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MyEmeraldTears — my fault
#overdose #suicide #vent #ikilledhim #imisshim #myemeraldtears #ifeelsoguilty #iruinedhim
Published: 2018-04-18 21:54:43 +0000 UTC; Views: 2204; Favourites: 111; Downloads: 0
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i know his blood is on my hands(just me letting out some pain and stress from my partner's recent suicide attempt. the intrusive thoughts are just catching up to me)
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Don't, don't think that, I know I am pretty late, I always am, but let me tell you this, you are powerful, you are great, and you are a reason to live for. Trust me. Your art is showing how much chaos you are feeling, and you are not at fault for this, any of this. I hope you are feeling better.
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Thank you so much for these kind words. Unfortunately, no matter how hard I try, the thoughts and the panic always swarms me when I let my guard down. Its an exhausting cycle for me, and one I'm getting tired of being stuck in. But you're right, I know I'm not at fault logically, and its just a matter of forcing myself to believe that truly. I am feeling better, time heals all wounds, even if slowly-- your support and everyone else's support has made this difficult time for me manageable, and for that im truly grateful
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<3
I'll be alright soon enough <3
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Of course, you deserve it !
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This piece is so emotional it's almost tear jerking just to look at.
Hang in there, love. This is not your fault and we've all got your back. I'm here to talk if you still have things to get off your chest. I know you can both recover from this... you are both so strong for getting through it ;;
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Thank you for your heartwarming compliment. It has been a very hard couple of days, and of course the revelation of deeper issues stemming from his suppression makes me anxious to see what he's been hiding, but...we'll get through it. We have to, I love him and I won't let him be alone
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Just try to be positive, get out all the bad feelings and intrusive thoughts however you need to be it art or writing or whatever, and know it wasn't in fact your fault that anything happened. Be strong, you make him strong, and you two will use that strength to get through anything
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thank you so much babe. your support through these hard times has not gone unappreciated
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It's always very easy to take on the blame in hindsight, don't do that. While it may be hard, I recommend listening to your partner that this was not your fault. From what it sounds like, you actually saved them. Don't stress the future, deal with that as it arrives.
For right now I highly recommend celebrating that both of you are safe. Let your partner know how much they mean to you and be thankful that you'll both have more time together.
If you need someone to talk with, please don't hesitate. Sending you positive vibes.
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i'm going to cry
can i note you?
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I hope he is okay, and I hope you and him can talk about it soon ;-;
We are rooting for you and him bb
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thank you baby. <3 we'll be alright, you know that we will
we always have
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well you two make sure you take some time for yourselves and get plenty of rest and remember to message each other a bunch <3
love you both and want you both to be happy
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This was not your fault. You did everything you could with what you were given. You did very well. You're very strong.
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thank you so much for your support
I don't think I'm strong
If i had the choice, none of this would have ever happened
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That's fair... not everyone thinks they're strong, even if they are
Regardless, i'm glad that you made it through this. It's tough
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i'm not really sure what to say other than that i am around if you want someone to talk to ok
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thank you hun, that means a lot to me
i dont know, i think i just need to cry it out, its just too much of a burden to put on people this time, i know how heavy this topic is
when he messages me back...whenever he does, i just need to talk to him about this again, cause its killing me inside
point is anyways, thank you for commenting on the piece
it means a lot more than you think heh
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it important to remember the good times you guys had
and to keep your thoughts positive. you are in charge of your own life.
and he meant so much to you, he wouldnt want you to blame yourself
when you feel depressed or suicidal do we blame someone else?
no we just feel trap in ourselves. I know Ive felt so low and trapped inside
internally. I would never blame someone else for my actions or thoughts
and he doesnt blame you. and you dont need to blame yourself.
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he's in the hospital right now and he's told me many times not to blame myself, constantly, he says it wasn't me, it was his mother, that he was delusional, that its absolutely not my fault, and that i was the one who pulled him out of the delusion
but if i never caused him to go into one, he wouldn've never been in this position
the thing that kills me is he has permanent nerve damage and won't be able to draw again and i just
i cant
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I hope you can get over these thoughts and I really hope je comea out okay and manages to heal up enough ;0; *hugs* just let it out the best you can
I hope you both can get together sometime soon, you both need each other's support hhhhh
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thats horrible.
nerve damage where?
only in his hands?
i hope he can heal
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me too
but the doctors said its permanent so i like
mm
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Stay strong
of course its not your fault.
no ones fault at all really
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