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His voice falters as he talks lightly,
his hands were cold, but strong,
he held me too tightly
i knew something was wrong,
i couldn't speak,
he confined me more than my fear,
my jaw was clenched my knees were weak
he made his intents clear,
i knew this was so bad,
what could i do,
he seemed so mad,
but so calm too
i wanted to cry, scream and fight,
my muscles wouldn't let me,
my tears seeped unseen into the night,
he wouldn't let me flee,
he wouldn't let me run
he made it so i had no choice,
he made me wait till he was done,
my spirit fled with his voice,
as he made me promise not to tell,
"this was our little secret
so don't scream and yell"
i was so afraid but so relieved too,
he was finally leaving,
so i grabbed my shirt, my sock and my shoe,
i fled the room hardly believing
what exactly had happened to me
i thought he was gone forever and always
but to be void of his presence was not to be
the thoughts of him floated up in my mind
and the things he said were never kind,
i thought i was free to be a child again,
away from his touch, his voice and his stare,
but the memories i had drove me insane
vivid as they were, i was plunged to despair,
never to have a normal childhood,
my god it was too unfair,
i couldn't accept all that was good,
and i couldn't remove those dreams from my head,
i found one way to be safe from my own mind,
and it was to bleed a color of purest red
because all the other ways were to hard to find,
so i'd take to much of something one night,
and bleed too much on the second,
on the third night i just gave up the fight
my war against him was over
i was finally able to be free of him,
his silent torture
i closed my eyes for the last time from him,
and that night i slept a sleep so deep i never awoke.

Description
His voice falters as he talks lightly,
his hands were cold, but strong,
he held me too tightly
i knew something was wrong,
i couldn't speak,
he confined me more than my fear,
my jaw was clenched my knees were weak
he made his intents clear,
i knew this was so bad,
what could i do,
he seemed so mad,
but so calm too
i wanted to cry, scream and fight,
my muscles wouldn't let me,
my tears seeped unseen into the night,
he wouldn't let me flee,
he wouldn't let me run
he made it so i had no choice,
he made me wait till he was done,
my spirit fled with his voice,
as he made me promise not to tell,
"this was our little secret
so don't scream and yell"
i was so afraid but so relieved too,
he was finally leaving,
so i grabbed my shirt, my sock and my shoe,
i fled the room hardly believing
what exactly had happened to me
i thought he was gone forever and always
but to be void of his presence was not to be
the thoughts of him floated up in my mind
and the things he said were never kind,
i thought i was free to be a child again,
away from his touch, his voice and his stare,
but the memories i had drove me insane
vivid as they were, i was plunged to despair,
never to have a normal childhood,
my god it was too unfair,
i couldn't accept all that was good,
and i couldn't remove those dreams from my head,
i found one way to be safe from my own mind,
and it was to bleed a color of purest red
because all the other ways were to hard to find,
so i'd take to much of something one night,
and bleed too much on the second,
on the third night i just gave up the fight
my war against him was over
i was finally able to be free of him,
his silent torture
i closed my eyes for the last time from him,
and that night i slept a sleep so deep i never awoke.