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Life…

LIFE OTHERS HAVE IT GOOD OTHERS HAVE IT BAD. FOR ME IT'S A MIX… I'm not a stupid person I know people who have it worse… I'm friends with someone… for people kill themselves from bullying I was bullied but I never killed myself…even though someone wrote I was going to die in the bathroom stall and I had to pay the price for it…no one ever believed me when I said I didn't do it … my parents made me take counseling because of it. I still don't know who wrote that… I've moved past that though I've grown stronger. I had friends but now it feels like I only have one… Kaylee I know I have a few online but I never get the chance to talk to you guys anymore… and to one best friend online I feel like I'm losing you most of all. I won't talk about school although I still wonder why I made this choice… I expected to make friends not to lose one close one… and kaylee you can hang out with mady I don't mind anymore I just wish I could be there with you… the work is hard… my dad something happened with him that is making him more and more sad and that is reflecting into me not giving me the strength that I need to give to him. I try hard I really do I try not to break down in front of the few of you I will always answer your hi with a smile even if you say hi… I always have to say it first (not you kaylee) but I'm the one who tells myself I have to be strong when you come out to me breaking down.hurting.crying.sad… the list goes on. I guess I've always felt that someone else always had it worse than me and I told myself not to make a big deal out of everything… I guess if I'm telling you guys about this stuff I should start from the beginning… I was born I northern Michigan I've lived there all my life with both my mom and dad but when I was around 6 they started fighting I don't really remember anything but eventually they divorced and I had to get used to the idea of going from mom's to dad's. it was hard I do remember. Then my dad got remarried and I have to say I hated her I really did. she hit my sister… then we figured out all she wanted my dad for was his money and she left us for a new job in California. Then he got married to someone else. I didn't know what to think… I was scared…I didn't want my dad to be hurt again… she lived in Cincinnati we lived in Michigan… he was gone all the time I hardly saw him… around that time I began to find myself escaping to my bedroom more and more often… finding food as a friend and comfort…I began to gain more and more weight I was sickened by myself… I always thought the word 'fat' when I saw myself never being able to be one of those girls who I thought I wanted to be back then. More and more years pass living my life this way then… I was giving the choice to move to Cincinnati…away from family. Friends. Everyone why I did it? I don't know how to answer… life is hard but we all have the strength to get past it sometimes more than others… I know there are probably a million people who stories make this one look like someone who is looking for attention… but all I have to say is I'm not… that story that is passing around just lit something inside of me… so I started writing
The world is a bad place but we can always try to make it a little better each day. Every day we live

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Life…

LIFE OTHERS HAVE IT GOOD OTHERS HAVE IT BAD. FOR ME IT'S A MIX… I'm not a stupid person I know people who have it worse… I'm friends with someone… for people kill themselves from bullying I was bullied but I never killed myself…even though someone wrote I was going to die in the bathroom stall and I had to pay the price for it…no one ever believed me when I said I didn't do it … my parents made me take counseling because of it. I still don't know who wrote that… I've moved past that though I've grown stronger. I had friends but now it feels like I only have one… Kaylee I know I have a few online but I never get the chance to talk to you guys anymore… and to one best friend online I feel like I'm losing you most of all. I won't talk about school although I still wonder why I made this choice… I expected to make friends not to lose one close one… and kaylee you can hang out with mady I don't mind anymore I just wish I could be there with you… the work is hard… my dad something happened with him that is making him more and more sad and that is reflecting into me not giving me the strength that I need to give to him. I try hard I really do I try not to break down in front of the few of you I will always answer your hi with a smile even if you say hi… I always have to say it first (not you kaylee) but I'm the one who tells myself I have to be strong when you come out to me breaking down.hurting.crying.sad… the list goes on. I guess I've always felt that someone else always had it worse than me and I told myself not to make a big deal out of everything… I guess if I'm telling you guys about this stuff I should start from the beginning… I was born I northern Michigan I've lived there all my life with both my mom and dad but when I was around 6 they started fighting I don't really remember anything but eventually they divorced and I had to get used to the idea of going from mom's to dad's. it was hard I do remember. Then my dad got remarried and I have to say I hated her I really did. she hit my sister… then we figured out all she wanted my dad for was his money and she left us for a new job in California. Then he got married to someone else. I didn't know what to think… I was scared…I didn't want my dad to be hurt again… she lived in Cincinnati we lived in Michigan… he was gone all the time I hardly saw him… around that time I began to find myself escaping to my bedroom more and more often… finding food as a friend and comfort…I began to gain more and more weight I was sickened by myself… I always thought the word 'fat' when I saw myself never being able to be one of those girls who I thought I wanted to be back then. More and more years pass living my life this way then… I was giving the choice to move to Cincinnati…away from family. Friends. Everyone why I did it? I don't know how to answer… life is hard but we all have the strength to get past it sometimes more than others… I know there are probably a million people who stories make this one look like someone who is looking for attention… but all I have to say is I'm not… that story that is passing around just lit something inside of me… so I started writing
The world is a bad place but we can always try to make it a little better each day. Every day we live