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Published: 2014-10-28 10:38:53 +0000 UTC; Views: 5493; Favourites: 53; Downloads: 0
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Description Lost in her memories, D.I Sunderland would stay late at her office after her fellow officers had gone home. she threw herself into her work..writing up reports and filing paperwork more efficiently than half her station. but her boss had noticed. he'd noticed her defiance to stop working so hard, her long hours and the faint smell of alcohol. he'd seen this before. detectives who love someone so much that every aspect of their lives begin to suffer.
Emmie had become belligerent, snappy and irritable since april. her collegues had begun to make complaints. her judgement was impaired..and she almost got an under ranking officer killed.
her D.C.I entered her office late one evening, to find her quickly swiping tears from her cheek and drawing in breath through her nose. she knew what he was going to say.

he'd allowed her a few weeks off, full pay. she was a damn good copper, and he couldn't afford to lose her. he sympathized, having lost his wife a year or so earlier..so arranged for some counselling for his faithful D.I.
but she couldn't bring herself to part with his dog tags. she held them as she drifted off to sleep, and kept them close by..just to feel as though he was still there with her. though he was never really hers to begin with.. he'd always avoided any sort of affection. but that meant nothing. she loved him still, and she always would.
she'd decided to take a flight back to America, to see her old uncle Frank and cousin James. she knew she'd be able to relax, then.
she was given a warm welcome, and she managed to relax as she confided in her favourite cousin. his voice always calmed her since they were children. one of her secrets was that james would read to her over the phone when she was back home.
now all she had to do was sort out that overflowing filing cabinet in her mind. file away the memories of him, and try to avoid taking them out from here on. she couldn't risk putting lives at risk because her mind was somewhere it shouldn't be. she knew this now.

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had to get this out of my system. sorry it's emmie. im working on a render of james at intervals so expect him to pop up soon. ^^

credit to who made the big office model I used, the photo frame, radio, coffee mug and dog tags. politely let me know so I can put your names here instead of just thank you. I kinda wish people would put "by -insert name-" on the names of their models so nobody could forget ^^
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Comments: 28

Ygure [2014-11-15 12:28:09 +0000 UTC]

Oh my god, this is stunning. Great expression and hearthbreaking story, I really hope Emmie finds happiness again soon.

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MamaMangle In reply to Ygure [2014-11-15 19:35:02 +0000 UTC]

I hope so too ♥♥♥

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PhilipMessina [2014-11-13 00:00:42 +0000 UTC]

A lovely picture, Emmie.
Could you give me some advice on making hair look good with XPS models and Gimp?

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MamaMangle In reply to PhilipMessina [2014-11-13 10:37:28 +0000 UTC]

im not sure ..I don't know a thing about gimp D:

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PhilipMessina In reply to MamaMangle [2014-11-14 10:01:44 +0000 UTC]

Not to worry, thanks for replying

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Viper424 [2014-11-11 15:49:40 +0000 UTC]

I think we've all been there at one time or another.
I love her controlled expression, line she is holding back tears. Great work. Especially on the seal of the sun. I didn't spot it right away.

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MamaMangle In reply to Viper424 [2014-11-11 15:58:28 +0000 UTC]

if you full view it, she has two tears running down her face :3 thank you sweetie. this was a quickly done piece. ♥

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joobiewoobie [2014-10-31 02:44:08 +0000 UTC]

This is friggin incredible. Oh my god.. You are so damn talented!

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MamaMangle In reply to joobiewoobie [2014-10-31 09:13:53 +0000 UTC]

o///o.. huh? I am? wow, thank you baby girl! ♥

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Residenteebles [2014-10-28 19:12:44 +0000 UTC]

wow. this. this is amazing. you certainly havent lost your skill in the time you have been away i still wish that i had your skills

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MamaMangle In reply to Residenteebles [2014-10-30 16:58:57 +0000 UTC]

this is one successful attempt out of over 40 untouched renders lol. it required very little hair and skin paint which is why it came up good in the first place lol. thank you though bubs. hopefully i'll be able to find my muse again soon. ♥

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Residenteebles In reply to MamaMangle [2014-10-30 17:35:21 +0000 UTC]

Hopefully you will I am learning how to paint hair too at the mo, my most recent render of the DOA girls I painted the hair its quite shit tho xD

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StacyAdler [2014-10-28 13:26:52 +0000 UTC]

Great work as usual dear <3

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MamaMangle In reply to StacyAdler [2014-10-30 16:58:02 +0000 UTC]

thank you sweetie ♥

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O-Luna-O [2014-10-28 12:34:25 +0000 UTC]

Look really amazing! And Why Emmie dot sleep? Because she is worried about the travel? Any way good job! 

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MamaMangle In reply to O-Luna-O [2014-10-30 16:57:53 +0000 UTC]

she can't sleep because she lost the love of her life. the same as me. except I lost my dog also, and was hated by a lot of people on da. now, although my dog is still gone and my grief is inconsolable, people who have been horrible to me in the past have approached me to apologize. that's wonderful news at long last ♥ I finally have some friends back I thought had turned on me.
time to start anew, and i'll wait for damian forever. I know its probably futile but.. i'll still wait. *looks over at detective inspector emmie, burying herself in a glass of wine, and shakes my head*

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Dangel-Deviliono [2014-10-28 10:57:57 +0000 UTC]

Can you share the girl? @_@

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MamaMangle In reply to Dangel-Deviliono [2014-10-28 10:59:32 +0000 UTC]

shes my personal model of myself only friends get her im afraid. but there are plenty of girls in business suits in the dead or alive section of the xnalara-customized group ^_^

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Dangel-Deviliono In reply to MamaMangle [2014-10-28 11:04:33 +0000 UTC]

  oh, no problem

  she is reallt beautifulllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll  

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MamaMangle In reply to Dangel-Deviliono [2014-10-28 11:07:18 +0000 UTC]

thank you! ♥ she appreciates it X3

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Dangel-Deviliono In reply to MamaMangle [2014-10-28 11:09:40 +0000 UTC]

  but you is super beautiful, too

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MamaMangle In reply to Dangel-Deviliono [2014-10-28 11:10:38 +0000 UTC]

X///D pfft. thank you hehe that's super sweet ♥

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Dangel-Deviliono In reply to MamaMangle [2014-12-19 11:43:50 +0000 UTC]

Hi

a little problem, can you show me where I can get her hair? I want to make Tifa
or can you share to me her hair only? ^^

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MamaMangle In reply to Dangel-Deviliono [2014-12-19 15:17:38 +0000 UTC]

this hair would be terrible for tifa. about 80% of the hair in this picture has been hand painted hun. the actual model itself is about as close to tifas hair as clouds is lol.

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Dangel-Deviliono In reply to MamaMangle [2014-12-19 17:09:25 +0000 UTC]

o.O that's mean the hair is not real? T.T

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MamaMangle In reply to Dangel-Deviliono [2014-12-20 20:57:34 +0000 UTC]

not as you see it here, no sorry buddy. mostly paint work I'm afraid.

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Dangel-Deviliono In reply to MamaMangle [2014-12-21 10:02:03 +0000 UTC]

  No need say sorry. Your work is really great XD

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Dangel-Deviliono In reply to MamaMangle [2014-10-28 11:26:19 +0000 UTC]

 I always

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