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MadAndPerplexed — Self Portrait-Body Dysmorphic Disorder
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Thank you muchly for the kind words of support.
I have to agree with you, many folk can't quite get their head around the condition and just see it as self-esteem problem or even vanity
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I've had the condition for over 25 years now and its only recently that I have a diognosis and will actually be starting art therapy this month.
I completey undestand how you feel about mirrors though sadly one of my symptoms its compulsive mirror checking so it's a catch 22 situation.
This is more or less what I see when I look in the mirror and it's rather cruel joke that one's own brain is capable of doing this. Sadly my condition has been significantly worse due to me needing a colostomy bag fitted last year which has left my body a mass of large unsightly scars
This was definately not something I'd normally produce as I've never really used art for emotional or therapeutic means and don't want to come across as attention seeking or anything like that.
I would really press for a diognosis, you don't want to leave it as long as I have as it's shown to be harder to treat the longer you've had it.
Thank you again.
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I suspect I also have this disorder, and have for a long time. I've mentioned it to a psychiatrist but have yet to be diagnosed. If I could get away with it, I'd paint over my mirrors. But I rent, sadly.
My condolences. I know how horrible it can be. Nobody understands BDD is an illness and not just a self-esteem problem, and it can't be cured with a compliment. If I had a penny for every time my Dad has said to me, "Even supermodels think there's something wrong with the way they look!"
It's a bit of a funny coincidence that I should come across in this in my notifs. I've often thought about doing "vent art" similar to this. But I have very little energy for art and I would prefer to spend it on my huge backlog of creative projects.
You aren't alone. <3
Edit: Also, because this picture reminds me of Van Gogh's self-portrait, I'd like to share this video with you:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ubTJI_…
It really moved me, even though I'm not a Doctor Who fan.
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hank you muchly for the kind words of support.
I have to agree with you, many folk can't quite get their head around the condition and just see it as self-esteem problem or even vanity
.
I've had the condition for over 25 years now and its only recently that I have a diognosis and will actually be starting art therapy this month.
I completey undestand how you feel about mirrors though sadly one of my symptoms its compulsive mirror checking so it's a catch 22 situation.
This is more or less what I see when I look in the mirror and it's rather cruel joke that one's own brain is capable of doing this. Sadly my condition has been significantly worse due to me needing a colostomy bag fitted last year which has left my body a mass of large unsightly scars
This was definately not something I'd normally produce as I've never really used art for emotional or therapeutic means and don't want to come across as attention seeking or anything like that.
I would really press for a diognosis, you don't want to leave it as long as I have as it's shown to be harder to treat the longer you've had it.
Thank you again
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Using art for therapeutic means is not attention-seeking and anyone who tells you it is can, to be polite, go fuck themselves.
I can't stand this idea that artists have to be happy and make "happy" content all the time just to protect their audience's feelings. It's MY page, why should I have to go out of my way to make YOU'RE having a good time? You're more than welcome to unwatch me if you don't like my content.
I feel like I've become a different person on Deviantart because of it. No one knows the real me. My persona on DA is funny, sassy and entertaining. In reality, I'm extremely sick and miserably depressed. Some would call this being fake (such as one particularly horrible former friend of mine), I call it having the right "business face." Being negative annoys people, drives them away and defeats the purpose of sharing one's art for feedback and discussion.
But that's my problem. You are not obliged to create anything except what you want to create. If you wanted to totally change genres and have a "Goya" phase, that's absolutely your prerogative. Leaving nasty comments about is just wasting their time and yours, so pay the "haters" no mind.
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