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IsabelleLala — I'm afraid of me.
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Published: 2017-12-05 11:05:20 +0000 UTC; Views: 697; Favourites: 11; Downloads: 4
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And I can feel it. I can feel it in my bones, I can feel it in my veins. I can feel it with every beat that my heart takes. I feel it all the time, I probably even feel it when I’m not feeling it if that’s not even possible. My point is, it’s there. It’s always there and it never leaves. It doesn’t go on vacation for a day or two, it just wanders about inside of me. It’s in me, it’s in my blood. I feel it with every touch and every breath. It’s made itself a home inside of my head and it’s made me into someone who I can’t even recognize. I just need it to stop. I need everything to stop. I need it to be quiet for a while, I need it to go somewhere else. When I look in the mirror every morning I see it and it’s looking right back at me waiting for me to do something that at times I’m not even sure I wanna do. It’s there when I wake up and when I fall asleep. It’s there when I laugh and it’s definitely there when I cry. It’s everywhere and nowhere at the same time and I am trying so damn hard to understand that. I am trying so damn hard but it hurts. It hurts all the time and I’m afraid it’s never going to stop hurting. I’m afraid that I am going to be like this for the rest of my life and what terrifies me even more is that I know I am going to be like this for the rest of me life. It’s me and I am so afraid of me.Related content
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nize picture, very nice words ... not often these days someone forces something in words that obviously can't be forced in words 
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Gosh you've so lovely! As for the fear, seems to me you're over thinking. Have you tried mediatation? Success with meditation requires you stop your mind, discard all thoughts, let you mind rest. Note me if you wish to disccuss. <3
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thanks.
the thing is. when you meditate, you shouldn't think.
the only thing I am thinking of while meditating is: don't think anything... 
I overthink, not to think.
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If a thought comes, just do not engage it. When I started, like you, my mind was overactive. what I did was picture a scene, like a sunset at a beach. I created that as an image and I focus on the sun lowering in the sky. If a thought came to interrupt, I'd pretend it was a piece of bread, throw it up and a bird would catch it them fly off. Watch that bird with all your thought.
Thus taught my mind to stop. Try it! . blessings to you and good luck. Thanks for asking and keep me posted on your progress
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