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This is crap. All my drawings are crap. It's just sitting in a white void. Even beginner digital artists can do backgrounds because it's so easy. For me, it's usually either too hard or just takes too long. My attention span sucks... and being stuck in one place drawing with all these distractions around me means that I can't just draw a "quickie". There are no quickies.

Everything takes forever, while the ideas and mood swings pile up daily. I can't keep up with myself. I can't afford to spend a month on one drawing just so it has a background. I can't do this, not here anyway. I can't just use mood swings as motivation. I have to ignore them, I have to just let them pass. I certainly can't start a huge drawing from a mood swing, a tiny one or an expression maybe. But obviously my attempts at planning and organization aren't good enough. Obviously I'm failing to motivate myself to do something for long enough to turn it into something people will want to see. It's like drawing with ADHD. Maybe literally.

It's the middle of winter here. But I assume wherever they are (a fictional country based on Scandinavian countries) it's the middle of summer instead. Dragons usually are reptiles so they love the heat. But a dragon that's a mammal would presumably hate it. Their internal body heat must be higher than average, even without all the fur. So if they're going to hibernate, it makes more sense to do it in summer.

I wish I could hibernate sometimes, especially in the last few months. Sometimes it feels like staying up all night, like I should be asleep for six months while the virus slowly goes away and things slowly open up again. Like we've been going through a long night, a dark age devoid of happiness or light. Or warmth. But to be honest, I don't really mind the cold or the dark that much anymore. In fact I kind of like it, like this is where I belong.

The dark never bothered me anyway.

I think I just said two completely different conflicting statements. Not that anyone is actually reading this. I could literally type anything and nobody will ever leave a comment unless they know me or comment on EVERYTHING. I don't get random comments very often.

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This is crap. All my drawings are crap. It's just sitting in a white void. Even beginner digital artists can do backgrounds because it's so easy. For me, it's usually either too hard or just takes too long. My attention span sucks... and being stuck in one place drawing with all these distractions around me means that I can't just draw a "quickie". There are no quickies.

Everything takes forever, while the ideas and mood swings pile up daily. I can't keep up with myself. I can't afford to spend a month on one drawing just so it has a background. I can't do this, not here anyway. I can't just use mood swings as motivation. I have to ignore them, I have to just let them pass. I certainly can't start a huge drawing from a mood swing, a tiny one or an expression maybe. But obviously my attempts at planning and organization aren't good enough. Obviously I'm failing to motivate myself to do something for long enough to turn it into something people will want to see. It's like drawing with ADHD. Maybe literally.

It's the middle of winter here. But I assume wherever they are (a fictional country based on Scandinavian countries) it's the middle of summer instead. Dragons usually are reptiles so they love the heat. But a dragon that's a mammal would presumably hate it. Their internal body heat must be higher than average, even without all the fur. So if they're going to hibernate, it makes more sense to do it in summer.

I wish I could hibernate sometimes, especially in the last few months. Sometimes it feels like staying up all night, like I should be asleep for six months while the virus slowly goes away and things slowly open up again. Like we've been going through a long night, a dark age devoid of happiness or light. Or warmth. But to be honest, I don't really mind the cold or the dark that much anymore. In fact I kind of like it, like this is where I belong.

The dark never bothered me anyway.

I think I just said two completely different conflicting statements. Not that anyone is actually reading this. I could literally type anything and nobody will ever leave a comment unless they know me or comment on EVERYTHING. I don't get random comments very often.