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KiraSaintclair β When you finally find out
Published: 2010-01-24 23:03:23 +0000 UTC; Views: 2029; Favourites: 60; Downloads: 35
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"When you finally found everything that you were searching for all these years... the truth will hit you like a thungerbolt. Your knees are getting soft, your eyes are shedding a lot of tears and your breath is getting irregular.I wonder how you would react if you were in my situation... when you finally remember who you are... when you remember your family and the fact that you only can return in shame to them. As a stupid child.
Or maybe they don't even remember me. I think... that's my greatest fear: to be forgotten... by the ones you loved in your past life."
This is exactly the way I feel now. Being forgotten would be aweful... but it is a fear that is inside of everybody.
Copic Markers / white gel pen
Β© Ada'Rhan by me
Β© Avatar & the Na'vi by James Cameron
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Could I use this pose? This is kind of how I am feeling right now.
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Sure. Just give proper credit
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Don't worry I will.
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Here it is [link]
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aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwww
this is very emotional! *gives him a hug*
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He crashed down Hallelujah Mountains when he tried to tame his Ikran (he was about 15). He wasn't able to make the bond and hit his head so hard that he couldn't remember anything. He only found out his name after a few weeks. Since then he couldn't remember a thing about his family, his friends anything.
And after 6 years when he made his first bond with his lover Nardaya all the memories which were lost for 6 years came back. All in a sudden. It crushed his mind so hard that he started crying.
I bet I would react the same way.
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this pic would be very good with the song Β΄love hurtsΒ΄ playing above it ^^
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Which version? The one from Incubus or the one from Nazareth? XD
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the one thatΒ΄s more rock like. I thought that was incubus, but IΒ΄m not sure ^^
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Incubus = [link]
Nazareth = [link]
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defintly nazareth ^^ That weas the one
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OK^^ Just wanted to be sure
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youΒ΄re welcome ^^
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I wont forgets chu!!! 
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Reminds me on a little winter-depression. Just a little question, are you having problems in drawing lately or in being satisfied with your work?
I don't want to say that this picture is bad or something. Totally not. It's really amazing especially cause of the details and the expression. I ask you something like that because this can be a major reason why you are feeling this way. If art is a big part in your life you might get into a situation like that if you're not satisfied with your work. A shitty situation to be honest....since..well..I guess it is worse than an artblock since it gives you a feeling of having no worth....
Well, long talk, no sense...I like the pic but I hate that it reflects the feeling you're having right now. It's great for a picture but not if you know the person behind is feeling shitty too...
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That's exactly the deal. I feel unworthy. Because I think nobody see the effort that is inside every single picture. I think nearly everybody only looks on the topic (which is mostly nearly nude girls -__-)... and if you don't go on the mainstream you're out.
But I'm glad that I do my way and my topics so it has to be special (so I think) but lately it's more like even my way doesn't have any meaning at all. But it all can be stupid imagination but it's like I feel.
But I feel a little better since I know why I am so unhappy with my works/me. And I'm glad to have friends like you and the guys of the pentagon of doom^^
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Ohhh damn....I guess I nailed the subject (not literally....).
That's the big problem with mainstream. At first, you draw a little fanart and you see "oh, people like my stuff". After some time, you try to get better and develop your own stories and characters and suddenly....you're falling back. People don't tend to look at your works anymore, no comments, no favourites...which, of course, results in missing inspiration from your viewers. In the end, we try to find out why. We see other artists that draw their own stuff and get comments. But why? Cause they have images pumped full with details and so on. Result of our little research, you have to draw mainstream (anime, fancharas, bla bla bla..tits bla bla..) or draw like you're one of Leonardo Da Vinci's closest servants, even feeling his freaking brush in your...ehm..-___-00
Of course, it's easier to say, it's our fault cause we are not good enough to do our own stuff but this sucks, to state the obvious.
Oh and it's not your stupid imagination. Your pictures do have a meaning but it gets harder and harder to see it yourself. You can draw a masterpiece and it wouldn't satisfy you. I guess artists can have something called an "artistic depression" which mostly comes with a major artist block.
Glad to hear you're feeling better. The only thing that misses now is to defeat that "depression" and go on, enjoying your work!
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True. Sure that the digital artists get more "Oohs" and "Aahs" because it's more realistic. But it's also art to blend copics so that you think it's a print or something like that. XP
Well but I'm glad that there are some guys that know what own style really means^^
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Oh yes it is...and hell, looking at your art always gives me the desire to buy my own marker-set....gotta...save...money....
True! Something many "artists" tend to forget far too easily.
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Awwww poor baby. I feel like that alot. sometimes i lie in bed and fear that everyone i know is going to be gone XD.
If there is anyway that i can help you ill try.
I hope you feel better soon ^^
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you're welcome
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I feel the same, That's why, when I died I want a head stone, even though I'm gonna be cremated. It's really beautful, but what brought this on? Can I help?
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It fits the story of Ada'Rhan. He fell down of the Hallelujah Mountains and hit his head pretty pretty hard. He forgot everything: his family, his friends, his past life. And he couldn't remember till he did his first bond with Nardaya([link] )
And this was the result of the total flashback: He broke down in tears.
I bet I would feel the same if I would forget who I am and would be forgotten by the people who means a lot to me.
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WeiΓ nicht was los ist, aber ich hoffe es geht dir bald wieder besser.
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Danke dir. Wird schon... denk ich... muss ja. Das leben geht weiter, oder?
Ich denke, mir fehlt nur mein altes Leben. Tag ein, Tag aus zeichnen... etwas schaffen, worauf ich stolz sein konnte. Das is jetzt durch den Job etwas mehr zur Nebensache geworden. Und ich glaub, dass das mir weh tut.
Oder ich krieg meine midlife crisis schon um einiges frΓΌher als andere XD
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Awww, kann ich gut verstehen. *huggles*
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Looks gorgeous, but why are you feeling this way?
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Maybe I'm having a midlife crisis (with 24 XD)
I don't know. I'm just feeling strange lately
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I know. Sometimes without no reason i feel depress. don't worry it will pass
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