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To start, I'm just going to say that I'm actually going to go out of my way to not have too many two-pagers this chapter. There were so many in the last chapter, it was kinda killing me, so I'm keeping it as light as I can. This instance in particular is an exception because it was written as one page, but I don't know how I thought that was all going to fit on just one page. XD
Anyway, getting on-topic: I can't claim to speak for all trans women, but physicality in a relationship can be tricky when one party is repulsed by their own anatomy. Even in the case of Rain and Emily who aren't doing anything more than kissing. Rain's body will respond to certain stimuli whether she wants it to or not. And then there's "morning wood", which is just kinda what happens when she wakes up. Whatever the cause, it's hard to deal with when you don't want it. And as though it has a mind of it's own, it does not like to be ignored...
If I may be very honest, when my wife and I first started going out, I was afraid of her even looking at that part of me. But then she said stuff like, "So what? You're still a woman" without batting an eyelash. It doesn't erase the dysphoria, but it did (eventually) make me at least a little less self-conscious around her. And that's what I was going for with Emily here. She knew about Rain's body going into this, and she accepts that and tries to take as neutral a stance as she can. It doesn't solve the issue, but maybe in time it can help not freak out so much over genuinely accidental contact.
On a side note, as a disclaimer I should say that some trans folk have less/no qualms with the parts they were born with. I don't want to give off the idea that hating your body is a requirement for being transgender, because it really isn't. We all experience transness differently. It's just that in the case of Rain (and myself) she is exceedingly uncomfortable with her anatomy.
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Goodness I don't miss my penis... So awkward sometimes and then hating it so much knowing you have to keep in order to have SRS. Ugh. I don't miss mine at all.
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Woo 
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Can't blame Rain i mean Emily is pretty hot (and Rain too~) ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
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Uh... it happens in the morning because of the prostate squishing the bladder. It means rain has to pee. Not that you're wrong. But just wanted to point it out. Stupid biology
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Human physiology does such intriguing things when added to human sociology.
This is still just too damn cute. XD
~ Hi-chan <3
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Bahahahaha, oh that's funny, well done, well done
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Oh poor Rain, that's hard to be difficult on her. But I think that Emily understands what is happening. I mean Rain is still a women and I think Emily knows that. Also I think that Emily might help feel better about herself.
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Emily might also take it as a sign that yes, Rain is happy to be with her . . .
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Not the same as morning wood, but I (a predominantly transmasculine genderfluid person) sort of relate with hugging someone only to feel my chestparts against them, doubly worse if they also have chestparts. It's really hellish when you want to be cuddly with someone but it also reminds you of your body that you hate.
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I think I'm about the same with the gender part. I think I've binded to a point where I don't have chest dysphoria anymore and I'm quite small even without a binder. The only person I've had a real hug with is my transwoman friend who doesn't have the genetics for a chest even with HRT. I see more of a parental figure in her instead and I keep in mind she doesn't feel good about her lack of chest so I rest on her shoulder instead. My only body dysphoria now is what comes out the bottom of my body so I don't actually care that I have the actual thing itself.
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I can't help but pull a "holding in a sneeze" moment (referencing an old page of facial expressions) every time I look at these pages
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Seriously every time I look these pages over again, I go into complete fangirl mode. XD
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Love this scene. I know the feeling on both ends, honestly. Emily likes Rain just for who she is, but the question is whether she understands that the embarrassment Rain feels in this (totally normal!) situation is exacerbated by dysphoria...
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That is indeed quite awkward. I do believe Emily is handling it well, though. And just... gah, this is adorable, even with the awkward bit at the end. These two are just too cute omg
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We all experience transness differently. It's just that in the case of Rain (and myself) she is exceedingly uncomfortable with her anatomy.
That makes 3 of us. I'm the same, although my HRT has done a lot for me on that matter, I don't get betrayed by my anatomy anymore. I hope HRT does the same for both of you too
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I make 4 then I guess. I'll have to deal with it for two more years because one of my parents won't let me start even tblockers, and my parents have shared medical custody -_-
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AshleyRex I'm sorry to read that, but don't give up 
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Thank you, I definitely needed that
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Poor Rain, if I was in her position and that happened to me, I'd be annoyed and a bit embarrassed too. Then add in the hit of dysphoria and thankfully Emily is there to cancel that bad time out for Rain with the pure adorability she radiates whenever they're in the same room.
Anyway, awkward moment aside, Rain slept in her earrings. Bad habit, girl! You ain't supposed to do that!
(Also obligatory squealing because cute Rainily is cute)
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For the first six weeks after getting your ears pierced, you have to leave them in or the holes will close, actually. She got them pierced the day before this.
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Huh. I feel like I should have known that.
Then again, my ears aren't pierced, so I'm just going on what I've heard.
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OMG I laughed so hard at this because its so true .__.
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It sucks when you can't control your own actions. 😿
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Yet another interesting page to view side by side with the first time they met in the comic.
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Aww, I hate it when it does that. I feel so sorry for you Rain. *hug*
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I'm laughing so hard I'm crying. Rain is just so adorably awkward
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Hail to thee, ma'am Jocelyn.
Agreed with all points above. And might I say, INDEED, speaks well of Emily to have that kind of stance.
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Awkward.... very, very, awkward... so sorry Rain >/////<
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I just remembered my own waking up the first time in the same bed as my girlfriend. I enjoyed the memory of the day before with a lot of kissing for a few moments and then turned around to see her looking at me. I said good morning, which made her wake up, get scared and punch me. XD
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...what? Sorry, I hope things were alright with her and you after? Trigger of immediate defensive reaction, eh?
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We both laughed about it right after and for the following days. It didn't hurt much, either.
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Well, alrighty, glad fer y'all then. Sounds sweet.
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Tbh, in this situation, I would be much more worried about my morning breath than the erection. That one too, though.
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Good point, that.
Ah, but love conquers all, eh? Including these little bodily inconveniences.
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I dunno. 
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Oh? Well, at least, seems from your story that your love'd worked out well enough?
Ah, good, good.
UNFOWL?! Oh no! BIRDS are attracted to your mouth?
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I do my HRT without T-blockers and am keeping my libido and ... erectionability(?) even after almost 2 years. The reason is simply overall health-related: For once, every T-Blocker that I know has a lot more effects than just suppressing testosterone. Each of them comes at least with a risk of depression. Additionally, they have an unignorable likeliness of other problems, starting with a higher risk for different cancers in brain, breast or liver and ending at severe neurological side effects that are nowhere directly documented, yet.
And personally, I experienced such a strong kill of my own libido that I didn't masturbate for about a month or two. The result was a phimosis that made the most usual hygiene really difficult.
Just estradiol injections and progesterone capsules on the other side make me feel as healthy as I haven't felt ever before. ^^ And the 9-days-cycle of high E-levels and low E-levels make my breasts grow at least a little bit.
The erection prodding my partner, when I just want to cuddle is still annoying as f...hell. I will just bear it until I can get my SRS.
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time for Rain to start hrt, at her age that's going to work very well.
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I bet when Rain saw Emily her first thought was, "Oh, I'm having that dream again..."
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