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OH MY GOSH, IT TOOK ME ALL WEEK SINCE LAST MONDAY, BUT IT'S FINALLY DONE ♥
im so happy with this though !! as much as a did like his old ref, jack did dye his hair and his fur patterns changed a little again,
so it was about time i got this new reference done ´//w//`jack went through a divorce and has been both mentally and even a bit physically damaged, but luckily, miilq and yiishu came to my and jack's aid, both fixing me and my beloved main character <3

jack's never been more torn apart, yet never been so happy before in his life ♥
he found someone who cures him, someone who keeps him stable and makes him feel those feelings that no longer really existed inside jack,, he's in love
for being the ones to rescue me from falling deeper and deeper into my angsty teen depression, jack is now offically partially owned by miilq & yiishu

and asadsfd oh gosh bio time !!
basic info♥ name - Jack / Hazel \ Calloway
♥ nicknames - Blueberry, Salty Puddle, Jackie / Jakii, Hazelnut, Hazel, Toothpaste hair, Lantern, Red, Kiddo, Ib, Dramo, Primadonna boy, Jackass, Hitler
♥ personality
good traits - allocentric, caring, charismatic, clever, daring, funny / if your sense of humor is dark \, secretly kindhearted
bad traits - argumentative, brittle, cold, depressed, fatalistic, dramatic, festive, masochistic, paranoid, perverted, unconfident, violent
♥ age - 15
♥ sex -male
♥ gender - genderfluid / goes by; he - him, she-her, they-them \
- lover, close people, relatives can use the 'he' pronoun
- friends, collegues, acquaintances preferably should use the 'she' or 'they' pronouns
♥ sexual orientation - homosexual
♥ seme or uke? - seke / seme by personality, uke by being on the bottom \
♥ species - dream spirit, mixture of a wolf, lynx and cheetah / wolxeetah \
♥ theme song - VARISITY - So Sad, So Sad
♥ relationship status - taken by Arashi Tormenta <3 / dating, owned by both miilq & yiishu \
- he literally can't stand being appart from him, Arashi's the one person who can make him laugh, smile, sleep, cry, everything- without a problem.. he loves every tiny detail about him and would do just about anything to make him happy, no doubt
♥ birthday - December 1st
♥ nationality - mixture of amercian and japanese / speaks english, finnish and spanish \
♥ current residence - after his attempt at suicide, Arashi felt unsafe letting him return to his own home and then jack loved being at his house so much, he decided to fully move in, so now he's officially living with his boyfriend and their two cats that fell in love, Felix / Jack's \ and Ryan / Arashi's \ <3
♥ occupation - foley artist
♥ hobbies, side jobs - tango dancing, making & selling dream catchers, kindergarten entertainer
♥ extra's
- has an alter ego of a female model named ' Hazel '
- has an addiction to smoking and champagne
- if heart beat is higher than average, his pupils appear, if not, they're blank and glossy
- tail fluffs up when intoxicated, annoyed or scared
- after a power malfunction inside his brain, he got severely depressed & damaged, only ever seen laughing with Arashi and refuses to sleep if not in physical contact with him! it is extremely exhausting and painful both mentally and physically to be apart from Arashi, so, he avoids leaving his side at all costs
appearance ♥ height - 160 cm / 5'2 feet
♥ weight - roughly 48 kg
♥ body type - tyroid
♥ hair color - dyed pastel blue, naturally hazelnut brown
♥ fur color - wheat brown, black & white with additional brown spots
♥ eye color - baby blue
- eyelids are darker & the color of his natural hair color
♥ markings on body
- self harm cuts on neck and arms
- black fur covering thighs and right shoulder
- white fur covering private area, left shoulder, feet and hands
- white stitch mark patterns on ears, eyelids, left thigh and the tip of his tail
- eyelids are naturally fadingly brown, looks something like natural eye shadow
♥ outfits
1 - white dress, layer of lace over the top part of the dress, white shoes, lacey ribbon around the tail & a red scarf
2 - a simple white blouse, jean shorts accompanied by white & blue ribbons in his hair or around his tail
3 - a hazel green large sweater, likes to wear flowers in his hair with it
4, 5, 6.. - whatever sweater, dress, scarf, blouse, etc combination you can think of <3
stuff fluff♥ abilities - dream manipulation and illumination
- taking control and 'animating' what happens inside one's dreams
- creating hollowgraffic figures; either soft and soothing or nightmarish and horrid
- rewinding audio from dreams, easy to make somebody very happy or haunt them
♥ weapons - childhood kitchen knife

♥ mental state - bad, suffering from extreme depression
- has a bit of an obsessive compulsive disorder, but is able to keep it under control
- tends to have his own type of period / no blood of course, but gets unstably emotional for a week or so \
♥ physical state - unhealthily thin
- recovering from childhood bulimia still
- has an intense sensitivity in his neck, touching it causes tremendous pain

♥ loves- Arashi, affection / attention; from Arashi for the most part \ , harbors, sex w/ Arashi
♥ likes - stargazing w/ Arashi, wind, electro swing, berlins pastries, sweaters, chokers, ARASHI, A r a s h i, Arashi, also Arashi, omg Arashi, did i mention Arashi?, EVERYTHING ABOUT ARASHI, christmas, ice skating, warm drinks, making dream catchers, watching leaves fall, watching rain fall, watching snow fall, in general; loves watching shit fall from the sky
♥ hates - dogs of any sort, homophobia, masculinity
♥ dislikes - his hometown, getting ignored & corrected, Arashi being somehow discomforted or hurt, Arashi being out late / due to him refusing to sleep without Arashi, it's exhausting and generally awful being appart from him \ eating anything besides his pastries, overly hot weather, being alone, saltiness, sourness, bitterness, spiciness, etc

relationships♥ parents - Jin Calloway & Amanda Sabrie
♥ siblings - Lacey Calloway
♥ love interest and beyond - Arashi Tormenta
♥ past love interests - Lucy Hellsfaith
♥ idol, also dearest friend - Mio Sakura
♥ best friends - Lucy Hellsfaith , Mio Sakura , Felix Abe , Westcott Daspen , Nathan Owlén , Horoshi Tatari , Yosh Tatari
♥ close friends - Karmalitta Ingram , Jake C ali , Satin Vile
♥ friends - Tia Calloway , Ryu Thombson , Fredrick Robbinson
♥ despises - Tommi Radzimierz , Silvius Murdock

story- Jack was born in early december in the year 2000 to a on the road world famous circus; Circus Taila. He was a happy kid, a prankster even, he'd do practically anything to make himself amused.
With his father, Jin , always busy looking after his mother and taking care of the circus, he never quite got his lessons about life and, well, that basic father-son time a kid needs. Not only that, but his mother, Amanda ,wasn't much better, being a serial killer and all. He was taught no manners or basic info on life.

At the age of 5, Jack, on his own decided to accompany his mother to a family & friends gathering at his mothers long time friends, Ikumi Callester 's house. Bored by the adults and embarrassed by his mothers desperate act to behave like a normal person, not a deadly killer, he looked around for something to do, or.. someone to play with him. Don't take that out of context, he was only 5 at the time oh my god
Barely seconds after a small glance around the large room, his eyes were fixed on a short and cute looking blond. Lucy Hellsfaith , Ikumi 's daughter. Walking up to her, he asked her to dance to the music playing at the party without even an introduction- it wasn't necessary, not to him. Of course, that being the day he met his life long best friend.

A few years passed by like nothing, Jack was always desperately waiting for his first proper growth spurt and getting into trouble by pranking the circus performers. He was so short, even his younger friend, Lucy , managed to quickly grow taller than him.
It's a long and frustrating to write story, but as he reached the age of 7, things started going a bit messy in his life. Never knowing not to trust a strange man you met on the streets due to neglecting parents was a problem as he was faced with a seemingly kind adult-looking blond male, Satin , asking him to exchange his virginity for a wish.
Not even knowing what a "virginity" is, Jack accepted and well, most should know what happened to him then. Jack asked about what was done to him from his mother who casually told him what "rape" is without even thinking about why the question was brought up by her son. Jack wasn't bothered by it, he was never quite keen on himself or taking care of his body, so it never bothered him.

Now, since being old enough to recognize himself as a living creature and the people around him as the same, he had always adored- or even crushed on his fathers friend, Felix . While being a silly little dummy and Jack having a strong hatred towards people he found to be retarded, Jack adored Felix . So, on one faithful day, just casually chatting around and flirting with the older male, he learnt that Felix had gone through the same process Jack had earlier in the year. "Rape". It corrupted Jack. Something in his brain messed up, he dropped to his knees, screaming and crying nonstop- until Felix successfully got him to calm down.. But once the screaming had silenced, it was already too late, the Jack that had been evolving and growing for the past 7 years was gone, nothing being left but a hollow body, but the only thing truly reflecting that was his eyes. His eyes, no longer a bright and happy blue had faded into a dull and blank baby blue with no pupils in sight, just gloss from his crying.

Jack, in a way, was dead. He started a life as a child slut, being something merely alive to please the dark and disgusting pedophiles that lingered around at night. He wore revealing clothes, his personality had completely drained and not even the words of his now poor and bullied best friend, Lucy , could help him snap out of it.

At the age of 14, he had enough. Enough of the disgusting perverted men, enough of his horrid family, enough of the circus, enough of his hometown. The town sunken in his horrid memories.. sunken along with his good ones. So, he decided to move out. Well, he only had enough money for the train tickets from dream catchers he had sold that summer, but he decided that he'd figure out what to do when he reached the big city.
As always, things went to shit the second he arrived, crashing straight into another male and hitting his head pretty badly onto the pavement. Worried and apologetic, Westcott Daspen , the male he had run into, decided to treat Jack for something to eat. Soon, he learnt exactly what Jack was doing and couldn't allow it. He invited Jack to stay with him at his house as he had 2 stable jobs as both a makeup artist for magazine models and just working a day job at your local Starbucks.
They became close living together as flatmates. Something they would often joke or mock each other about was how Westcott , on the day they met, had confused Jack for being the opposite gender, a female.
With Jacks current identity issues, he one day decided to actually take on the role of a female, very seriously asking Westcott to do his makeup, get him a casual girls dress and even high heels. Westcott laughed at Jack taking the joke so seriously at the time, but it turns out that Jack fit the image of being female. It was no longer a joke and before long, Jack would only ever wear dresses and anything feminine he viewed girls wearing.
That's where "Hazel" was born. One day, at Westcott 's job at the studio where he did makeup the models being photographed there, there was one model who called in sick on the day of one extremely important session. Jack, not knowing how to model at all, stepped in and well, he was a natural. He found something he loved and the world seemed to love it. "Hazel Ashworth" became the name the world knew him as, but deep down inside, he knew he was still "Jack". He accepted it and decided it'd be best just to live the dream while he could.

Soon turning 16, he returned to his hometown. He was ready for it and he happily dragged Westcott along to meet Lucy .
With his new happiness he had found, the horrid memories were just.. things that existed in this town. He had gained control over them and could now concentrate on the happier ones he had made. He stayed at that town, occasionally visiting the big city and Westcott for photoshoots. And well, unfortunately, returning to stay at his hometown, he decided it was about time he settled down. I say unfortunately because after a mere 2 months of living alone, he started hearing voices in his head. At first, he saw it as nothing, but eventually it got to be a bit much.. so, he adopted a car, Naming it Felix after his childhood crush; Felix .
Taking care of his new pet did silence those voices he was hearing, but not completely. Alcohol was brought into the picture. Living alone, he would sulk alone in his room, drinking and crying until he ended up self harming or passing out from exhaustion.
Few months into this routine, he started going through something odd. "Long Dreams".
Feeling at first something that felt like a week over night.. to years that went by in that 9 hours he slept ..

One night, he only could sleep for 5 hours, but inside his head, it has been 28 years inside his head, he has lived through 28 years only to open his eyes and see; he was 15. It never happened. He never fell truly in love with the man of his dreams, he never adopted a daughter who he loved so dearly .. it simply neevr happened.

Not being able to handle that, he fell into a deep depression. No overreaction at all, how would you feel?
Jack mentally dead, he couldn't feel anymore, only shock and a ringing in his ears .. he was even physically damaged, his ears permanently stuck downwards, having a constant pain in his chest and spine and whenever he attempted to laugh, nothing would come out besides a pathetic whimper of pain. This was something he could never recover from.
So,
he wrote down a note, apologizing to many who cared for him. he wrapped the note in his scarf so it wouldn't blow away and set the scarf somewhere near by. He took pills, pills to paralyze his body so he couldn't back down. His body, now numb and unable to move, rested over the train tracks what went through the fields of wheat and flowers. It was over, it was going to end, Jack was going to get his long awaited break..

"That's a bit of a silly place to take a nap."
Eyesight blurry, body numb, jack couldn't reply to the remark thrown at him by someone.. someone he couldn't recognize. His small bit of awareness allowed him to hear that one sentence spoken by the stranger before he went out cold.
The next morning, yes, there was a next morning- he found himself laying on a soft bed. Looking around, he didn't recognize the house. It was warm and pleasantly smelled like cinnamon. His body was just strong enough for Jack to move his head a little to the side.. and there he saw him.
A tall, gentle looking male wolf with amethyst eyes and lavender hair staring back at Jack with a soft smile on his face. Jack didn't understand how he really felt about this.. it was strange, like the feeling of love at first sight.
"Good morning," said Arashi Tormenta . Yes, that's what is must have been.. Love at first sight. For it was something that overpowered the need for death Jack had. He felt as though he just wanted to talk to his male for hours. But, he couldn't even bring himself to smile back at the male at first, he just stared.
Things were going to change for the better, finally.

And they did. Arashi took great care of Jack and despite truly hating the fact he was still alive, her grew a liking for his caretaker. A crush, even. He never dared deny a request from Arashi , so he accepted when he requested they should share breakfast at a cafe and eventually Jack gladly accepted when getting asked out on a real date. Talking with Arashi , staying at his home, learning about Arashi , he saved him, he was curing him, Jack fell in love with him. He noticed; when he sleeps next to him, Jack's long dreams get cut down to normal length. When Arashi joked around and flirted and Jack giggled or smiles in response, they were real. Normally, he'd fake a smile and be kind in response to a joke, but now he struggled to stop himself from snorting in a mess of laughter and grinning from happiness. Arashi made him happy and he fell so madly in love, it was like the world around them stopped and his life was never really all that bad.
Of course, he could never express that, but merely just kept it to himself, occasionally trying a lame pickup line or two on Arashi to perhaps make an awkward move.
Luckily, Arashi 's feelings were the same, if not stronger than Jacks. They both felt a small anxiety inside themselves when apart from each other, so in the end, Jack finally moved into Arashi 's home, bringing his cat along only. As silly as it is, Arashi also owned a cat and that cat happened to fall in love with Jack's.. it was a sign. A really gay one.

to be continued along with Jacks story actually progressing <3

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OH MY GOSH, IT TOOK ME ALL WEEK SINCE LAST MONDAY, BUT IT'S FINALLY DONE ♥
im so happy with this though !! as much as a did like his old ref, jack did dye his hair and his fur patterns changed a little again,
so it was about time i got this new reference done ´//w//`jack went through a divorce and has been both mentally and even a bit physically damaged, but luckily, miilq and yiishu came to my and jack's aid, both fixing me and my beloved main character <3

jack's never been more torn apart, yet never been so happy before in his life ♥
he found someone who cures him, someone who keeps him stable and makes him feel those feelings that no longer really existed inside jack,, he's in love
for being the ones to rescue me from falling deeper and deeper into my angsty teen depression, jack is now offically partially owned by miilq & yiishu

and asadsfd oh gosh bio time !!
basic info♥ name - Jack / Hazel \ Calloway
♥ nicknames - Blueberry, Salty Puddle, Jackie / Jakii, Hazelnut, Hazel, Toothpaste hair, Lantern, Red, Kiddo, Ib, Dramo, Primadonna boy, Jackass, Hitler
♥ personality
good traits - allocentric, caring, charismatic, clever, daring, funny / if your sense of humor is dark \, secretly kindhearted
bad traits - argumentative, brittle, cold, depressed, fatalistic, dramatic, festive, masochistic, paranoid, perverted, unconfident, violent
♥ age - 15
♥ sex -male
♥ gender - genderfluid / goes by; he - him, she-her, they-them \
- lover, close people, relatives can use the 'he' pronoun
- friends, collegues, acquaintances preferably should use the 'she' or 'they' pronouns
♥ sexual orientation - homosexual
♥ seme or uke? - seke / seme by personality, uke by being on the bottom \
♥ species - dream spirit, mixture of a wolf, lynx and cheetah / wolxeetah \
♥ theme song - VARISITY - So Sad, So Sad
♥ relationship status - taken by Arashi Tormenta <3 / dating, owned by both miilq & yiishu \
- he literally can't stand being appart from him, Arashi's the one person who can make him laugh, smile, sleep, cry, everything- without a problem.. he loves every tiny detail about him and would do just about anything to make him happy, no doubt
♥ birthday - December 1st
♥ nationality - mixture of amercian and japanese / speaks english, finnish and spanish \
♥ current residence - after his attempt at suicide, Arashi felt unsafe letting him return to his own home and then jack loved being at his house so much, he decided to fully move in, so now he's officially living with his boyfriend and their two cats that fell in love, Felix / Jack's \ and Ryan / Arashi's \ <3
♥ occupation - foley artist
♥ hobbies, side jobs - tango dancing, making & selling dream catchers, kindergarten entertainer
♥ extra's
- has an alter ego of a female model named ' Hazel '
- has an addiction to smoking and champagne
- if heart beat is higher than average, his pupils appear, if not, they're blank and glossy
- tail fluffs up when intoxicated, annoyed or scared
- after a power malfunction inside his brain, he got severely depressed & damaged, only ever seen laughing with Arashi and refuses to sleep if not in physical contact with him! it is extremely exhausting and painful both mentally and physically to be apart from Arashi, so, he avoids leaving his side at all costs
appearance ♥ height - 160 cm / 5'2 feet
♥ weight - roughly 48 kg
♥ body type - tyroid
♥ hair color - dyed pastel blue, naturally hazelnut brown
♥ fur color - wheat brown, black & white with additional brown spots
♥ eye color - baby blue
- eyelids are darker & the color of his natural hair color
♥ markings on body
- self harm cuts on neck and arms
- black fur covering thighs and right shoulder
- white fur covering private area, left shoulder, feet and hands
- white stitch mark patterns on ears, eyelids, left thigh and the tip of his tail
- eyelids are naturally fadingly brown, looks something like natural eye shadow
♥ outfits
1 - white dress, layer of lace over the top part of the dress, white shoes, lacey ribbon around the tail & a red scarf
2 - a simple white blouse, jean shorts accompanied by white & blue ribbons in his hair or around his tail
3 - a hazel green large sweater, likes to wear flowers in his hair with it
4, 5, 6.. - whatever sweater, dress, scarf, blouse, etc combination you can think of <3
stuff fluff♥ abilities - dream manipulation and illumination
- taking control and 'animating' what happens inside one's dreams
- creating hollowgraffic figures; either soft and soothing or nightmarish and horrid
- rewinding audio from dreams, easy to make somebody very happy or haunt them
♥ weapons - childhood kitchen knife

♥ mental state - bad, suffering from extreme depression
- has a bit of an obsessive compulsive disorder, but is able to keep it under control
- tends to have his own type of period / no blood of course, but gets unstably emotional for a week or so \
♥ physical state - unhealthily thin
- recovering from childhood bulimia still
- has an intense sensitivity in his neck, touching it causes tremendous pain

♥ loves- Arashi, affection / attention; from Arashi for the most part \ , harbors, sex w/ Arashi
♥ likes - stargazing w/ Arashi, wind, electro swing, berlins pastries, sweaters, chokers, ARASHI, A r a s h i, Arashi, also Arashi, omg Arashi, did i mention Arashi?, EVERYTHING ABOUT ARASHI, christmas, ice skating, warm drinks, making dream catchers, watching leaves fall, watching rain fall, watching snow fall, in general; loves watching shit fall from the sky
♥ hates - dogs of any sort, homophobia, masculinity
♥ dislikes - his hometown, getting ignored & corrected, Arashi being somehow discomforted or hurt, Arashi being out late / due to him refusing to sleep without Arashi, it's exhausting and generally awful being appart from him \ eating anything besides his pastries, overly hot weather, being alone, saltiness, sourness, bitterness, spiciness, etc

relationships♥ parents - Jin Calloway & Amanda Sabrie
♥ siblings - Lacey Calloway
♥ love interest and beyond - Arashi Tormenta
♥ past love interests - Lucy Hellsfaith
♥ idol, also dearest friend - Mio Sakura
♥ best friends - Lucy Hellsfaith , Mio Sakura , Felix Abe , Westcott Daspen , Nathan Owlén , Horoshi Tatari , Yosh Tatari
♥ close friends - Karmalitta Ingram , Jake C ali , Satin Vile
♥ friends - Tia Calloway , Ryu Thombson , Fredrick Robbinson
♥ despises - Tommi Radzimierz , Silvius Murdock

story- Jack was born in early december in the year 2000 to a on the road world famous circus; Circus Taila. He was a happy kid, a prankster even, he'd do practically anything to make himself amused.
With his father, Jin , always busy looking after his mother and taking care of the circus, he never quite got his lessons about life and, well, that basic father-son time a kid needs. Not only that, but his mother, Amanda ,wasn't much better, being a serial killer and all. He was taught no manners or basic info on life.

At the age of 5, Jack, on his own decided to accompany his mother to a family & friends gathering at his mothers long time friends, Ikumi Callester 's house. Bored by the adults and embarrassed by his mothers desperate act to behave like a normal person, not a deadly killer, he looked around for something to do, or.. someone to play with him. Don't take that out of context, he was only 5 at the time oh my god
Barely seconds after a small glance around the large room, his eyes were fixed on a short and cute looking blond. Lucy Hellsfaith , Ikumi 's daughter. Walking up to her, he asked her to dance to the music playing at the party without even an introduction- it wasn't necessary, not to him. Of course, that being the day he met his life long best friend.

A few years passed by like nothing, Jack was always desperately waiting for his first proper growth spurt and getting into trouble by pranking the circus performers. He was so short, even his younger friend, Lucy , managed to quickly grow taller than him.
It's a long and frustrating to write story, but as he reached the age of 7, things started going a bit messy in his life. Never knowing not to trust a strange man you met on the streets due to neglecting parents was a problem as he was faced with a seemingly kind adult-looking blond male, Satin , asking him to exchange his virginity for a wish.
Not even knowing what a "virginity" is, Jack accepted and well, most should know what happened to him then. Jack asked about what was done to him from his mother who casually told him what "rape" is without even thinking about why the question was brought up by her son. Jack wasn't bothered by it, he was never quite keen on himself or taking care of his body, so it never bothered him.

Now, since being old enough to recognize himself as a living creature and the people around him as the same, he had always adored- or even crushed on his fathers friend, Felix . While being a silly little dummy and Jack having a strong hatred towards people he found to be retarded, Jack adored Felix . So, on one faithful day, just casually chatting around and flirting with the older male, he learnt that Felix had gone through the same process Jack had earlier in the year. "Rape". It corrupted Jack. Something in his brain messed up, he dropped to his knees, screaming and crying nonstop- until Felix successfully got him to calm down.. But once the screaming had silenced, it was already too late, the Jack that had been evolving and growing for the past 7 years was gone, nothing being left but a hollow body, but the only thing truly reflecting that was his eyes. His eyes, no longer a bright and happy blue had faded into a dull and blank baby blue with no pupils in sight, just gloss from his crying.

Jack, in a way, was dead. He started a life as a child slut, being something merely alive to please the dark and disgusting pedophiles that lingered around at night. He wore revealing clothes, his personality had completely drained and not even the words of his now poor and bullied best friend, Lucy , could help him snap out of it.

At the age of 14, he had enough. Enough of the disgusting perverted men, enough of his horrid family, enough of the circus, enough of his hometown. The town sunken in his horrid memories.. sunken along with his good ones. So, he decided to move out. Well, he only had enough money for the train tickets from dream catchers he had sold that summer, but he decided that he'd figure out what to do when he reached the big city.
As always, things went to shit the second he arrived, crashing straight into another male and hitting his head pretty badly onto the pavement. Worried and apologetic, Westcott Daspen , the male he had run into, decided to treat Jack for something to eat. Soon, he learnt exactly what Jack was doing and couldn't allow it. He invited Jack to stay with him at his house as he had 2 stable jobs as both a makeup artist for magazine models and just working a day job at your local Starbucks.
They became close living together as flatmates. Something they would often joke or mock each other about was how Westcott , on the day they met, had confused Jack for being the opposite gender, a female.
With Jacks current identity issues, he one day decided to actually take on the role of a female, very seriously asking Westcott to do his makeup, get him a casual girls dress and even high heels. Westcott laughed at Jack taking the joke so seriously at the time, but it turns out that Jack fit the image of being female. It was no longer a joke and before long, Jack would only ever wear dresses and anything feminine he viewed girls wearing.
That's where "Hazel" was born. One day, at Westcott 's job at the studio where he did makeup the models being photographed there, there was one model who called in sick on the day of one extremely important session. Jack, not knowing how to model at all, stepped in and well, he was a natural. He found something he loved and the world seemed to love it. "Hazel Ashworth" became the name the world knew him as, but deep down inside, he knew he was still "Jack". He accepted it and decided it'd be best just to live the dream while he could.

Soon turning 16, he returned to his hometown. He was ready for it and he happily dragged Westcott along to meet Lucy .
With his new happiness he had found, the horrid memories were just.. things that existed in this town. He had gained control over them and could now concentrate on the happier ones he had made. He stayed at that town, occasionally visiting the big city and Westcott for photoshoots. And well, unfortunately, returning to stay at his hometown, he decided it was about time he settled down. I say unfortunately because after a mere 2 months of living alone, he started hearing voices in his head. At first, he saw it as nothing, but eventually it got to be a bit much.. so, he adopted a car, Naming it Felix after his childhood crush; Felix .
Taking care of his new pet did silence those voices he was hearing, but not completely. Alcohol was brought into the picture. Living alone, he would sulk alone in his room, drinking and crying until he ended up self harming or passing out from exhaustion.
Few months into this routine, he started going through something odd. "Long Dreams".
Feeling at first something that felt like a week over night.. to years that went by in that 9 hours he slept ..

One night, he only could sleep for 5 hours, but inside his head, it has been 28 years inside his head, he has lived through 28 years only to open his eyes and see; he was 15. It never happened. He never fell truly in love with the man of his dreams, he never adopted a daughter who he loved so dearly .. it simply neevr happened.

Not being able to handle that, he fell into a deep depression. No overreaction at all, how would you feel?
Jack mentally dead, he couldn't feel anymore, only shock and a ringing in his ears .. he was even physically damaged, his ears permanently stuck downwards, having a constant pain in his chest and spine and whenever he attempted to laugh, nothing would come out besides a pathetic whimper of pain. This was something he could never recover from.
So,
he wrote down a note, apologizing to many who cared for him. he wrapped the note in his scarf so it wouldn't blow away and set the scarf somewhere near by. He took pills, pills to paralyze his body so he couldn't back down. His body, now numb and unable to move, rested over the train tracks what went through the fields of wheat and flowers. It was over, it was going to end, Jack was going to get his long awaited break..

"That's a bit of a silly place to take a nap."
Eyesight blurry, body numb, jack couldn't reply to the remark thrown at him by someone.. someone he couldn't recognize. His small bit of awareness allowed him to hear that one sentence spoken by the stranger before he went out cold.
The next morning, yes, there was a next morning- he found himself laying on a soft bed. Looking around, he didn't recognize the house. It was warm and pleasantly smelled like cinnamon. His body was just strong enough for Jack to move his head a little to the side.. and there he saw him.
A tall, gentle looking male wolf with amethyst eyes and lavender hair staring back at Jack with a soft smile on his face. Jack didn't understand how he really felt about this.. it was strange, like the feeling of love at first sight.
"Good morning," said Arashi Tormenta . Yes, that's what is must have been.. Love at first sight. For it was something that overpowered the need for death Jack had. He felt as though he just wanted to talk to his male for hours. But, he couldn't even bring himself to smile back at the male at first, he just stared.
Things were going to change for the better, finally.

And they did. Arashi took great care of Jack and despite truly hating the fact he was still alive, her grew a liking for his caretaker. A crush, even. He never dared deny a request from Arashi , so he accepted when he requested they should share breakfast at a cafe and eventually Jack gladly accepted when getting asked out on a real date. Talking with Arashi , staying at his home, learning about Arashi , he saved him, he was curing him, Jack fell in love with him. He noticed; when he sleeps next to him, Jack's long dreams get cut down to normal length. When Arashi joked around and flirted and Jack giggled or smiles in response, they were real. Normally, he'd fake a smile and be kind in response to a joke, but now he struggled to stop himself from snorting in a mess of laughter and grinning from happiness. Arashi made him happy and he fell so madly in love, it was like the world around them stopped and his life was never really all that bad.
Of course, he could never express that, but merely just kept it to himself, occasionally trying a lame pickup line or two on Arashi to perhaps make an awkward move.
Luckily, Arashi 's feelings were the same, if not stronger than Jacks. They both felt a small anxiety inside themselves when apart from each other, so in the end, Jack finally moved into Arashi 's home, bringing his cat along only. As silly as it is, Arashi also owned a cat and that cat happened to fall in love with Jack's.. it was a sign. A really gay one.

to be continued along with Jacks story actually progressing <3