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This is WHY I STRUGGLE.
You're basically seeing my mind as I struggle every day, cause I analyzed it and broke it down so you can see it.

In case you're struggling to understand any of it, it goes like this.

The thoughts in the middle from bottom to top are my past memories and present memory...
1; My dad burnt down my shed in 2021.
2; My dad committed sucide in 2022, (Sad I know...)
and 3; As of today, I am still low in spirit AND creativity because I lack a shed... MY PROPER WORKSPACE.

The thoughts to the left from bottom to top are my UNWANTED THOUGHTS I'D NEVER DO.
1; To go after my dad in revenge...
and 2; ... DUH, jail time, if I did that.
I actually had those unwanted thoughts during 2021 - 2022. I would NEVER do that.

The thoughts to the right from bottom to top are what I'm trying to do.
1; Raise funds for a shed.
and 2; Waiting... lots of waiting... so much waiting... too much waiting.

All the text you are seeing are MORE of my unwanted thoughts.
What if... why... and what I am feeling...

You see...
This is WHY I STRUGGLE.

No shed, no workspace... no creations, no peace... without a shed (my workspace) I cannot function properly when I want to create stuff.
I'm only able to create a little of certain stuff at this time, and that's because I am doing art/addons/music right now.
What I'm trying to tell you is...

I' M N O T O K A Y.
OK?

If you are new and haven't seen me before, here's my story...
www.youtube.com/watch?v=UdX9-o…
Please watch the video if you are new and trying to understand me.

This is why I am doing commissions, this is why I am on Patreon and other sites...
Yes, I am aware it's gonna take a while to raise enough funds to go buy my own shed and it DOES take TIME.
But... what other option do I have?
All I can think about is trying different ways to earn funds... from selling items I own, to commissions for art/addons/music, to getting donations, you name it.

I just want what I lost brought back into my life, to earn back what I was robbed.
I just want help...
I never been in a situation quite like this before, so forgive me if I am burdensome or annoying, I'm trying to take my time with it and take it easy so it doesn't hurt so much.

All I can ask is... will you help me?
I'm a disabled adult with autism, and I wanna be able to create tons of stuff again in a proper environment.

Have a great day everyone...

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Description
This is WHY I STRUGGLE.
You're basically seeing my mind as I struggle every day, cause I analyzed it and broke it down so you can see it.

In case you're struggling to understand any of it, it goes like this.

The thoughts in the middle from bottom to top are my past memories and present memory...
1; My dad burnt down my shed in 2021.
2; My dad committed sucide in 2022, (Sad I know...)
and 3; As of today, I am still low in spirit AND creativity because I lack a shed... MY PROPER WORKSPACE.

The thoughts to the left from bottom to top are my UNWANTED THOUGHTS I'D NEVER DO.
1; To go after my dad in revenge...
and 2; ... DUH, jail time, if I did that.
I actually had those unwanted thoughts during 2021 - 2022. I would NEVER do that.

The thoughts to the right from bottom to top are what I'm trying to do.
1; Raise funds for a shed.
and 2; Waiting... lots of waiting... so much waiting... too much waiting.

All the text you are seeing are MORE of my unwanted thoughts.
What if... why... and what I am feeling...

You see...
This is WHY I STRUGGLE.

No shed, no workspace... no creations, no peace... without a shed (my workspace) I cannot function properly when I want to create stuff.
I'm only able to create a little of certain stuff at this time, and that's because I am doing art/addons/music right now.
What I'm trying to tell you is...

I' M N O T O K A Y.
OK?

If you are new and haven't seen me before, here's my story...
www.youtube.com/watch?v=UdX9-o…
Please watch the video if you are new and trying to understand me.

This is why I am doing commissions, this is why I am on Patreon and other sites...
Yes, I am aware it's gonna take a while to raise enough funds to go buy my own shed and it DOES take TIME.
But... what other option do I have?
All I can think about is trying different ways to earn funds... from selling items I own, to commissions for art/addons/music, to getting donations, you name it.

I just want what I lost brought back into my life, to earn back what I was robbed.
I just want help...
I never been in a situation quite like this before, so forgive me if I am burdensome or annoying, I'm trying to take my time with it and take it easy so it doesn't hurt so much.

All I can ask is... will you help me?
I'm a disabled adult with autism, and I wanna be able to create tons of stuff again in a proper environment.

Have a great day everyone...

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