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Published: 2015-06-22 02:18:54 +0000 UTC; Views: 358; Favourites: 19; Downloads: 0
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hahahaha Dovah is such a grump!!! <3 uuuugh i love him! hahahaso yeah, right now i feel as he depicts. today is the worst day.... the worst holiday.... fathers day... mostly because my father was not very present in my life.... and seeing all my friends post their happy fathers day photos on facebook really gets to me.... haha i even know some of the fathers very very well, so i end up feeling very envious bc i know how they grew up and how attentive and loving their fathers were to them!
there was a time when my father was in my life. he was there up until i was about 15/ 16. Then he cheated on my mother with one of her best friends. he was an alcoholic. not a dangerous or violent one. but bad enough for my mother to drive him away. she'ed asked him to make a choice. to go to AA or leave and in the end he decided to leave. (and in the worst way) i might add...
however i think the timing in which my parents split was the most detrimental. i didnt really know what was going on, i think my 15th birthday was the last birthday i spent with my parents together. i felt like i had to be the grown up. to stay strong for my parents and my younger brother who was ten at the time. meanwhile, in my own world, my body was changing, i was full of hormones, and i was just starting to explore my sexuality.... i was female and falling in love with my female best friend. i was all kinds of confused and i think that lead to a lot of the problems i fell into later in life... anyway... normally fathers day doesnt get to me like it has this year. but just a few days ago me and my father got into a stupid spat about a father post that offended him bc it said " a daughter needs a dad to be the standard in which she will judge all men" he said it was disrespectful to him. i simply posted it because i agreed with the quote... i suppose he still feels alot of guilt... idk... im pretty furious with him, most because of what he commented under it about my "fucking" mother, when she was there for me the most! my father disowned his own parents bc they wanted to help me and my mom when we lost the house bc HE left!
just ugh.... i guess this turned into a vent peace... hnnnm... well Happy Fathers day.
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waaa this is great! I love the expression >:0
I understand on the father situation though, considering the fact I never met my real dad. B')
Fun fun. Hope you feel better, friendo!
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Thank you!!! I haven't drawn for myself in a long while! I definitely wanna do this more often! I spend to much time trying to sell my art instead of just enjoying it XD it's become a bad habit of mine lately.
and yes... I know he tried in his own way... But that doesn't stop the ache I feel when I see him with his new children on Facebook... And he actually said to me if you don't like how my life has become unfriend me on Facebook. -__- it's like no... Just acknowledge me a little more than twice a year damn it!!!! I'm sure I'll feel better soon... Just now im going to visit family for a week starting the 24th and I've got myself wedged awkwardly between my anger and my love for him. I don't know if I want to see him this visit ;7;
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This turned out great. I'm sorry to read about your dad, I had to file a court order on mine today as well.
Fantastic father's day. But even though the dad's are rotten they had us 2 brilliant kids. Cheers!
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Hey thanks! I need to work on grem feet away more 
Haha cheers indeed!
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My dad didn't like the idea of me, my brother, his buddy and my GF getting our own apartment (he has a control problem even tho I haven't lived with him for years) and threatened to hurt me so yea. It was a mess today.
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