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Published: 2011-06-04 16:34:32 +0000 UTC; Views: 9331; Favourites: 406; Downloads: 82
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This is how I feel right now. Like I'm taking my own insides out of me. Like I'm worthless and stupid, and I do all wrong. And I keep on telling it to myself. Over and over, and "killing" myself as I do.Over all, it's not such a bad feeling. It feels... real. I wish I didn't feel anything at all right now, I wish I could fall into the void, how I usually do.
Though, I like how fear feels..... Yeah. I'd rather feel fear than worthlessness. But I don't fear failure anymore, I've experienced it so many times.
Oh, also, don't try to change my mind. It's not like I CHOSE to feel this. If I had a chance, I'd choose void.
I wonder why I feel this.... I just woke up this morning this way.
never mind me XD;
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If I give you credit, could I use this image in a game i'm making?
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:> Sure! Thank you so much for asking! I'd love to see the final product~
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Thanks so much! I'll be sure to let you know when I'm finished.
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8( i hope you feel better. i completely understand though.....
I never try to think to myself... because the moment i actually begin thinking of myself
the first things that i immediately think.... without failure is.... "I hate myself..." "I hate my life..."
i hope you feel better... really..
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Que podra ser Lo Que sientes depression despresio de los demas te pido porfavor Que no te hagas sentir menos Que los dense vivimos en mundo imperfecto y nada cambia la manera Que somos. Cree en ti y quierete mas porfavor.
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Thats pretty incredible.
And I've felt the same. I still do, but I suppose somehow I'll swallow it and continue.
But no one is worthless. Everyone has something.
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woah, creepy awesome!!!!! sorry D: I don't mean to be so happy about it especially if you seriuosly mean that ;o; I hope you're feeling better leaa... we all feel that way at some point because life is cruel to us and likes to put us through silly tests D: I'm not trying to change your mind (cuz honestly, when I'm depressed, I tend to come up with my best artwork and writing ideas XD) but that part where you said "killing myself as I do" kind of scares me. I loveeyouuu don't forget that! 8D
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Nah, you being happy about it makes me happy ;U;
And don't worry about me, I'm mental at times, but never depressive enough 8D;;;
Iloveyoutoo--- andyourlittlecutecommentsmakemesmile
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First off this is an awesome picture!
Second, I know how you feel, you're not a lone. Even when feelings like this try and take you over, you're never alone, and you're never worthless.
Hope things feel better soon!
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I rather you feel happy than any of those.
I hate the fact that i can't help
it makes ME feel worthless and useless and a failure! Like I can't even help my own friends. I don't want you to feel anything bad in this world. I want you to be happy and smiling all the time. I want to be the one who makes you smile and laugh again.
But I can't help.
i wish I could change your mind.
i love you
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<3
Art wise, this is a very nice piece. Dark, but nice all the same.
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dfgfshadgfjadgajs <3 DUN FEEL THAT WAY, I LOVE YOU
>v< there's no need to help, I'm okay ;U; and having you is enuf SO SHUT UP AND MARRY ME.
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I used to rather want to feel pain than nothingness. I was very foolish. Whenever one feels pain, one realizes that nothingness is more convenient than pain.
"Battle not with monsters, lest ye become a monster, and if you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you." -Friedrich Nietzsche
It really depends on how you truly want to perceive the world - eventually you will.
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Wow, I think I like Nietzsche more now *remembers school philosophy class*
Thanks Sushi :>
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Nietzsche is a good one.
You are welcome, Lea.
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it's great! the colours are so ominous and suits whatever this is you're feeling. hope it gets better.
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theres so much emotion put into this picture.. its beautiful.
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I really do hope you feel better.
That feeling of fear or feeling empty as you die inside is different for everyone, so I can never say "I know how you feel" because nobody knows how something feels when it's different for everyone and I fully respect that. I can only say "I think I know how you feel". I can also say I think I know how you feel when you would have people trying to change your mind when it's something you couldn't help feeling and them trying to change how you feel only hurts you more and puts you deeper into that emotion. This is why I won't change your mind, but I will say that I wish you the best of luck in overcoming this and I admire you for expressing your feelings.
Beautifully demented by the way and I love how it's still creepy and disturbing without much blood and guts. The cores remind me of Soul Eater.
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Thanks so much, you're too right :>
I doubt anyone feels the same way as another person...
And I think it's the same with the "don't feel that way!" comments. Some might like them. Personally, don't mind them when it's one or two, but when many people tell me the same I get kind of upset with myself for not being able to change the feeling and because nobody actually gets the feeling they want me to change XD;
Hohoho thanks, I'm glad you liked it >v<
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I've been feeling like this for 5 days now...
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Es muy interesante la forma en que plasmaste tus emociones y estado de animo en esta pieza. Sinceramente no todo es felicidad y de vez en cuando nos pica ese bicho de la depre/nostalgia. Eso nos hace humanos, eso cambios de animo y el aprender de ellos. Te lo dice alguien que sufre de cambios drasticos entre la mania y la depresion 
Para nosostros los artistas tenemos que aprender a lidiar con estos cambios y si te das cuenta, lo que produces en estos estados es totalmente diferente.
Creeme es normal, no te preocupes. De nuevo, me encanto esto
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Nah, serΓa abrumador si todo fuera felicidad XD
Esos cambios son buenos.... al menos te hacen sentir... vivo? XD
Sep, lo que llega a salir en un estado de estos (o en su defecto "despuΓ©s de uno", porque mientras estas en el estado te ataca un artblock) es diferente y genial 8D
Sep, es normal, lo sΓ©, eso es lo que me preocupa D8888 *normal people scare me*
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Olvidalo, no lo califiquemos como "normal"....porque "normal people scares me too" 
La gente normal no pasa por esto sino que vive en un estado de felicidad y de "todo esta bien", esa burbuja no acepta esos cambios tan bruscos
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si todo fuera "perfecto" no habria razon para vivir, es bueno cometer errores, es lo que nos da la dicha y la felicidad de entender.
me gusta, es creepy.
****! mada iruyo!! mainichi mitteimasu.
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You drew exactly how I feel most days. *hugs* I know exactly what you mean.
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abyss...abyss...abyss...abyss...abyss...abyss...abyss...abyss...
stare...stare...stare...stare...stare...stare...stare...stare...stare...
abyss...abyss...abyss...abyss...abyss...abyss...abyss...abyss...
stare...stare...stare...stare...stare...stare...stare...stare...stare...
back...back...back...back...back...back...back...back...back...back...
that's how i feel ;A;
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I love you ('re art work)
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just two days ago, i cried because someone called me useless, and i somehow cannot deny the fact that i can't do anything with the help of others. i feel so worthless and cried for an hour in the bathroom, silently screaming, biting my hand, scratching my head, locking myself in the dark. the next day i went to the youth group and we have that moment where a person testified.... i broke down. then i told a friend what's happened yesterday and she calmed me down. often i feel worthless and stupid, and everything i did ended up not so nicely. sometimes i would even wish to die, though i believe later on something good will came, so i kept on living.
everyone has their own trail of thoughts and logic, so i wouldn't understand what are you feeling. but one thing i have to say is that whatever that thing you are experiencing, bear with it and live on.
"Oh, also, don't try to change my mind. It's not like I CHOSE to feel this. If I had a chance, I'd choose void."
i somewhat felt that i would chose the same thing too.
long irrelevant comment is still useless. FFFUUU---
ps: in my opinion, you're awesome and never i think of you as worthless. ganbare.
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Not irrelevant!! ;m;
I'm sorry they made you feel that way, it certainly sucks. It's okay to speak (or cry) your mind, it helps, even if it's only a bit. I wish I could... take your hand and grab you out of that horrid black hole.
As for me, nothing ever turns like I planned (rl and art wise), and I cannot read into people's thoughts or expressions, so I end up being the fool, always. I don't think I should like, disappear or die or something. I just think I'm never doing enough, so I'm waisting my time in worthless things that make me worthless.... agh, nevermind, I can't explain myself. Anyway, it's not a bad feeling :> it's just different.
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well, if you say so... XD
yay~!! not irrelevant~!!
thanks. i can't say anything more, but thank you.
sometimes, we need to experience void to have feelings too. it's not a bad feeling, agreed. ^^
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This picture definitely has that "void-y" feeling O.o
The colors r real spooky, I like it!
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This seems very strange. But it is interesting.
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Known that feeling. Very good visual expression of it.
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Known that feeling. Very good visual expression of it.
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thats kinda like me I guess, I really wish I had an off switch, cause I"d totally switch off for a while if I could x)
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*hugs* i totally know how you feel, cause im feeling sort of like that as well, so worthless and every blame is put on my shoulders
but don't fall into despair because alot of people still care for you, even on DA we who don't know anything wish you well
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It's okay, I hope you feel better soon!!
I just find it all senseless, like "what the hell am I doing here if I'm going nowhere?" but yes, there's people that care about me... I guess I'll keepon going :>
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Thanks, i hope you feel better as well
yeh, sometimes i feel like im trying so hard but im getting nowhere, and not contributing to anything. but keep fighting ganbatte
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totally know what your feeling. you dont wanna end it, you just wanna take a break from everything for abit. Like stop existing for afew months.
But somehow after a while it doesnt feel bad, just different an alternate outlook. After a while you begin to get a kick out of the darker outlook, it feeds you emotion, lets you know your alive, not perfect, but human.
or i might be totally wrong here lol
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it's not a bad feeling, it's just, as you say, a different point of view.
But I don't really like very strong emotions, so I'll rather have it slowly disappear than feed it at all :>
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