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WARNING! - This peice may be upsetting for some people, I advise to only read if you want to know more about anerexia and its effects. Don't read if you don't like things like this, it can make people upset or feel awkward etc. Please listen to my warning I havn't wrote it for the fun of it. I havn't done this to get hate or people saying 'oh why did you write this?' i've even had someone call me an attention seeker because of the song I wrote to raise awareness for things like this. I havn't done it for any of that, i've done it because I know some people don't actually understand. And I hope this explains.

Anerexia isn't just what people tend to think. It's not just starving yourself because you think you're fat, anerexia is actualy a mental condition where no matter how thin you actually are, when you see yourself either in the mirror or in pictures or just looking down at yourself, you see yourself to be overweight/obese and in turn ugly.
Scientists have proven that anerexia is caused by mental/phycological torment that changes a certain area of the brain to run on, well let's say run on certain tracks. This basically means that the image you see of yourself is contorted in ways to show you what you think you are, what you expect to see, almost like an unstopable plecibo effect.

As someone who had/has anerexia I can tell you that it is very hard to cope with, imagion looking into the mirror and seeing someone who isn't actually you, someone you can't change to make 'beautiful'. Imagion having to lie to your friends and family when they ask you if you've had anything to eat or why you havn't ate your dinner.
Callory counting can be one of the first and very early signs of anerexia, especiely in young people. I started callory counting at 6, which is very young to do such a thing. I didn't tell anybody, I still don't. Neither my friends or family know, bar a few friends who I actually trust. One of my mates looked at me one day (this was a few months ago) and asked me why I refused her offer of some digestive biscuits. I replied with 'how many calories are there per biscuit?'
Imediatly she knew something was wrong, she knew me too well to not notice really.
What she said was harsh, but justified, after all she was just looking out for me. 'if you start callory counting I will actually force feed you, I don't care how much you dont like to eat, i'm not having you going into hospital and probably dying just because of this problem you have.' to be honest i'm glad my friends are here for me. I don't think i'd be here today if they weren't.

Anerexia also effects your confidence, it is lead up by anxiety isssues, worries that people are looking, watching and judging you. It leads to body disphormatic, not wanting to leave the house because of being 'overweight' and pretty soon even your home begins to feel like that.
I don't eat infront of people, only a few of my friends and my family because I don't want them to know. I know that's probably bad of me, but I don't want them to worry, and knowing them they wouldn't believe me or wouldn't understand.
I had work experience for two weeks, at two differant places. The first was at a school where the staff all ate in this one room, I only had there to eat and didn't because I didn't want to look greedy infront of people, especiely people I didn't know. When I left they told me I needed to gain more confidence, to not be scared around people, to speak up more... I just nodded. They said 'I dont think i've seen you eat at all this week. Make sure you look after yourself.' I knew what they meant, I just can't change it.
The second week was at a frame makers, the man there asked me 'didn't you bring dinner with you?' I nodded and told him that I didn't like eating infront of people, he understood but I could feel him judging me for it. Or maybe I was just being paranoid.
This then lead to me calling my friend in my dinner break and leaving for the hour with her just so I could eat my dinner, and even then I gave most to her.

I didn't want this to turn into a thing about me, but they're most of the examples I have. Sorry.
Don't worry guys I am fine and eating... I wish I could say healthily, but i'm someone who eats fishfingers and custard so... Yeah.
This wasn't for you guys to take pity to me or anything, this is just to tell you what exactly anerexia is. If you have any questions don't be afraid to ask, I don't mind. If you want to know more just search for the things i've said, anerexia, anxiety, body disphormatic, etc on wikipedia, it will tell you all you need to know.
I had to have a warning at the start of this, I understand it can upset some people and I apologise for uploading the song I wrote before without putting a warning on it first. I get the feeling it made people uncomfortable or upset and i'm sorry.
Thanks for reading.

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WARNING! - This peice may be upsetting for some people, I advise to only read if you want to know more about anerexia and its effects. Don't read if you don't like things like this, it can make people upset or feel awkward etc. Please listen to my warning I havn't wrote it for the fun of it. I havn't done this to get hate or people saying 'oh why did you write this?' i've even had someone call me an attention seeker because of the song I wrote to raise awareness for things like this. I havn't done it for any of that, i've done it because I know some people don't actually understand. And I hope this explains.

Anerexia isn't just what people tend to think. It's not just starving yourself because you think you're fat, anerexia is actualy a mental condition where no matter how thin you actually are, when you see yourself either in the mirror or in pictures or just looking down at yourself, you see yourself to be overweight/obese and in turn ugly.
Scientists have proven that anerexia is caused by mental/phycological torment that changes a certain area of the brain to run on, well let's say run on certain tracks. This basically means that the image you see of yourself is contorted in ways to show you what you think you are, what you expect to see, almost like an unstopable plecibo effect.

As someone who had/has anerexia I can tell you that it is very hard to cope with, imagion looking into the mirror and seeing someone who isn't actually you, someone you can't change to make 'beautiful'. Imagion having to lie to your friends and family when they ask you if you've had anything to eat or why you havn't ate your dinner.
Callory counting can be one of the first and very early signs of anerexia, especiely in young people. I started callory counting at 6, which is very young to do such a thing. I didn't tell anybody, I still don't. Neither my friends or family know, bar a few friends who I actually trust. One of my mates looked at me one day (this was a few months ago) and asked me why I refused her offer of some digestive biscuits. I replied with 'how many calories are there per biscuit?'
Imediatly she knew something was wrong, she knew me too well to not notice really.
What she said was harsh, but justified, after all she was just looking out for me. 'if you start callory counting I will actually force feed you, I don't care how much you dont like to eat, i'm not having you going into hospital and probably dying just because of this problem you have.' to be honest i'm glad my friends are here for me. I don't think i'd be here today if they weren't.

Anerexia also effects your confidence, it is lead up by anxiety isssues, worries that people are looking, watching and judging you. It leads to body disphormatic, not wanting to leave the house because of being 'overweight' and pretty soon even your home begins to feel like that.
I don't eat infront of people, only a few of my friends and my family because I don't want them to know. I know that's probably bad of me, but I don't want them to worry, and knowing them they wouldn't believe me or wouldn't understand.
I had work experience for two weeks, at two differant places. The first was at a school where the staff all ate in this one room, I only had there to eat and didn't because I didn't want to look greedy infront of people, especiely people I didn't know. When I left they told me I needed to gain more confidence, to not be scared around people, to speak up more... I just nodded. They said 'I dont think i've seen you eat at all this week. Make sure you look after yourself.' I knew what they meant, I just can't change it.
The second week was at a frame makers, the man there asked me 'didn't you bring dinner with you?' I nodded and told him that I didn't like eating infront of people, he understood but I could feel him judging me for it. Or maybe I was just being paranoid.
This then lead to me calling my friend in my dinner break and leaving for the hour with her just so I could eat my dinner, and even then I gave most to her.

I didn't want this to turn into a thing about me, but they're most of the examples I have. Sorry.
Don't worry guys I am fine and eating... I wish I could say healthily, but i'm someone who eats fishfingers and custard so... Yeah.
This wasn't for you guys to take pity to me or anything, this is just to tell you what exactly anerexia is. If you have any questions don't be afraid to ask, I don't mind. If you want to know more just search for the things i've said, anerexia, anxiety, body disphormatic, etc on wikipedia, it will tell you all you need to know.
I had to have a warning at the start of this, I understand it can upset some people and I apologise for uploading the song I wrote before without putting a warning on it first. I get the feeling it made people uncomfortable or upset and i'm sorry.
Thanks for reading.