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Model: Alisonyea, im a morbid freak, and i made a 3rd one, this is A LOT diff than the other 2 but i stuck to the original concept, i might make more but idk
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I like it for many reasons, the converse, the jeans, and it's simple, not trying too hard to prove anything : D
tbh i duno why people are like commenting on suicide, but i really couldn't care, it's expression. i've found it helps to stop or numb the thoughts of depression and stuff by creating this kinda stuff, drawing, poetry, that kinda thing. it helps me, so call it what you want. but i'm not all for it for many reasons, you know? : )
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i think its selfish to those around the person, but for the person its either the great escape or a cry for attention.
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yeah cus a mate of mine kept saying i was only 15 and stuff.
yeah i guess, i always thought it was easier to disappear from it than to try to tackle it to fail or force my self through more than i could carry.
in all honesty, and i don't mean this in any offense to any body, but wanting to be understood is forgetting who you are and focusing on some of the things that you do rather than what makes you you, you know? it's like a hidden unconscious decision that takes over you where your always questioning it rather than living with who you are or what happened and stuff. the only real solution that i'm in favor of is trying to build from it, to some day you have made change where it doesn't matter any more.
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definently, and eactly why im planning on being a teacher
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Good luck
i had an idea of what i wanted to be, i wanted to be a RAF Regiment Gunner, i changed my mind because i thought it was immoral and it wouldn't be a life that i made the most of it. Sure traveling the world and seeing new things an all but you don't have a lot of control of who you are once your a soldier, like going on tour for months being away from family, and it wouldn't be fair on them if i was killed, thats my main reason, i don't really think i have a future so the RAF would be a good thing to fade away into, but i also decided i'll stick around for the people who care about me. now i'm in my last few weeks of high school and thinks are looking kinda grim, for going to college, my grades are pickin' up and i've started to take back my life, but is it too late?
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same exact boat. considered the marine path, and im doin the same with school, never got above a 2.1 and this year i finally got a 4.0, too bad im a senior lol. im doin community college route, transfering, and then joining peace core.
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Sounds cool, personally i couldn't be in that environment where others are less fortunate like me, i'd feel really guilty and stuff = )
right now i feel like i'm at my end, almost like my thought of a future is beyond a mystery, or does not exist, would that mean that i could make it anything i wanted? but i feel certain that there is nothing there, like i'm no longer here, and its a kinda scary thought because i'm thinking of why that is. Clueless
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just figure out what you want you want to be remembered for, then do it.
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i've always been there for my mates, always cheerful (funny enough) and being sarcastic. Ohh and my love for Drum&Bass (although i'm listening to Miley Cyrus - Party In The USA atm xD hahaa youtube recommendation) but like love also to listen to alternative, rock, metal and some bring me the horizon. And possibly giving advice and my talent at drawing. Come to think about it i've got a few talents, being very descriptive, imaginative, and being able to make poetry/rhymes = )
but thats just my social life, i cba being a social worker because i couldn't cope everyday with family type problems, the taliban is something i can manage though and military discipline, but i don't want to be a soldier, you know?
ahh well, hey theres a song that has a good lyric that i think it true. Baz Luhrmann - Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)
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''Donβt feel guilty if you donβt know what you want to do with your lifeβ¦the most interesting people I know didnβt know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still donβt.'' = ) only then did i remember this song, its one of the most honest songs
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peace core might be good for you, no need to feel guilty if your doing your best to help those who above all need the most help.
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yeah i know what you mean, not sure tbh i'm more of a soldier than a carer, you know? I'm weird like that = )
the only reason i'd feel guilty is by the conditions and what they have to go through and how i for so long ignored it, and took for granted what i have what i wish i had, when some of these people are laughing and smiling through the day with the lack things they have.
i hope it works out for you btw
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totally understandable
yea, im scared shitless and im going after blowing thousands of dollars on an education, ahhh scary but im still excited, i have to make a difference in someones life
thank you : )
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thats exactly what i want to do, make some one else's life a lot better, i had a spell where i was helping some of my mates get through depression and thoughts of suicide, funny how people can be soo stubborn to realize some times it ain't so bad = )
and your welcome
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one thing that i've found recently is ignoring all the stuff which annoys and upsets me to blank it out n stuff to live happily, but i can't help but feel that i'll be leaving behind almost like my conscious or something.
but it feels more emptier or more secure, i'm not sure really. but i can say that it's certainly improving a few things. i might have spoken too soon, but i hope not.
i seem to always over look everything soo much to find an answer, cus i can be weird like that = )
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and yet they seem to rule our lives......hmm life sucks tbh, when you aren't in control = ) and thanks, i guess yet again??
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you arnt wierd, everyone else is. trust me, you are normal.
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Somehow it looks happy, although it is sad. But i like these red converse ^^.
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it is happy in a way, a final release u kno?
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it can be interpreted however u want
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Pants?! Pristine Chucks?! Suicide??! It doesn't compute.
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skinny jeans+converse+suicide=emo
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Really?
Well, sh*t. That just makes me old.
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those r skinny jeans?
lol. Those r some loose skinny jeans. :]
Its pretty. I like it though I dont think suicide is a way out :\
I dont think you can really call it 'suicide' but i think you can. You know, the whole heaven's gate thing.
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lol i kno, my ass is huge lol nd my legs r really thin
oh no me neither, i had my ex in mind when i was doin this one the original i was messin around nd then i had an idea fr a suicide in heels thing nd it escaladed to this
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well, idk.
Its really cool. Im a cheapo so i bought mine on sale
so i dont have black. I have maroon :\
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lol im a red neck so i stick with good ol levi
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I used to buy levi stuff.
But for some reason ive noticed i dont really want anything but certain brands. I dont like it!
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levi will last years and years, i had a pair that lasted 26 years of solid abuse lol
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oh wow, my stuff breaks fast.
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well levi are tru blue jeans, they were originally made fr farmers who needed a sturdy fabric to withstand serious abuse
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Haha, well, even tho i live in a subdivision,
we have farm lads all around.
I see farmers' kids and they dont wear levis O:<
haha. o wow, im gay.
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lol in the past i mean lol, my familyis made up of quite a few farmers nd all they wore were levis
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lol, idk whut else to say.
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