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InariFoxQB9 — Crucial update (slow posts) A bit sensitive

Published: 2017-07-31 04:56:59 +0000 UTC; Views: 391; Favourites: 11; Downloads: 4
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My posts have been less frequent. I haven't worked on an animation for months. Am i finally getting sick of Noctora? It has been seven years.


My enthusiasm for it has been on and off. Depression robs you from your passions. I won't go into full detail for my privacy. It's very sensitive and personal. A very sensitive topic.



Is it possible that I might abandon the Noctora project for good? It happened once for half a year. A whole month of none stop anxiety over life after death brought it back. I only lied to myself that I was getting back into it just to disperse it. And it worked.


I've been worried about Noctora for a while. This turn for Japanese mythology and the whole connection with yokai and humans just doesn't sit well for me. I've permanently set my mind on them being kitsune.


I don't know what to do with it. 


I have bigger concerns. But still... almost 8 years. I can't just throw that away.


I know I can do something very successful with it. I just know it. I love what I do with it. I don't make deals that won't work. I'm very funny about how my stuff is handled. 


It genuinely has charm because I choose for it to have charm. It's very genuine and carefully thought through. Made fresh from love and precision.


I want to make a series that stays fresh over time and ages well.


Easier said than done. I'm sure there will be a few slip and falls here and there. But less often than not. Because you got me on the job.


I treat myself like the consumer. Am I satisfied? And I take it much further. I ask for feedback and cater a bit. I worry about copyright issues that aren't even eligible. But my distance makes for a good product. Provides more original content.


And I know very well surprised do happen. I never let my guard down for a second. I'm not stupid! But like I said, I've been very keen on that for nearly 8 years. No worries.


Anyway, I'm worried about this for many reasons. How it'll effect me and if it will prevent Noctora from ever becoming a thing. 


The reason I haulted is good but it's just scary to think about my real situation becoming that drastic. I'm sorry for the drama and the depressing picture match up with this disturbingly personal update. I really do hope to get better and post more often if it feels right. It could be atleast half a year to a year. Or much longer. I need to do everything I can recover   



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Comments: 4

LacksAgency [2017-07-31 12:09:58 +0000 UTC]

Take the time you need to get yourself centered again. Don't worry. We understand that your health (mental and physical) matter more than a project. It matters more to us that you are in a good place too. We will be here awaiting your return.

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InariFoxQB9 In reply to LacksAgency [2017-08-03 15:32:21 +0000 UTC]

I will. There's a ton of stuff I want to do to prepare and post. But my mental and physical health is a much bigger concern. This whole turmoil has gone on since 2010. Almost as long as I was working on my project. I do better if I feel safe and secure. And I'm not going anywhere although there is just a slim chance I might leave and leave the project to somebody I trust whose interested. But odds of that outcome is very slim. The whole reason of this whole emotional crisis is both typical and has some sensitive topics tied into it. When you normally hear about it it doesn't sound too big of a deal. Just being a drama queen. But when I looked deeper into it and see how seriously it messed me up and it got to a very personal level. It all happened very slowly too. It got very serious. But thanks. I appreciate your concern.    Plus knowing what multiple emotions to am extent can be helpful for my project later on. Like if there is an important sad part to a plot

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bobbyv94 [2017-07-31 05:06:10 +0000 UTC]

We all have times when were down and feel like giving up on our art. If its something you like to do then keep at it

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InariFoxQB9 In reply to bobbyv94 [2017-08-03 15:16:21 +0000 UTC]

I've been down for 7 years almost. Which is as long as I've been working on this project. I love to do it but I just got a new job that is very time consuming and boring. I build ACM panels from 6 am to 3 pm. I'm not saying it's a bad job. It pays well. But if I'm honest, I'm not a big fan of it. I want to get an apartment. And I have this huge depression ordeal to top it off and a truck load of other stuff going on. By the end of the day I'm just too emotionally exhausted to do much. And all that other stuff is a bit sensitive to talk about.   But thanks for the support. I'll try to keep it up as best as I can get   

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