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I was going to post this a week ago, unfortunately life is weird like that.
My mom passed away this week. She wasn't a good person but she was my mom. She was sick and selfish. Her kidneys were failing, she had a quad bypass in 2018, she didn't want to share any information with my sister and I. It would have been nice to make her end of life a bit easier but she genuinely thought she was going to get better even when she couldn't walk.
When I graduated and was kicked out of the house neither of my parents wanted to help me with college. I couldn't get their tax information for loans. My dad made too much and said I wasn't "worth the investment", my mom was convinced I was trying to steal her money.
She said so many nasty and belittling things to me and when she really didn't agree with what I was doing she would call me a piece of shit.
When I was in college from 24-28 (ages) she got sick I dropped everything to help her. Everyone expected me to leave school and help her because I was already good at making money but I didn't want to do hard labor anymore. Well my life fell apart anyways and I ended up moving from California to Florida to be with her. Just left school, left my two jobs, didn't tell anyone and well COVID and 5 years later she's gone. There's so many more layers and frustration, my wife and I both tried to confront her about these realities as did my sister and her husband... We were met with deflection often being belittled and berated. The last time I really talked to her she blew up mine and my wife's phone while in the hospital stating it was an emergency... she just wanted an e-cig because she couldn't smoke at the hospital. That's the last memory I'm going to have with her.

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I was going to post this a week ago, unfortunately life is weird like that.
My mom passed away this week. She wasn't a good person but she was my mom. She was sick and selfish. Her kidneys were failing, she had a quad bypass in 2018, she didn't want to share any information with my sister and I. It would have been nice to make her end of life a bit easier but she genuinely thought she was going to get better even when she couldn't walk.
When I graduated and was kicked out of the house neither of my parents wanted to help me with college. I couldn't get their tax information for loans. My dad made too much and said I wasn't "worth the investment", my mom was convinced I was trying to steal her money.
She said so many nasty and belittling things to me and when she really didn't agree with what I was doing she would call me a piece of shit.
When I was in college from 24-28 (ages) she got sick I dropped everything to help her. Everyone expected me to leave school and help her because I was already good at making money but I didn't want to do hard labor anymore. Well my life fell apart anyways and I ended up moving from California to Florida to be with her. Just left school, left my two jobs, didn't tell anyone and well COVID and 5 years later she's gone. There's so many more layers and frustration, my wife and I both tried to confront her about these realities as did my sister and her husband... We were met with deflection often being belittled and berated. The last time I really talked to her she blew up mine and my wife's phone while in the hospital stating it was an emergency... she just wanted an e-cig because she couldn't smoke at the hospital. That's the last memory I'm going to have with her.