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Published: 2011-06-17 22:05:33 +0000 UTC; Views: 1390; Favourites: 32; Downloads: 4
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#8 I was always the happy kid. I seem to have lost that and I can't remember how it was and what it was like. How can I be so sad?Related content
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when you are depresed It's hard to .
but I am sure you really do
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I have no memories of every being truly happy. If I ever get close to it or find something I enjoy doing and I am looking behind waiting for something to fuck it up.
Sure enough it comes - and even if it's not my fault I am either blamed or I blame myself.
It's like there's some rule of the universe that prohibits me from ever truly enjoying something.
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i do know for a fact i was much happier when i was little. since my parents got a divorce, ive been more negative. But im starting to get over it. Drawing and listening to music makes everything better for me
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I'm glad you found an outlet that helps
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It really does. I hope u find one that suits u as well :3
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I can't remember being a happy child myself.
I've been suicidal since I was 6. It felt more frequent after my parents divorced.
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hmmm what screwed you over i've moved seven times and my parents have labeled it off as completly forgotten did i metion i'm thirteen meaning i have moved every to years
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Its kinda funny how I'm going through this folder of yours and I'm thinking the same thing for each secret
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what's the thing you keep thinking?
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well for each secret of urs, its like the same thing i think
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Well then we have a lot in common and stay tuned for more soon i wrote down 100 but need to set time aside for pictures. Maybe there will be some you don't agree with
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yea 
i dont know if i would have the guts to put em all up
plus half of mine r os far the same as urs
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We must have a lot in common oh well. But yeah 100 I was surprised I could do that many. obviously some aren't as deep as others but they're are important to me so...yeah
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well, I'm not really sure a lot of things piled up and now depression is the result. I'm sure I'll be happy again but I lost it for the time being
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yeah it seems to happen alot that way dang things getting piled up.
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Yeah one bad thing on top of the other until even small things seem horrible
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I know how that feels... except everybody believes I am happy. I was sitting in the guidance counselor's office (she wasn't the counselor for my grade but she called me down anyway) I had been cutting for a couple months by then and wasn't ready to tell. She asked me if something was going on, I said no. She went on to say how she has seen me in the halls and how I always look happy. I felt the cuts on my arm and leg tingle a little. Part of me wanted to scream and cry and let everything out... But I couldn't. I hope you find happiness. Even if I can't.
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Almost everyone except the few I let in believe I'm happy too. It takes a lot to admit it and I actually didn't do it myself. My sister told the school psychologist
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ooo, that sucks. what happened?
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I confided in my boyfriend but he knew I needed help so he told my sister who was a former cutter and she confiscated my blade. Then she told the school psychologist because someone had done that for her and she got the help she needed. she wanted to protect me and not get as bad as her. I'm grateful.
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that's good then I guess. I let it get out by cutting a really deep cut on my arm, partially by accident, but the lack of pain and large amount of blood made me realize hat I needed help. So I went into my guidance counselor's office, and when she asked me what I wanted to talk about, I pulled up my sleeves. I spent two class periods pouring my heart out to her. She got me a therapist. I love her for it.
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Wow I applaud your strength I don't think I could have done it myself like you did. I'm glad your getting help
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