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As I lie here with my sea of tissues
I wonder what ever possessed me to feel so bad
What weird strange and morbid issues
Could ever make me feel so sad?
To my left lies tear stained cotton,
On my right dwells bloodied anguish
And on the tele Cinderella sings bliss long forgotten
So I lay here in my languish,
Thinking and pondering what pains me so,
When a thought, an idea hits me
And all just now my mind does know
What ails and troubles me is quite clear to show
"My heart did break tonight,"
I echo to myself
As my knuckles turn eerily white
I remember the trouble it was to kill oneself
Thus it just was not a choice I could make
So I’d simply cry and lie awake
But this what seemed a simple task,
Was far from simple at all
I was all teared out; my face was but a mask
I could not move, scream or bawl,
When I looked to my heart,
It lay in pieces
Shocked as I was to see it torn so,
I could not see the notion of how I was so numb
No more pain came to me as I stared upon my essence
I was not happy, I was not angry, and most of all I was far from glum
What could this new place be?
I pondered reflected and thought
But no knowledge would come to me,
I wasn't frustrated, or distraught
I was merely at peace, once and finally
With all that I was, am and will come to be
To never again feel love, pain or hate for another,
To just be and live was all I’m meant to be
Not here to feel or understand any other,
I’m meant for me,
Not for you, or him or she,
This is all I am,
I am numb

Description
As I lie here with my sea of tissues
I wonder what ever possessed me to feel so bad
What weird strange and morbid issues
Could ever make me feel so sad?
To my left lies tear stained cotton,
On my right dwells bloodied anguish
And on the tele Cinderella sings bliss long forgotten
So I lay here in my languish,
Thinking and pondering what pains me so,
When a thought, an idea hits me
And all just now my mind does know
What ails and troubles me is quite clear to show
"My heart did break tonight,"
I echo to myself
As my knuckles turn eerily white
I remember the trouble it was to kill oneself
Thus it just was not a choice I could make
So I’d simply cry and lie awake
But this what seemed a simple task,
Was far from simple at all
I was all teared out; my face was but a mask
I could not move, scream or bawl,
When I looked to my heart,
It lay in pieces
Shocked as I was to see it torn so,
I could not see the notion of how I was so numb
No more pain came to me as I stared upon my essence
I was not happy, I was not angry, and most of all I was far from glum
What could this new place be?
I pondered reflected and thought
But no knowledge would come to me,
I wasn't frustrated, or distraught
I was merely at peace, once and finally
With all that I was, am and will come to be
To never again feel love, pain or hate for another,
To just be and live was all I’m meant to be
Not here to feel or understand any other,
I’m meant for me,
Not for you, or him or she,
This is all I am,
I am numb