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PAIN

I don't know the answer to that question... everything happened...
Now I live with somethings constantly there... back of my mind... no place to hide... no place to go....
Got to wake up every morning with bad taste in my mouth, got to sit at night by myself... thinking... crying...
I just see what I see, and its not what I thought, now I share this wonder but not as my own... but as someone else...
The constant reflectment... shadowing its way through..., mustn't dream anymore... mustn't care...,
Overpowering gestures of what just happened, floating through my mind...,
Trying to convince myself everything will be ok... and turn out for the best..., thats not the way it is though...,
Asking yourself the million questions but not an answer to any, just more confusion and wonderness,
Emotions whistling into the wind..., no one will care..., just the sterotype that all will be fine and you will live another day,

Decision has been made... no more answers... just more questions...,
Why must that be the answer, I could've waited... I wasn't after anything but to be beside you... to hug you and have you in my arms,
I didn't care how long it would take, I didn't care about the challenges we may have faced...,
Even if some bad days came out of this... nothing could've been worse that yesterday..., knowing that this was just nothing...,
I may have feelings for you, but listening to you speak... its not totally the other way...,
Maybe it could all change, maybe it can't... I don't know how long I can take this pain... this suffering...,
Still seeing you 2 together is making me more angry..., you said you was scared of leaving him... yet your still there...,
Who cares if he would commit suicide... thats his path in life... that choice... that destiny you was talking about...,
He would be born again, to correct his ways... his uncontrolability... his emotional blackmainling ways...,

You have made your mind up and I must respect that, though heartbroken... ripped in two...,
Telling me one thing and then crushing my dreams... my hopes... my sanity...,
Now I'm left with nothing... but that bad taste... that thinking of what just happened...,
I wish you said something different... I wish there was another answer...,
Its to late now... no way in changing your mind... your decision..., you have told me what you think,
How hard and upsetting it feels it will never change what you will do...,
You said things may pick up in the future... but I don't think I can handle it... this was the one chance...,
I don't want to lose you another time... this was hard enough...,
I just wished it was something else... falling in love was way to much...,
Now I don't know what to do....

Description
PAIN

I don't know the answer to that question... everything happened...
Now I live with somethings constantly there... back of my mind... no place to hide... no place to go....
Got to wake up every morning with bad taste in my mouth, got to sit at night by myself... thinking... crying...
I just see what I see, and its not what I thought, now I share this wonder but not as my own... but as someone else...
The constant reflectment... shadowing its way through..., mustn't dream anymore... mustn't care...,
Overpowering gestures of what just happened, floating through my mind...,
Trying to convince myself everything will be ok... and turn out for the best..., thats not the way it is though...,
Asking yourself the million questions but not an answer to any, just more confusion and wonderness,
Emotions whistling into the wind..., no one will care..., just the sterotype that all will be fine and you will live another day,

Decision has been made... no more answers... just more questions...,
Why must that be the answer, I could've waited... I wasn't after anything but to be beside you... to hug you and have you in my arms,
I didn't care how long it would take, I didn't care about the challenges we may have faced...,
Even if some bad days came out of this... nothing could've been worse that yesterday..., knowing that this was just nothing...,
I may have feelings for you, but listening to you speak... its not totally the other way...,
Maybe it could all change, maybe it can't... I don't know how long I can take this pain... this suffering...,
Still seeing you 2 together is making me more angry..., you said you was scared of leaving him... yet your still there...,
Who cares if he would commit suicide... thats his path in life... that choice... that destiny you was talking about...,
He would be born again, to correct his ways... his uncontrolability... his emotional blackmainling ways...,

You have made your mind up and I must respect that, though heartbroken... ripped in two...,
Telling me one thing and then crushing my dreams... my hopes... my sanity...,
Now I'm left with nothing... but that bad taste... that thinking of what just happened...,
I wish you said something different... I wish there was another answer...,
Its to late now... no way in changing your mind... your decision..., you have told me what you think,
How hard and upsetting it feels it will never change what you will do...,
You said things may pick up in the future... but I don't think I can handle it... this was the one chance...,
I don't want to lose you another time... this was hard enough...,
I just wished it was something else... falling in love was way to much...,
Now I don't know what to do....