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Published: 2015-09-10 00:00:51 +0000 UTC; Views: 1929; Favourites: 46; Downloads: 0
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I was bullied every school year since Head Start/preschool. I know the pain and hopelessness it can cause. I was called white cheeks by the native american kids I went to Head Start/preschool with. Later on my pale skin, dark eyes and hair led to me being called a vampire and people shoving crucifixes in my face. Before I cut my hair it was big and frizzy and I was called a witch once. And those where just stuff about my appearance and even the "nicer" stuff that was said. I was once accused of having rabies for five years. Someone kicked a soccer ball at my head. It was an accident and they did apologize but I still heard other people laughing while I cried.

But I also know there's often more to the story. In high school I saw someone who would bully me getting teased and tormented themselves. I didn't see what was happening as revenge in any way. I saw what was the beginning of a horrible cycle that had led to this person becoming a bully themselves. Realizing this and that I could sympathize with someone I once thought to be horrible my life changed. I stood up for my bully against theirs and supported them. I took the side of the person who tormented me. Fast forward two years later and that person who would be so cruel and mean to me because someone who would come to me for support. This person is no longer my bully but my friend.

Lots of people will forget that bullies can be and often are victims themselves. They'll often lash out because they feel horrible and they believe that the only way they can feel better and justified is the make other feel horrible, so that they are not alone in how they feel. And I know this might not always work for every situation but ... People should not only show support for victims but also the bullies because often times they are victims too. And if your someone who is bullied don't give up hope. I promise you it will get better.

I even laugh now at what was said about me. Yes I do look a little like a vampire and the whole crucifix thing now is kind of funny too 'cause I'm a Christian. And even I think my hair before was pretty crazy looking. I actually cut it for reason unrelated to bullying. I just think I look closer to my actual age with short hair. Speaking of crazy I am. I think differently, as do most people who are Apies. I am different from every one else. And guess what? I love it! Before I would have hated who I am but now I want to be me because there is no one else like me and never will be.

Madness is Amazingness!
I just felt compelled to tell you guys all this. If you got through this whole thing, thank you for your time love.   Now go make yourself something with chocolate!

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Comments: 38

ShiningLight50 [2016-06-05 02:47:44 +0000 UTC]

I was bullied since Grammer school too. They called me squeaky because of my voice, and peanut head. It just got worse the further I went. I had to repeat my high school Jr year because all I wanted to do was escape or cause the same pain to them they did to me. Vengeance and hatred clouded my mind and it still haunts me to this day. I feel you dude. Glad it worked out for you.

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Giugiubee03 [2016-04-23 13:01:22 +0000 UTC]

Sometimes I feel like Pacifica in her case....I have a strong, and Tomboy of a personality. People misunderstand my tone in voice, for rudness.

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HopeCvon In reply to Giugiubee03 [2016-04-23 15:33:19 +0000 UTC]

I have a sister who has to deal with the same thing with her voice.

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Aqua-Girl07 [2015-12-09 03:31:31 +0000 UTC]

Wow this really inspirational. While fighting back sometimes is good, it takes courage to stand up for those who wronged you when they are in trouble. After all, hate breeds hate.

Do you like Dipcifica? It's fine if you don't, I'm just curious.

As a side note, your amvs are cool.

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HopeCvon In reply to Aqua-Girl07 [2015-12-09 04:20:07 +0000 UTC]

Dipcifica and Mabill are my favorite ships.

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jamgorham In reply to HopeCvon [2016-06-11 14:40:41 +0000 UTC]

I love Dipcifica, but I do not care for Mabill. Why the heck does anyone ship them, anyway?

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HopeCvon In reply to jamgorham [2016-06-11 19:34:21 +0000 UTC]

I feel the same confusion with BillDip. I know a lot of fans ship them but I personally have a hard time seeing it. I can see Bill acting that way just to mess with Dipper and make him uncomfortable but it just seems really out of character for Dipper to develop feelings. I like them more as rivals. That's just my opinion of course. I'm not saying that your a BillDip shipper or not, I'm just saying for me MaBill just makes more sense as a ship. Their personalities work off each other and the fact that Bill can't always predict Mabel outside the Mindscape (examples: Sock Opera and Take Back The Falls). It's something I imagine he would find both frustrating and intriguing. As for Mabel well I guess that since I was reading up on the relation of Loki and his wife Sign around the same time I was introduced to this ship and I see a lot of Loki's character in Bill it kind of rubbed off on me. And than I read the fanfic  Catching a Shooting Star and now I can't stop shipping them.

I hope that help you see things from my perspective.

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Aqua-Girl07 In reply to HopeCvon [2015-12-09 04:32:06 +0000 UTC]

Cool; I love those, too.

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ShootingStar1925 [2015-12-09 01:07:07 +0000 UTC]

I read the description, and what you say is so true, and makes me really respect you.

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iPhlux [2015-10-01 17:00:35 +0000 UTC]

Beautiful!      

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HopeCvon In reply to iPhlux [2015-10-01 17:55:54 +0000 UTC]

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ArgenisRTN [2015-09-14 23:17:54 +0000 UTC]

Argenis: Almost the same story here bullied because of our appearance and my multi personality, but two of them became my friends, your description make me remind of how I met my 2 bests friends so I just call them and louged at all the stupid things we did to each of us
N: but theres always some assholes that wont let things out how I dealt with them the only way they seem to understand
T: we beat the shit out of them  

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deamazinone [2015-09-10 18:31:14 +0000 UTC]

Wow, you are an inspiration

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HopeCvon In reply to deamazinone [2015-09-10 22:17:15 +0000 UTC]

Thanks love

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UniversesCollideInc [2015-09-10 01:16:25 +0000 UTC]

I had 2 different experiences where being kind to a bully worked. The first was when I was in kindergarten; the main bully of the trio that picked on me moved away and her former cronies tried to befriend me; I felt sorry for them since they seemed lonely so I accepted the offer; we remained friends until I moved away. The second experience involved a boy at the new school who had picked on me practically since I had arrived; 5th grade year, my teacher had developed a soft spot for me and finally got fed up with his behavior; she pulled us aside and asked me what I wanted her to do; I told her (through tears) to give him one last chance to stop; he never picked on me again.

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HopeCvon In reply to UniversesCollideInc [2015-09-10 02:17:49 +0000 UTC]

See? It works. Actually a lot more than people think.

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UniversesCollideInc In reply to HopeCvon [2015-09-10 02:23:03 +0000 UTC]

And even if it doesn't work, you have the moral high ground by being the better person. That said, it grates on me to see bullies in fiction who are both blatant and unrepentant get away with their bullying and it's nice to see that kind of bully getting some kind of consequence for their actions.

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HopeCvon In reply to UniversesCollideInc [2015-09-10 02:45:25 +0000 UTC]

Just another reason to love Gravity Falls.

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UniversesCollideInc In reply to HopeCvon [2015-09-10 02:47:05 +0000 UTC]

Yeah. I've even done a bit of a roleplay with a certain user that involves this friendship evolving into something more as Pacifica comes out from under her parents' thumb in the aftermath of the events of the party. It's...kinda gotten out of hand but in a good way.

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HopeCvon In reply to UniversesCollideInc [2015-09-10 02:48:26 +0000 UTC]

Madness is amazingness!

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UniversesCollideInc In reply to HopeCvon [2015-09-10 03:23:18 +0000 UTC]

True enough.

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AskGuinGF [2015-09-10 00:06:34 +0000 UTC]

Aww

But yeah, I hate bullying as much as the next person

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HopeCvon In reply to AskGuinGF [2015-09-10 00:19:40 +0000 UTC]

Don't get me wrong I hate it too, but I also can't stand people just being cruel back to the bully.

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AskGuinGF In reply to HopeCvon [2015-09-10 00:54:24 +0000 UTC]

Yeah I know, but people gotta stand up for themselves once in a while

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HopeCvon In reply to AskGuinGF [2015-09-10 02:18:19 +0000 UTC]

When you feel alone in the world that can be hard to do.

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AskGuinGF In reply to HopeCvon [2015-09-10 22:50:52 +0000 UTC]

Yeah

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UniversesCollideInc In reply to AskGuinGF [2015-09-10 01:16:54 +0000 UTC]

There's a difference between standing up for yourself and being a bully back; it can be hard to find the line but it does exist.

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AskGuinGF In reply to UniversesCollideInc [2015-09-10 01:53:08 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, true

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UniversesCollideInc In reply to AskGuinGF [2015-09-10 02:00:50 +0000 UTC]

That's a line I have to tread carefully when I write characters who stand up to bullies; sometimes I end up tweaking the story so that they learn the lesson I mentioned above.
Of course that doesn't mean I don't have the occasional overreaction played as okay. Like in an AU where a counterpart to me sees a friend being made a mockery of by a performer and being obviously uncomfortable and hurt by this but the audience (made up of friends of them both) is laughing at this. So she super-charges a spell that makes the sound of a thunderclap so the resulting boom is literally bone-rattling. Then she gets up on stage, yells at everyone, drags her friend home and locks them both in there for days, ignoring everyone until someone who was out of town at the time of the mockery sorts it out.

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AskGuinGF In reply to UniversesCollideInc [2015-09-10 22:51:30 +0000 UTC]

Wowza!

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UniversesCollideInc In reply to AskGuinGF [2015-09-10 23:00:51 +0000 UTC]

I like AUs. I also have a tendency to be mean either directly or indirectly to characters I like or who are counterparts to me or people I know. This is especially true for sweet-natured characters because it's SO easy to be mean to sweeties.

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AskGuinGF In reply to UniversesCollideInc [2015-09-10 23:06:41 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, and yea I like AUs too

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UniversesCollideInc In reply to AskGuinGF [2015-09-10 23:11:20 +0000 UTC]

I like them too...I just don't always like having so many plotbunnies!

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AskGuinGF In reply to UniversesCollideInc [2015-09-10 23:22:03 +0000 UTC]

Gaahhhh

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UniversesCollideInc In reply to AskGuinGF [2015-09-11 11:11:35 +0000 UTC]

And plotferrets get so fat they can't do their jobs.

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AskGuinGF In reply to UniversesCollideInc [2015-09-12 00:38:09 +0000 UTC]

Wow

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UniversesCollideInc In reply to AskGuinGF [2015-09-12 00:54:04 +0000 UTC]

Yeah. I'm mainly doing NaNoWriMo this year to focus on one project; I'm starting to get antsy to start it though; November can't come swiftly enough.

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AskGuinGF In reply to UniversesCollideInc [2015-09-12 01:02:31 +0000 UTC]

Ahh okais

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