one of the Archie comics i belive?